There is no dying. don't let them kill you, that's so horrible, i am very sad for you, I think I might know some how you feel, there is no dying you'll just make yourself sick. are you in jail? otherwise get away from whatever is so bad that you want to die, if you can. I know why you don’t though, it is easy to say it, but considering my current situation I am one to talk, I’ll take my own advice, if I can afford it. I know some, I have had horrible things happen to me. We have a right to be happy, though, everyone. I am angry that people have to suffer through their lives and be abused, and then wish to die. Unless you are ninety and in pain, no death is not option. Although I do not blame you for this conversation topic. We have to fight for this world, I don't know why, there is just nothing else to do! we have to fight for ourselves. You have to fight against the things that made you feel like this, but don't get yourself shot by a cop, although the thugs are often trigger happy, We have to live and take over, by living and voicing what we know. If you keep going till ninety, just to piss the bastards off, then you will do some good, you’ll die eventually. I don’t think God hates suicides, the church is so somebody I look to for insight into God. Are you depressed chemically do you think? Or is your life causing so much stress? I think it might be relevant? You are in pain and I am sorry , I am in pain too some it‘s almost normal, If you were in one of the behavior modification places, I was, you probably have post traumatic stress, everyone else seems to, do you shake when talking about anything personal and have nightmares. There is a certain amount of pain that goes with such place, to say the least, not to mention sexual abuse or whatever happened before or after. It is what it is, but death is not an option, suffer on with everyone else I think. I'm trying to get a political science degree? I want to join a protest group? If I learn about law perhaps i can find how this is a legal and cause trouble. This is pretty much what keeps me going, Everything is pretty bad I think, I'm not being crazy, retail jobs are horrible, highschool is horrible, college is hard, sex is horrible, sexual abuse is horrible, sexual harrasment is horrible, men are jerks, women are jerks too, everyone else has power over you and they may or may not be horrible, no one believes you, people are prejudice, whatever it's pretty oppresive, feel better. It's like communist China, don't listen to me I need to get out of retail, I know lots of people have better jobs, mine is ok now, that i changed , but it pays nothing. Death again is not an option because you are one of the people on the non communist party side, you hear, we need you. There are good people and nature helps because it is not really horrible, don't watch the damn nature channel, just go outside to somewhere nice. There are horrible people to, The laws need to be better and people who know how abuse works are needed.
