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Has anybody else here actually said the serenity prayer, and really meant it? I was in a place a while ago and desperate and some really nice people at AA and treatment centers helped me, and taught me the serenity prayer. I said it and really meant it,it wasn't just a phrase or a joke or something. I meant it like you really mean a prayer, when you have run out of options and have only God left to ask for help. I guess when you are in that place, it's more than just a saying , it is more like a lifeline to desperately needed hope and something to strive for.

Yeah.  I said it.  I meant it.  I truly believed it to my core.  I believed if I left the program that I would die.  Why?  Because they told my I had a disease until I believed it.  I had only gotten drunk once but that was enough.  They told me they could tell.  They told me we caught it young and I had a chance.

It felt good.  It felt like I belonged to something.  It felt like I was in some exclusive club.  It felt like this disease gave me a new identity I could be proud of.  I was in recovery.  I took chips.  I cherished them.  I kept them in a safe place.  I loved the program and the AA meetings they took us to.

It's really too painful to talk about.  You put so much faith in something.  You give yourself to people.  You trust them.  You love them...  And you learn they're only doing it so they can make money off your stay.  You learn they've raped your mind and those problems you thought you had were entirely fictional.  it's not right to do that to people.  I don't really care whether it's a cult or not.  AA may help some people but when you're coerced into it, or you're lied to and told it's the only way, it can kill.

I will never say that "prayer" again.

Maybe you had a problem, Nax, but that was of your own doing, not some disease.  If you chose to quit you did that with your own free will.  Stop giving others undue credit.