Dragonfly said-----------?Is that a pre-straight tendency or caused by being torn open??----------------------
You know, about the pre-mature committer thing, I?m not sure if its because of Straight, pre-existing issues, or an awful combination of both. I think its hard to sort out come to think of it. I guess the only way to get a handle on that may be to take a good hard look at oneself before straight?.what issues caused problems before? Then?what issues existed after Straight?
To explain my thinking, for me?I know before straight I had never gotten over my parents divorce and had little contact with my mother after the divorce?.so I always thought (until a month ago) that my tendency to commit too quickly stemmed only from my emotional loss of my mother. I mean this on a subconscious level, at least when I was younger, because at that time it was not in the forefront of my mind. As I got older I figured that out about myself, and have tried to reign in that habit?but naturally have not found a way to break myself of it?
Now realizing that Straight is likely to be part of the equation, its very obvious Straight has cause at least some of my relationship problems, especially the tendency to be overly honest?and to have extremely high standards of how honest the other person has to be with me?.
Dragonfly also mentioned ----?creating healthy boundaries?-----My question still to this day is?How do you undo the damage, break the vicious unhealthy relationship cycle, and create healthy boundaries in the process?.I still feel like I am lying if I don?t reveal everything.
And I am way to sympathetic and understanding, so I cant reject someone (create a healthy boundary) just because they have issues? I actually feel like I should hang in their with them despite their problems. The was I see it, who doesn't have issues???
I mean after being in Straight?its really hard for me to be critical of men exhibiting issues that usually lead to trouble. Maybe Straight caused me to become a classic co-dependent?but on the other hand, I firmly believe in compassion and understanding and I absolutely refuse to fall into the destructive tough love mentality.
So, in a nutshell I have no clue how to have healthy boundaries, and I think Straight compounded my pre-existing issues and created new ones.
[ This Message was edited by: nonconformistlaw on 2005-09-02 13:16 ][ This Message was edited by: nonconformistlaw on 2005-09-02 13:16 ]