I was reading the blogs again about PV, I like the one about the hyperactive kid, I don't believe in ADD, hyperactivity ok. ADD is just a diagnosis they give kids who are not doing well in school.
It also annoys me that PV always gets billed as a mental institution or juvie. I'm not nuts! I'm not even depressed, which considering is pretty good. I have some post traumatic stress, and I know I do because there are symptoms that fit, but it's obvious to me I have post traumatic stress. It's not like "your toe hurts, you must have bronchitis." They want to fit everything in a neat package, and feed it expensive drugs that they are getting paid to give out , even if the label doesn't apply.
I don't like how this country works for kids and teens, The school system is crap! It's like a Pink Floyd song, "the machine" or something. It was so strict but at the same time it was like living in a bad neighborhood. It seemed too, if you reported abuse, you got in trouble so you didn't report it any more, not to mention the hazing you received from the other kids. I was sexually harassed like you wouldn't believe in high school. Every morning at the crack of dawn, color in the lines, study study study, two three hours of homework after putting in a seven hour day already. And you are always wrong, your teacher can be a total jerk, there are a few of them out there, but you are always wrong. Is it any wonder kids don't want to go, rebel or start beating their heads against the wall. I just had a sort of sit down strike, I didn't want to go, I thought it was all wrong, so they put me in a prison camp? HMMMM? Not an abusive family/ system at all. I have seen such horrible abuse and stupid people and unfortunately/ fortunately I like history, I sometimes wonder if we can ever get beyond just the Nazi part of humanity? Perhaps it's just a matter of damage control, What is most frightening, I find, is the face it wears. It's "banality", thank you hannah arrendet. She wrote "the Banality of Evil" after the Nuerenburg trials, about Eichman. It's all about how normal this horrible guy seemed, how normal in many ways he really was. How, sitting behind a desk, knowing perfectly well what he was doing, he kills thousands. She describes him as reminding her of a local police chief, just ordinary, not a monster in dress or speech, just a really normal almost nice seeming guy? No wild eyes and mouth foam?
I'm sick of being hit on by sixty year olds in the book store too, "thank you sir It's so appropriate for you to tell me I'm really hot and cute." Kids become anorexic and smoke pot and whatever, many of them because their lives are horrible, mine was. I think anorexia comes from issues of desperately wanting to control some aspect of your abusive life. Like an animal in a cage chewing it's foot off. The very high divorce rate among baby boomers, and the sheer immature viciousness in many of the divorces did not help their children much either.
I like another post that also comes up when you type in abuse at Peninsula Village, it has nothing to do with PV really, it's something from India's department of human services. It's talks about a survey of kids taken to see how many report relatively serious abuse. All told, verbal and physical, 89% of Indian children report being abused. The essay says this is relevant because parents are so completely in control of the well being of their children, not to mention teachers and such. There are wonderful teachers, but there are also total jerks. I can't even tell people how abusive my mother can be, because what is the first thing an idiot shrink is going to say, come on all PV people know, Why your mother must be crazy, so therefore, hereditarily you must be crazy, you both are Bi-polar. "But I'm never manic?" "no matter" "but I don't ever feel chemically depressed?" Even when I'm sad it relates to pretty immediate stuff and it doesn't knock me out or anything. "I don't have patterned episodes of highs and low?" No matter you have it any way, have some drug that eat your liver so you die at forty, painfully?" I also have my doubts about Bi-polar disorder, PMS and teenage girl hormones but whatever. I am moving to a damn New England farmhouse and home schooling my kids. People, history tells us, can be very abusive. My mother doesn't seem crazy to me, the throwing out my herbs and essential oils was a bit much, but I'm into Wicca and other random stuff. Nothing scary, it's just an entertaining hobby. But my mother takes offence to witchcraft, I think the poisoning comment she made was in regards to some belief witchcraft attracts evil or is evil or something? She is very normal most of the time, almost, she's just abusive. I certainly think abuse is a form of mental illness, but I'm not sure they have it pinpointed in the DSM very well. I've been around many abusive people and I think a lack of ability to see life from the perspective of others, or to have empathy, is at least a symptom. Abusive people tend to be cold in the face of things that would bother most folks. I'm not abusive so I don't know, prejudice justifies abuse, my mom is pretty prejudice about a lot of things? She is a strong upholder of the status quo, very nationalistic? What disorder would you give about sixty percent of Germany, a very nice country, I have been there my best friend really was German, or half German actually, during the war? Racists in the south? I think she has that disorder? I love her too, and she is not "evil" it's not black and white, she can be kind sometimes, kinda sort of. ok kind and empathetic actually maybe not, and I'm not just being mean, she doesn't do understanding, but she can be nice, and ordinary. She can be happy? I'm not sure that is the same thing as kindness. It's weird to write this because I usually just make excuses for her, no really I do, but in direct translation, WOW, she really isn't very nice?
