you know i just went back and read some of the earlier posts
this is stupid all of it
all i can say is everything i wrote really is true
and i am a normal person really
i should be more careful of what i say and how it sounds
but it is the truth
i just know the prejudice the real horrible world looks at things with
all i can say is i hate this
i came on here, honestly because my family was scaring me
and I wanted some other people out of programs to talk about stuff with
i am a nice ordinary person
I don't talk to anyone about being in a program
or about anything
how can I?
i am afraid too
but i just know it is all so wrong
i really don't do anything
there is just so much stuff
i am a 25 year old woman
i work and go to school
there should be no "reason" anything should have happened to me
i know that i didn't diserve any of it
i also know everything I have seen is true
i really was just walking in the park in jeans and a T-shirt
and living alone quietly in a neighborhood i could afford
i really was kicked out with my mother calling the cops on my father at 18
and i don't give give fuck, and fuck you stupid people
it's a holocaust and as always and i have to watch my language
1950's fools
anyone who would put their child in PV anyway needs their head examined
or put their child on Adderall, the ADD medication
who doesn't read the prescribing info?!
or want to see where their child lives
or even talk to them without giant butch goons standing there
what the hell do you think is going on!
they are really butch too
i'm not picking on gay people
sexual predators gravitate toward
places they can work though?
is that clear enough for you?
and like that counsilors MySpace page clearly depicted
some women like other women in bondage in their underwear
looking up at them in doe eyed submissive fear
is that too horrible for your sensibilities?
you people watch TV all the time
another thing i love about my mother
she can be watching the most horrible thing on TV.
write down all the really gross graphic words used in one crime show episode sometime.
but i say something about reality and its like
shock and horror and oh my God
or they don't believe me
or act like it's ok and no big deal, or best of all my fault
that actually is the progression of what happens when I say anything around here.
perhaps i just shouldn't talk about it
or figure out how to put it better
the truth really is nuts though and sad
and i am afraid of it
i know what PV does is evil
and thank god, you guys, that other people have come out and said the same things about PV
the people out of PV all say the same thing
so what i said about PV is true
then when I tell my parents I really was attacked by the only guy I went on a date with in five years, which i think is why i won't go out on any dates, it is also true!
some of what i wrote here seems so stupid as i re read it
i just hope it doesn't help promote any prejudice
the girls i was in PV with really were normal people
i shouldn't have said anything else
nobody is anything other then ugly and horrible about this stuff
i wish people would believe me
i shouldn't have started talking about everthing
i don't know though
a war zone is a war zone
abusive situations are a little like a war zone
i think the world in general is a bit like one sometimes
unless you have a good amount of money and nice understanding family,
my stories all fit into the reality of that somehow
when i read other people's stuff they have written on different sites about abuse my stories are not so uncommon
i don't know, predatory people look for situations in which people are vulnerable,
vulnerable, like living or walking alone as a young woman or girl
wow it's so much fun to be a young girl
i'm sorry if some of the stuff i said sounds extreme or horrible
if you notice most of it, like all of it, was something I was repeating that someone else said to me, like my mom, or some sexual harassment
I was reading what I wrote about page 20 something about people who have been sexually abused as kids sometimes sexually abuse other younger kids, and it sounded terrible
this was not the case with anyone in PV at all!!
with no one in PV this was the case!
i had been reading about kids in foster care though and so many of them were sexually abused, either by parents or foster parents or other kids,
and these programs, of which PV is only one, puts the kids in charge of each other a lot!
like we only had therapy with each other in a group, and we had to confront each other all the time and we were never allowed to be compassionate
and greatly encouraged to be mean as hell to each other
so in the programs where the kids are put in charge of each other even more then PV
there are many reports of sexual abuse
I was trying to point out how you really shouldn't put kids in charge of each other and and encourage them to be abusive and then expect such things not to happen.
i also tried badly to relate it to sexual harassment
and how catching that is and how everyone is being verbally sexually abused really.
sexual harassment is no joke
but i think it all just ended up sounding crazy and horrible
thank you so much Jersey gurl for posting and milkblood and others
for posting
PV feeds off of people that have been abused
it's like those buzzards
Everything I have said really is true
other wise i wouldn't say it like it makes sense expecting it to
try to read it like a report of somebody in a war zone or something
it makes more sense that way
or go read other peoples war stories first,
type in abuse and such online and then come back and read this horrible ramble
maybe i really do need some nice shrink to help me deal with it all
are there nice shrinks?
or do you all think they have been indoctrinated?
I'm terrified of them now
at least other people will post stuff now
