On 2005-10-12 19:20:00, Anonymous wrote:
"... I remember he came back to school the following year and he would not talk to me. It was devastating to me. He tried to infer that I was a druggie for the simple reason I did not go to this program. Could what I am describing be typical of Seed...."
Oh yeah. That's the dogma alright. I'm sure your friend was, inside, just as confused by his behavior as you were. Sorry you had to experience that kind of rejection. But please understand, it was just as horrible, if not worse, on the other side of the equation.
For a seed kid going back to his or her old school, especially where there were no other seed kids around, no one could have possibly been good enough, honest enough or "straight" enough to be a friend of a seedling.
Weighing the choice of keeping everyone away by whatever means necessary to remain "straight" in the druggie world of high school against getting sent back to the seed for talking to someone...that choice was fairly simple and excrutiatingly painful at the same time.
Some would say it is a weak person's way out, and maybe they are right. I erred on the side of NOT getting sent back just like your friend did. Meaning I treated people who did me absolutely no harm as though they were "bad" people. It made a lonely life for me, of that you can be sure.
Sad to say, but your friend was most likely a pretty lonely guy till he got out of it. Hopefully he has reconciled his experience as best he could.
[ This Message was edited by: Stripe on 2005-10-13 19:16 ][ This Message was edited by: Stripe on 2005-10-13 19:16 ]