I think the "gift of awareness," isn't that THEIR term?? What they call awareness isn't really awareness, is it? It's more like being convinced you are a piece of crap. What are we aware of? How we are manipulative, how we are selfish. Probably how others feel because we are still afraid of getting screamed at or something, then we go back to how we're being manipulative. This is not awareness, this is hell.