I would never self satisfy at CEDU. The last thing I wanted was to be blown away about masturbating. I've seen it happen to other people with devastating results. They just ANNIHILATED and emasculated you. (Now I would just laugh.) I just shut down my sexual self. The day I came home after busting out, the first thing I did was make a booty call to my pre-CEDU boyfriend.
But then of course, I felt guilty about it. (Something I never felt pre-CEDU).
After I left CEDU, I called to get my stuff and talked to a counselor. She of course wanted to know if I was on drugs, drinking, or screwing.