Well, at least now you are making a little more sense. I was at Cedu-rs for all of 1991 & 1/2 of 1992 (I didn't stay to graduate, thank god!).
I believe that it is very possible that you were one of Rudy's favorites, and because of that he was easy on you. Most likely he was attracted to you. But to the rest of us, RUDY BENZ WAS AN ABUSIVE PIECE OF SHIT! RUDY is a bully, pure and simple.
RUDY treated me like shit for 1 year and 7 months. He Screamed at me, Labeled Me, Provoked Me, Threatened Me, Lied To My Parents About Me, and Humiliated Me Publicly. Let me tell you a little story about me and Rudy:
One morning when I was in Discovery, I was reading in the library while refusing a work assignment (I was supposed to be sitting at my table). Rudy came upstairs, screamed at me, and ordered me to go back to my table (in the dining room). After I told him to "Fuck Off", Rudy grabbed my arm, ripped me out of my chair, and physically tried to force me to go downstairs with him. After a brief scuffle (we wrestled around the library for a few seconds,) I managed to free my arm from Rudy's grasp after shoving him into a book shelf near the library door.
Mr. Big Bad Enforcer Rudy Benz (who thought he was going to show me who is boss) backed away from me real quick, he looked scared. Apparantly Rudy never thought about the fact that even though I was only 14 years old, I was as big as him, stronger than him, and there was no fucking way I would let him put his hands on me or push me around! He also forgot that the rest of the cedu staff were out supervising work crews or teaching "classes" on the other end of the building. We were all alone.
Rudy backed away to the office door on the other end of the room, the whole time pointing his finger at me and warning me not to come any closer (to him). I stayed where I was. Rudy
unlocked the door and opened it, then he stood the doorway and then started yelling again (I figured that Rudy planned to run in the office and slam the door in my face if I rushed him).
Rudy: "GET YOUR ASS BACK DOWN TO YOUR TABLE RIGHT NOW, OR I'LL CALL THE COPS AND HAVE THEM HAUL YOUR ASS AWAY FOR ASSAULTING ME!"
SOS: "GO AHEAD AND CALL THEM, YOU STARTED IT!"
Rudy: "I DIDN'T START SHIT!"
SOS: "FUCK YOU! YOU GRABBED ME AND YOU TRIED TO MAKE ME GO WITH YOU!"
Rudy: "WHO'S GOING TO BELIEVE YOU? THE COPS KNOW THAT YOU'RE OUT OF CONTROL AND THAT YOU FUCKED UP YOUR LIFE, THAT'S WHY YOU'RE HERE!
YOUR PARENTS THINK YOUR FULL OF SHIT TOO! NO ONE IS GOING TO BELIEVE YOU OVER ME! THEY'LL HAUL YOUR ASS TO JUVIE, AND AFTER THAT I'LL SEE TO IT THAT YOU SPEND SOME TIME IN THE PSYCHE WARD IN A FUCKING STAIGHT JACKET STARING AT PADDED WALLS!"
SOS: "GO AHEAD AND SEND ME TO THE FUCKING HOSPITAL, I FUCKING HATE THIS PLACE, I'D RATHER BE THERE ANYWAYS!"
At this point Rudy decided on a softer approach and stopped yelling.
Rudy: "Look, we both know that you really don't want to go to the Hospital. If you really feel that Cedu can't help you, then fine, I'll call your parents today and reccommend that we transfer you to another school. We'll get you out of here by tonight, but until then I can't have you wandering around disrupting everything. It's not fair to your peers who want to be here, and are trying to do something with their lives. Go back to your table and wait for me there, while I work out the details."
SOS: "Fine." (As stupid as I was, I actually believed that Rudy would keep his promise)
I went back to my table.
About an hour later GUY BONNANO
(discovery family head) and my
so-called "BIG BROTHER" Jeff Huber
came over and sat down.
GUY: "I hope you enjoy getting butt-fucked tonight!"
SOS: "What the Fuck are you talking about? Where's Rudy?"
GUY: "Rudy's on the phone with the sheriff
right now. He's coming over in about 20 minutes
to take Rudy's statement, then he's gonna haul your ass down to SAN BERNARDINO Juvenile Hall.
It's full of Niggers and Mexicans just waiting for a young-juicy-piece-of-ass like you to come their way. They've got group cells over there, so I hope you enjoy being butt-fucked!"
SOS: "That's Bullshit! Rudy said he was calling my parents to transfer me to another school."
GUY: "WAKE UP AND SMELL THE COFFEE! Do you really think you're going somewhere better than here? This is as good as it gets for you. We talked to your parents, they want nothing to do with you! The only place you're going after Juvie is lock down at Provo Canyon until you're 18! It's only gonna get a lot worse for you. You might as well split now while you still can."
SOS: "I don't believe you, I want to talk to my parents!"
GUY: "I DON'T GIVE A SHIT WHAT YOU WANT! The sheriff will be here any minute, and after that, you're not our problem anymore! And your parents want nothing to do with you! Why don't you leave right now? We won't stop you. Or go ahead and wait for the sheriff, either way you're life is fucked! Go ahead and leave, We don't care! You're not our problem anymore!"
SOS: "FINE I WILL, I HOPE YOU ROT IN HELL GUY!"
I got up and ran for the road.
I hitch hiked and got a ride off of the mountain to SAN BERNARDINO. I spent the night sleeping on the floor in a public bathroon at a park that I found. The following night I slept in a cemetary. I was really scared and I didn't know what was going to happen to me. After 2 days I finally called home (in chicago).
Obviously, Cedu had already gotten to my parents.
My mom wouldn't even talk to me,
so I talked to my dad. Guy Bonnano told
my parents that I just up and split when
I was supposed to be on a work assignment.
No mention of the altercation I had with
Rudy. Guy told my dad the he was "surprised"
I split because I had been doing well,
and he was right about to take me off
restriction. I tried to explain to
my dad what really happened.
He wouldn't even let me finish.
DAD told me I was "Manipulating" him
again like I had been my entire life, and
that he was sick of it. (My dad never used
that word to decribe my behavior before....
I knew that Cedu had him). Then dear old
dad told me I was lucky that CEDU still
wanted me after all the shit I pulled
there, and that Guy had told him that If I
didn't come back soon he would have to
drop me a peer group.
Then DAD told me not to call him again
until I was back at Cedu, and he hung up
on me. I tried calling back,
but they didn't answer the phone.
Cedu snowed me. Rudy never had any intention of helping me. They set this whole thing up so I would run away, and Cedu could once again turn my parents against me. What Could I do? I was fucked. They "Manipulated" me. I called the school, told them where I was, and the escort came and took me back to hell.
Gabrielle, I hope that by now you can at least consider the possibility that RUDY is not the man he conned you into believing he was. At any rate, I'm sure that you can understand why I despise him so.
As for the other staff you mentioned,
GUY BONANNO and JILL BENZ are both fuckeheads, and I have spent a considerable amount of time detailing my experiences with them in previous
posts. I've also written lengthly descriptions about several other abusive ex-cedu staff, including Steve Laird, Patrick Stambusky, & Russ Decker. You can look them up if you're really interested.
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