I fucked up. I shouldn't have sent the 12 year old away, look what happened. I'm not willing to stick it out with my family. I feel bad about what happened and the fact that my decision caused my son's traumatic death. Kids are great when it's all fun and games, but I don't want to deal with any unpleasantness. Now I don't have anyone to pay to take the 7 year old off of my hands once I'm dead, yeah he'll probably be better off dead than being raised by strangers. Having cute little babies was fun, I got lots of attention while I was pregnant and while the kids were young enough to still worship me. Kids are expendable. Heck, who cares what happens to the 16 year old, I'm outta here.