On 2006-03-08 15:09:00, Anonymous wrote:
"I love how the fact that I didn't want to role-play homosexuality meant that I was "soft, but trying to act hard". God damn, it's pissing me off just thinking about it. "
Oh man this is too funny, It's like looking into a mirror. I know exactly where you're coming from ANON. I caught the same shit for refusing
to smush, and for refusing to participate in cedu's totally gay dances (when I was at cedu, they had dances every other Saturday, but like smushing, opposite sexes were forbidden from dancing with each other). Cedu dances always reminded me of those scenes at the "Blue Oyster Bar" in the POLICE ACADEMY movies.
Y'know, one of the most hipocritical things about Cedu when they would tell us that taking away our "images" and isolating us from the outside world was a necessary part of the program, because it allowed us to "learn
and grow" independently, without having to worry about all that "other stuff" (outside influences). This is so hipocritical, because even though Cedu insured that we were cut off from all that "bad stuff" on the outside, they never repected our personal space, or allowed us to choose anything for ourselves. I don't ever remember a time there when it was okay for me to mind my own business do my own thing. No, everyone had to do what the group was doing (Ie. gay smushing, gay dancing,talking in raps, whatever it may be). Not doing what the group did, meant that you'd be singled-out, riddiculed, and most likely punished by staff.
The general thought pattern at cedu was this: that if you didn't participate in what the others did, then that meant you were ruining the experience everyone else (Sounds ridiculous, I know!). I would try to distance myself from all the gay role-playing, while the other guys were dancing with, or laying on top of each other. I'd grab a good book, find a quiet spot out of everyone's way, and read. Obviously, I wasn't trying to ruin anyone's fun. How did cedu staff react to this? They banned me from Reading! Now how fucking stupid is that?
The last thing cedu ever did, was allow us to "learn and grow independently." What a total crock of shit that place was! I get pissed off thinking about it too.