I really don't hate any of them. Except Leslie Murden should wipe that self-satisfied look off her face, if she still has it on, from "saving" all kinds of "addicts and alcoholics". She took part in child abuse at Straight, Inc. and possibly afterward as it seems to be her career interest. Really if I could I would ring her up and see if she ever figured anything out and if she could help us in any kind of incident/information gathering that would be necessary for the record and possibly otherwise useful. But really I would want to have some psychological back-up. It is easy to snap into the abuse/victim role you had before. I think it is a well-known psychological phenomenon. People do it with their families, so everyone kind of knows what I am talking about, and it would stand to reason that people who were in a cult have a similar problem.
I would really like to see all kinds of former staffers showing up at protests and talking to reporters about what went on. I believe it is possible that they were as hurt by Straight, or more so. You can see how it felt to Rich Bradbury and Jen Loar to wake up and realize that they had been a pawn in a terrible scene of child abuse. What a nightmare, I think we all feel guilty and ashamed enough of what we did in there on our phases. And don't try to say how great you were, or less abusive than anyone else. It was the day in day out hatred I got from other phasers, or else just the fact they didn't cop me out when I was getting abused on first phase, that really helped out a lot in my own personal damage from straight. We were all sorry sucker zombie machines, no more or less guilty. If some shithead staffer was abusing people, and you did not take your newcomers home that night and cop them all out, you are in some way responsible for subjecting those people to that abuse, if things ever got worse for one of your former newcomers. We were kids and I can easily forgive all that, I'm just saying, that's all. It gets annoying for people to say they really weren't that bad when everyone was bad and guilty, that is how Straight, Incorporated ran and stayed alive. Everyone abusing each other.
It's not like I have an interest in rounding up former staffers, but on a person to person level, maybe they should get their lights clocked just a bit, if only for the healing to the former victim of theirs that would probably happen if the victim got the chance to clock them; just once, to humiliate them in public or give them a bloody nose or something would say to the victim that yes, they can succeed now at taking down someone who once victimized them. I neither condone nor participate in fist fighting or clocking or anything, I just like to present alternative points of view. I have less than no use for former staffers who come around and try to tell me that so and so staffer was really a good guy. It's pathetic. I think we can all agree that when those staffers were doing to us what they were doing, they were shitheads and child abusers. No doubt about it. They were suckers and soulless brainwash victims, I can take that point of view, but they were not, at that time at least, "good guys".