I'm fucking serious, the RTC can help you. PM Rabbi Dopeman for info. Don't be put off by the silly usernames, or the fact that RTP is an admitted polydrug user. Read between the lines of their propaganda releases, and you'll see that these guys really know wwhat they are talking about. They don't have any kind of one-size-fits-all "program" or anything like that, but they do know a LOT about programming/deprogramming the human biocomputer (brain). You've got nothing to lose by PMing them for a consultation at least, and it's a lot more effective, it's safer, and it typically cost less than seeing some know-it-all shrink who wouldn't do you a damn bit of good anyway. If nothing else, the RTC can suggest other sources of information for you regarding overcoming Straight-induced brainwashing. What have you got to lose?