Seeing people being yelled at for no particular reason ?
Having to ask permission to go to the bathroom, and being denied when you really had to go ?
What a pathetic worthless loser that midget Billy was ?
What an stupid friggin moron Robert Chun really was ?
Having people that didn't even know your name telling you that they loved you and cared for you which is the reason for coming down on you ?
Being accussed of having a Druggie attitude for no apparent reason ?
People being paranoid all the time because you never knew if some pathetic unqualified staff member was going to call on you and make your day or night miserable ?
Having staff tell you if you ran from the Seed you would end up dead on the street in a matter of months ? (and then realizing that none of your friends had died or gone to prison and that the seed was bull shitting you ? )
Thinking after you graduated or left the program that basically everything ever told to you was a big bunch of shit and none of it was true ?
Being abused for no reason ?
Being feed shitty food that not even a dog would eat ?
Being dehydrated in the summertime and not being able to get a drink of water ?
Raising your hand and acting like you wanted to be called on and not really having shit to say ?
Pretending to actually like the place to so you could make it through another day ?
Sitting in the group with people who were basically good kids and had no real reason to be in the seed being kept there against their will ?
People who really fought back or resisted getting their ass kicked ?
People getting their ass kicked, then being held down and given a haircut because the people in the seed loved you ?
Being treated and diagnosed by a staff who had no qualifications to diagnose anyone ?
Do you remember sitting in the group just praying for 10 o'clock to get there so that days nightmare could end ?
Do you remeber graduating from that friggin place and saying to yourself that I pray I will never have to go through that again ?
Anything that the low rent piece of trash Art Barker ever said that was worth listening to ?
How Art Barker and the seed was going to save the world ?
How there would be seeds throughout America ?
How the coward Art Barker always left a county as soon as county officials questioned him with respect to anything ?
Jackie Gleason donating a limo to a-hole Art for the purpose of him selling it to raise money for the seed, and then Art "the ego maniac" keeping and using it for his own use ?
The faces of the poor miserable new kids at 10:00 am as they were about to begin another grueling day of mental torture ?
How you would be friends with people in the program, then they would disappear never to be mentioned again ?
Seeing a-hole hypocritical staff members back on the 1st row after they screwed up ?
How Art used to claim a 90 % success rate, and then finding out he was completely full of shit ?
Making a decision , at some point in the program, to just go with the flow, so you could just get the hell out of there sooner ?
How good it felt to turn 18 and know that no motherfuckers could put you through such torture again ?
Smoking a big fat joint, and just relaxing, after you got out of the program ?
But most off all I remember the needless and endless suffering of teenage kids for no good reason other than to fight this bogus phony war on drugs.