ya man, I figured that was expected by the time you're reached third phase. I got set back a few times 'cos I got busted. Them was some whacky ass days, gettin 'set back' just b/c my parents were paying to keep me out of trouble or something. I liked dating the girls, the older ones who knew I was in 'lockup' really were fun. They once or twice showed up to Straight asking for me. I got fucking ripped for that one.
This one guy named Dave in our group used to date his step cousin. Man, she was hot. Well, he was always smokin out in the straight bathrooms and shit. That guy is probly doing some good shit with his life now I bet.
But there was always some shit you never told even if you did get busted. I got high a few times while in Straight. You get busted for that you practically had to drop a fucking major gut just to get out of setback. I lost a few friends to copout or their parents pulled them from their setbacks. I wonder how they is doing these days ya know. I bet they still smoke out like they did.
You get down to high school and weed was just rampant ya know. some of the kids would bring it in class and they wouldn't smoke it but they'd sure as shit eat it like it was candy. It's trippier that way.
Carrie, an old friend of mine from high school was always there for me during Straight. I guess she was a druggy friend. She used to suck a mean dick and I could never bring myself to let on about that shit. Not even during the time I got busted for dating and being 'gamey' with the girls at school (yeah I had a few Straightlings going with me to school at that time, too, that was the worst and you had to pretend to get along with them and shit cos we were all gettin straight) and I got ratted out by a dude who was doing the same thing. In fact, when I did finally get back to school in the middle of the next semester I saw that sumbitch gettin a girl's number. She was a fucking Cop Out!!! God Dammit.
A few times the host homes we'd go to would get a parent's weekend off and all of us patient's would have to have a sleep over in the building at Straight. Our bathrooms had showers and all necessities for eating and w/e. Staff would let us be a bit more open toward females at that point. Not gamey per se but just like talk to them or w/e. So, a few of the girls', those god dammed devils, especially the ones on second phase would show their pussies to the boys they liked. It wasn't an overt thing. We used our wharehouse like a court and they once let us play some sports in there, like tapepuck hockey with some sticks. The girls and boys all had to wear shorts. Well, the guys sat on one side of this roomy wharehouse - and me and my friend kept looking across the room at 2nd phasor Amanda. We sized them all up that day. Who was the finest? Which one had the biggest tits. I figured everybody knew what everyone was doing. Even Connor M. was in on that one, I wonder if that fucker remembers me.
I really do not rememember the names of the staff that weekend except a few unimportant ones. But I do remember that days got called in very shortly after that shindig.
Another thing was that some of us figured that a few of the fifth phasors may have been dating. I mean, once you make it to that phase you are SO desperate to get your dick or cooch smooched or sucked or w/e the fuck that its all good. I personally think John and Tara were dating during the program. They were always sympatico with each other in and out of group and during training for staff. I saw John coming out of the women's bathroom up front once. I waited around to see Tara come out soon after, without looking suspicious me.
One more thing and then I'm done. Some of the graduates in my program had not considered drinking beer to be a problem. We lived with a graduate family for awhile after they'd gotten out and we saved on some rent and shit. Well, Rich had just gotten out and him and Jerry were always throwing their garbage away. About two months after both of their graduations I noticed lots o' beer cans in and around the trash on several occasions. I wish I coulda joined them, cos I was merely along for the ride at Straight all those years ago.
I smoked during my program, I cheated in school like I always did so I could pass, I copied older M.I.s to make them into new ones cos after all that time you get tired of finding new dumb shit to write about. Let's see, I left a few times and sorta copped out for the day - Carrie knew the secretary and so once we got out of school truant. I used to steal dumb little shit from the nurse's office. Aspirin, bandages and shit like that, tape, gauze. I'd take shit from the secretary's front when I was on work duty. Mostly this shit would all get thrown away. My dad and mom and myself we always argued while I was in treatment. It bettered itself while I was in, but it got worse out of it, but there was always just this sort of like wall or barrier named 'Straight' that merely kept us all from peeling into each other so bad. Straight never addressed these issues. And so for this I got smart and started to talk more about issues in group. At home I could argue and I would talk about shit that did not exist in group.
I know for a fact that a few other females did this too, they'd caught on to what Straight was about and they would come up with some seriously fucked up shit that would make people wince or even laugh. And not all necessarily b/c the group would keep from laying into you, partially b/c it was just plain stupid to do it.
I guess Straight wasn't all bad if you look at it from the viewpoint of utilizing streetsmarts to get around some of the beatings that took place. Of course, having everyone else be fairly streetsmart made it harder and more competitive to get anything done. I'm glad I'm not there anymore.
