I ran from myself, (yes I did have problems before Straight :smile:
From family conflict, shrieking voices in the night :evil: my parents wouldn't have wanted to discuss that so the asking why was irrelevant to them.
Next I ran from Straight. I ran from conflict certainly.
They told me that all I am is a pile of crap who hurt and is responsible for all the hurts to every person I ever knew; I don't want to stay and deal with that conflict. I admitted to and became things I hated myself for. When I couldn't run anymore, then I had to sit down and sink in to the fact that I was lower than worthless, I was goddam lucky to be there where they stooped low enough to help me.
They made me see my "true self".
No frieking wonder people have done so horribly after they left there!
Who wants to stay and deal with that conflict?
In either case, no one ever asked me why, they didn't care. They just stuck me back in, easier than dealing with any real problems.
Such a totally base, simple and silly answer: "She's running from herself"
The fourth time I copped out, I was finally allowed to withdraw.
My father would have had me there until I graduated. I know in my heart of hearts that that never would have been allowed to happen.
What would have happenned to me then? Had I not ran away, I would surely be dead or insane by now.