Remeber when someone used to get bought back to group after running, and the jealous feeling inside of wondering what exactly they got to do while they were gone. Imagine being jealous that someone got to go to school,because we were stuck in a blue chair eating peas with a spork,now there is a crazy thought. I remember when Gino ran and they bought him back, I think they rolled him up in a rug, or was that someone else, who the hell thought of that idea? I think everyone that was on a higher phase became temporarily insane when they got on there little power trips. I remember my intake and I think it was them telling me what I did not me telling them. Remember the feeling of being bought into the Group for the first time and them giving there version of what you had done, and that "Love YA" what the hell was that about. Remeber seeing people motivate for the first time and thinking what are these people nuts, I'm getting out of here, not knowing that this would consume the rest of our lives. I rememebr my first day of being home after I left and everything seemed so unreal, you didn't exactly know how to act or what to do. Not sleeping the first few months in fear of waking up and being back there. Taking your friends that weren't there to pizza town to watch the cars pass and everybody put there heaads down so they would not look at us, imagine how they felt when they saw us standing freely in a parking lot, that had to suck. This sounds like some kind of bad afterschool movie, oh yah it was, but it was also all our lives for a long time.
