Peninsula Village

[Anonymous]

the abuse was just so bad you know? i would like some support.
I had to transfer out of my nice private women’s college to the public university because my father yelled so much about money last year.
 my semester this year cost 2100.00, that's it.  
The womens college was 10000.00 a semester.
 It's been an ordeal and put me behind.  
Instead of some kind of thanks,
 I had to do all this crap, to get things to transfer and eat about a ton of humble pie
I also didn't get to take as many classes as i wanted last year  because my father and mother got really nasty and started beating me up about how I had to work more, so I did.
apparently I have it so great here

SO basically I did everything he wanted me too, and did it pretty nicely, I gave him 1500.00 at christmas and another 800. a bit later.  
i worked my ass off and changed schools, which is hard considering my high school credits are from a program and what happens this week
 my father throws a big fit about the 2100.00 tuition and not working 32hrs a week for 7 an hour at Barnes & Nobles.
i want to take full time classes this semester so  can actually graduate some time soon.
i posted on another page all the crap i had to go through to get into the  affordable state school with high school credits from PV
even with three years of high grades in college.

my mom is her same old charming self.
i figured it out, she never stops talking, and she allows no one else to talk
ever,
i don't think i've ever finished a complete sentence around my mother, for real.  
you get three words out and that's it she's talking right over you
heaven forbid you say something she doesn't like or disagrees with

i'm not exaggerating at all, it's really pronounced.
i think she is the most self centered human being alive
it's like it's painful for her to listen to someone else talk
it can be anything, third word
i don't think I've ever finished a sentence around her
the best thing I've learned is to just not say anything and nod and smile and agree with her.

it's horrible though, because there is no conversation
i know it sounds cliche but i wish they would listen once in a while
and of course not be none stop overbearing and in your face

[Anonymous]

Tell both of them to dive off a cliff and eat shit. It sounds like you could pay your own way through college if you tried.

If they ask why, tell them Fornits made you do it.

[Froderik]

Tell both of them to dive off a cliff and eat shit.

:rofl:

[Anonymous]

I've never really been into going to strip clubs...
I have good friends who like to partonize them though.
And sure, I've been to them, but it was always someone else's idea to go.
It's just not my thing...and never has been.
There's very little romance involved in a thing like that.

I hear you.  What's the point of the strip club?  You go, pay $10 a drink, pay an exorbitant amount for a lap dance from a woman who considers you a subhuman, and you still go home and end up beating the bishop.  I mean, shit, for ten dollars you can get a whole six pack of Black Label, a tube of lube and a rented copy of "Caught From Behind, XII".  Drink the Black, watch the anal intrusions and choke your Cheney, before heading off to bed with your money intact.  

I did know this hair-trigger premature ejaculator who said a lap dance was well worth the money to him, he got the bonus plan.

[Che Gookin]

Hahahahaha awesome! black label  eh? I haven't seen that brand of beer in years. Used to be Pabst Blue Ribbon when I was a wee lad. Or some crap called lucky's lager.

Hey Mokara seriously though bear in mind as much as it sucks now you will be graduating. On that day just remember to turn around on the podium after they give your diploma and extend both your middle fingers to your parents.

Yeah you have to suck shit on occasion whilst going through college its part of the deal. I went to a state college and still got whined at for tution. Of course my deal was probably a little different considering I was almost expelled three times for various crimes against humanity.  One of my rugby buddies actually was expelled for blowing up a pumpkin with an M-80 on the pool table in his dorm.

[stoodoodog]

Hahahahaha awesome! black label  eh? I haven't seen that brand of beer in years. Used to be Pabst Blue Ribbon when I was a wee lad. Or some crap called lucky's lager.

THAT WAS IT!!!! LUCKY'S!!!!
Last weekend I was talking to my husband and I was trying to remember the name of the beer that had the little concentration type puzzles on the lids.
It has been frustrating this past year when my memory suddenly fails me for important things like that....THANKS PV.
Please don't accuse me of not staying of topic?

PS The snot of a seven year old is like nectar of the Gods to a parent with a teenager

[Che Gookin]

BTW what is the fornit's tradition for the 69th post???

[Anonymous]

I know i said this before but
babara ehrenreich's book
Nickel & Dimed
On (not) getting by in America
is the best book ever written
it's just so true
wonder if i could get my father to read it
i maybe then he would stop calling me a communist when i say i work in a sweat shop for 7 dollars an hour
is it communist to say we need a higher minimum wage because working in unskilled jobs, even nice one's like department stores, is brutal?
forget waitressing or house keeper.  
i waitressed and it was scary, it was at the very nice restaurant across the street from my parents expensive neighborhood.
but the sexual harassment was really bad and one of the other women i worked with moonlighted at a strip club, i think as a prostitute
she didn't dance, i don't know
this one guy kept cornering me in the pantry and brushing up against me while he leered.
i just thought it was weird that my parents and all their snooty Mercedes driving friends were eating food that a prostitute had put all the condiments on, she didn't wear gloves.
i got mad and quit, i hated it, it was painful
 i think the whole stupid communist thing is just a blind these days
it's propaganda so that companies don't have to pay their help a reasonable wage like more then 6 7 or 8 dollars an hour
 and stupid people swallow it and  cut you off with  the propaganda
and the slaves keep working and all that
it's true too
if someone disagrees with me they should do an experiment like Barbara did,
go get a unskilled level job, waitress, department store clerk, house keeper, selling appliances somewhere, i sold them at Sears, grocery store clerk,
Do it for more then a summer, and try to make ends meet with it

these are the kind of jobs places like PV prepare teens for, with the horrific abuse and the no books and going to school half the school week sometimes.
Again I just transferred out of a 10000. a semester private college to an affordable State college,
At my fathers very heavy handed insistence
It was really really hard to get into the State school, even with three years of good college grades.
Even now I’m in some special program,
they don’t want  a GED student from a behavioral modification program!
Many of the kids out of PV can’t afford to pay their way into a small private liberal arts school for the above price a semester
if you don't believe me go try it your damn self

i'm not a communist, I love Ayn Rand
We the Living is also the best book ever written
it's about a young women trying to make ends meet after the Communists take over Russia
I love it because i find total parallels to my life in the good old capitalist USA
six in one half dozen in the other, it's just what people do and have always done
if there are not good laws to protect people from being exploited, as 19th century mill workers, or Greek and roman slaves, share croppers, Victorian house servants, ordinary people in Mao's Great Leap Forward,

humans exploit other humans unless the laws keep them from doing so
and in America today people without college educations are being exploited very badly
7 dollars an hour is a joke! and a horrible one
it's the companies really
they make a bunch of money and have ties to legislators
they are the sponsors on TV and they feed people a bunch of propaganda to spout
the McCarthy era is still alive and well i have found when i talk about how bad i have seen this aspect of society to be.
and i'm not making it up
like Barbara Ehrenreich i am living it
i make 7 dollars an hour at Barnes & Noble
i have to live with my abusive family so i can finish college, so i don't always have to live in this,
i have worked these kinds of jobs for years now
and like so much of my life you don't know how horrible it is to live under this and have people not believe you and find fault with you because of it.
that's the worst aspect of it, to work so hard you are sick and to be treated like you are lazy because of it
I just wish they would believe me and listen to me
It’s everything , they don’t believe me about anything and it’s so hard
My parents are so callous too
The last ten years of my life have been horrific
Sexual abuse at 14 and 15, he went away and came back, like all good stalkers,
and PV
and then they kicked me out at 18 and drove me over to this 28 years olds house I had dated a few times,
he wanted to be more serious, I didn’t have a car
My mother wanted me to marry him? It was all nice and great in her eyes.
I balked at the thought of it,
 I consider it more parent sanctioned sexual abuse.
They gave me no money when I moved  out again at 21 and not being able to make ends meet working was one of the main reasons  the overbearing yelling horror of a fiancé moved in.
He was decent at pretending to not be too horrible, at least enough of them time
He was kind of like my family
Horribly abusive, and overbearing,
then sweet kind of and they buy you things you don‘t ask for,
then hold the things they bought you,
small things hardly diamonds or anything, roses or something,
over your head,
You ungrateful wench and such
I think he had that thing, he was older too, 28, where he liked women who were vulnerable in society because he could sort of own them?
I think my manager at work has a bit of it too.
So any way my life has been horrific abuse, mental physical emotional and sexual
For the last ten years
It has been really bad and I wish my family would believe me, listen to me and help me with it,
And of course stop abusing me
How do you explain abuse to the abusers?

again too
i don't like abuse
i hate abuse
i spent every time i saw the stalker trying to break it off with him
he was threatening browbeating and physically abusive i was afraid
and i was 14 i didn't know what the hell a stalker was
i brought him home the first week
and my mother liked him?
i don't know what the hell was going on there
i think it was punishment for rebelling against her
i found a picture of him not long ago
he was not 17 by a long shot
sure to fool a 14 year old ok,
again agreed to go to a movie with him
not to be his till an untimely death
but to an adult there was no way he was 17
even 17 is too old to date a 14 year old!
he was a man, facial hair and solid build, he looks like his hair line is starting to receed, i'm guessing 25
as an adult i would have taken one look at him and called the police.
why wouldn't my mother have done something
he came to the house because i wouldn't go out because i was afraid of him and banged on the door and my mother was there and we just hid till he went away?
i think it's denial mixed with abuse or something?
what the hell, i'm scared of these people
and they are so tempermental
i never know what to expect
but i have no money and i don't make any money
should i go on welfare till i finish college
can i go on welfare
my dad told me too
again we live in one of the more expensive country club neighborhoods and they drive a mercedes
and i gave him a lot of the money i made last year
and cut my classes back so i could work more
and i don't cost very much
he gets very upset about the grocery bill
my dads getting pretty weird about money

i guess it's being retired or something
i don't know
i was understanding about transfering to the State school and
it was hard but i did it and i felt good about it
like it was the right thing to do
i was trying to be reasonable and work with them
all that happened is it's just the same as before
he still is just as nasty about the money
i have nothing to show for working last year except a long painful year
i just feel like the rugs going to be pulled out from under me
im taking a full course load this semester
and it's done and paid for
i have to
i don't want to work in retail for ever
i'm not sure i could
it doesn't pay enough to live
i'm just scared of living here


Survivors of torture and abuse all of it
It is real
I need something
I am afraid
How uncompassionate they are
Abusive I have endured and taken
All of it
Why can’t they understand
I need peace caring
To be listened to
I am alone
Have been abused
I am abused
What ca n I do
Be careful
On a tightrope
Agree always with them
I feel them they want to hurt me
Hatred am I right
Or just fearful
Callous
They push me out
To him
On a whim
Always so ready
She talks and talks
Interrupting me every third word
With what she thinks about
what I have to say  
I am pitying myself
In a party
Do something about it
In response to anything I say
I don’t like complaining
Everyone has PTS
I haven’t finished  a sentence around her
In years
Never disagree
The prison camp and the rapes
And the man that took me in
Understand I am abused
To her it is ok
He’s nice
Counting pennies
More abuse
Never talking only yelling
I have no money
I am owned by you
I dream of running
Or men trying to rape me
of your abuse
I was a slut
Like a cat in heat
At 14
You let him rape me
How can I make you see
The abuser
How horrible this abuse is
It has been horror
You know this
You alone know how bad it has been
The facts in all their nightmarish horror
How can you not show me some understanding
You horror
So you will beat it out of me again, my sadness
At the after shock of what I’ve endured
Please admit and accept
For once what I have endured and be kind
I wish I could lock my door
I am afraid to ask
Last time she practically broke it down
Snarling her temper
My god, the next day
She is happy
Always talking
In my face bobbing
What are you doing
Touching my hair
Reaching around me
Standing on top of me
I open my mouth
I am corrected
I say three words
I am interrupted
I have side effects
I can’t sleep
I have horrible dreams
I am exhausted
My life has been non stop horror
Stress and pain
What I have endured is not normal
Since 14 or 9
When you fought like madmen all the time
then you buy me something
Talk and talk
Cheerfully singing
Chatter that never stops but edged like razor wire
What are you doing
Don’t put that there
I am alone completely
Isolated in my abuse
With him and with you
And the rapist
And the place you put me

I can pay my way through college?
what the fuck?
give me a break
and how am i supposed to do this
making 7 dollars an hour?
and going to school full time?
i applied for financial aid and didn't get any
my father makes too much money
i don't get you people
and enough with the macho conversations about prostitutes and strippers and such
as always you prove my point
we have stupid macho male bullshit
and the American way of hard work
pays for everything
poor people are just lazy
fuck you jackasses
if we added all of you up we might have the intelligence of a box of rocks
and i get of topic  :roll:

[Anonymous]

when my parents kicked me out at 18 too
they really kicked me out
my mother literally shoved me out the door
and started throwing things after me
i had yelled at her
because she was being her usual abusive self
and said something horrible as i was getting breakfast
and getting ready to go to work at a pet store
my dad tried to let me back in and she called the police
PV way over empowered my mother
and she told the police my father had hit her and shoved her
and i had to leave
then my dad drove me over to the 28 year olds house
who i'd been out with a few times
i didn't have a car
My mother really liked this guy
he seemed to be in love with me
wanted to get married
it was nuts.
i was taking a class at the university where i am enrolled now
and i ended up failing it because i was eighteen, out of a prison camp
i had no car,
and my parents had kicked me out to live with and marry a grown man
that was the big part, i had no car, although the rest certainly contributed
and i had been doing well in the class untill then
and if anyone says anything about taking a bus I'm going to be really mad and write them off as a complete idiot.
to this day my mother says i broke Jeremys heart
and i'm so horrible and so on
how's that for one hell of a family
of course if i had a daughter i would have said he's to old
instead my mother told me a bunch of stories about how she dated old people in college
and tried to pawn me off on the guy


Also with the class i failed when i was eighteen,
the university lets you take one or two classes without being enrolled,
the plan was if i did well i could perhaps apply for formal admittance

instead now, years later, when i've taken three years of college elsewhere, the damn class i failed when i was eighteen, brought down my grade point average at the school and caused all sorts of trouble when transferring from the womens college
it seems like colleges should have a sorry i was being married off to an adult by my insane family clause? or at least an abusive situation one

[Froderik]

and enough with the macho conversations about prostitutes and strippers and such
as always you prove my point
we have stupid macho male bullshit
and the American way of hard work
pays for everything
poor people are just lazy
fuck you jackasses
if we added all of you up we might have the intelligence of a box of rocks
and i get of topic

Hey, some women are into showing off their bodies and making $ at that.
And I say more power to them so long as they're into it.
Prostitution is legal in other countries.

I don't think anyone here said "poor people are just lazy."
That was quite a hyperbole you made there. ^

[Anonymous]

and yes my mother told the police my father hit her
she's done this a couple times
he hadn't hit her
she was shoving him away from the door
she's pretty physical
once a cab company called the police on my family too
because i was calling a cab
and somebody hit me
i think my father
and there was all this yelling
my family doesn't communicate very well
i think my dad didn't want me to go out when i was 21 or so
and i think he was right actually
but i was an adult by then
and of course hitting me and screaming at me
did nothing but make me run right away
you know?
again we live in a house not a trailer
and thats just more prejudice
as you can see people with mercedes anyway
and people in trailers are usually working poor maybe
i don't know
i hate republicans

[Anonymous]

they said i can work and live and pay my way through college
like hell i've tried
back a ways i got all these posts too about how i needed to go to school and work two jobs
and move out and pay my 500 a month rent while doing all this
i'm exhausted already
and i have PTS so i can't sleep at night, i'm exhausted

 read the Nickel and DImed book
these jobs are no joke
and i give up trying to reason
i know what i live in
i don't think women are strippers because they like it
i think that is a male fantasy
and college is full time job
i find that pretty warped honestly

[Anonymous]

who are you people any way
just curiouse
everyone tried to get me to sign in
i'm pretty clear about who i am
why don't people introduce themselves
like what program you were in
or are you just interested and why?

[Anne Bonney]

A lot of us do.  What do you want to know?

[Froderik]

read the Nickel and DImed book
these jobs are no joke
and i give up trying to reason
i know what i live in
i don't think women are strippers because they like it
i think that is a male fantasy
and college is full time job
i find that pretty warped honestly

I've heard of that book somewhere a long time ago; I'd like to check it out.
Never give up, you've only just begun to fight.
I think some women get off on it, certainly not all of them, though.
No, stripping isn't for everyone.
But you know, lots of jobs suck...and a lot of times no one has a gun to their heads making them strip.
And if I were a woman, I might pick stripping over being a waitress or something...it's fast money!
College does not have to be a full time job unless you take too many courses at once.
Plenty of people work their way through it...I'm sure you know this.
You find what pretty warped? Stripping?
(I'm assuming that's what you were referring to.)