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Hail satan!  :nworthy:

I need some fucking ibogaine or something...

aa/ na gives me the creeps ...Ive been to thousands of meetings..dozens of rehabs ..I can spout program like a motherfucker since I was 13yrs old...
 after all these years Ive come to this conclusion :  12 step meetings are good for one thing: stealing ashtrays.
 thanks for bothering to post even.
 I guess either Ill make it or Ill kill myself ...period...either way I win.
 Took extra meds ...from what I can tell 20 mgs holds me fine. anything less than that and i feel more like a rusty tack rather than a linchpin

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a linchpin holds within a means to an end
[ This Message was edited by: linchpin on 2005-04-19 10:23 ]

Death - leprosy
x cops - you have he right to remain silent ( GWAR dudes old side project...fucking hilarious.."cavity search" and "paddywagon rape" are must hear)

Superjoint ritual - use once and destroy (give ya dollar if you know what that title comes from .ok Ill tell ya ...thats whats printed on the side of a syringe)

bump ...something must be wrong reagan youth always calls me at least every 2 weeks..and if not calls when i pm him.
 anyone in contact with him at all? Im worried cuz hes a good friend and good dude having hard time and hes dissapeared.
 if you know something I dont plz PM me..

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[ This Message was edited by: linchpin on 2005-04-18 21:56 ]

blegh man heres what Im gonna do : Im gonna take as much methadone as I need to feel ok and function and support miss linchpin till shes graduates in few weeks..
  Then when its gone Ill deal with intense pain for 2 weeks..Ive been going about this wrong and prolonging agony ..
 I dropped too fast and 4 months of any sickness will fuck with anyone..
 and Im nail tough kinda guy..lived on streets for 2 years maintaining heroin habit..raised in rehabs/jails all that ..
  and this has reduced me to a sniveling baby.
 Im gonna take as little methadone as I can to maintain till its gone then ill get it over with in the 2 weeks
 Ive had 1/4 gallon approx ( no im not bullshitting) of methadone at my disposal for months and still tapered down to 15 ish without cheating much.
 I dont take enough to do anything but barely curb withdrawals.
 I fear im gonna kill myself if i prolong this ..I just went and woke her up in tears apologizing for being such a piece of garbage and shes like "what you are not!"
  so i fear I cant trust my own thoughts my perspective is skewed..I see myself as refuse.

 please guys ...dont ever put yourself through this...if you must use drugs, dont use opioids ...stick to weed and whatnot.

 I been through alot and dont get phased by much ..I dont know if someone not so tough could even do this..If I was say a rich kid with ez life and all the sudden was in this boat I dont think Id make it.
  heroin/ oxy/morphine/vicodin/methadone = a trap..and Ive done alot of all the dope there is..
 walked away from crack, cocaine, methamps, ecstacy ...all that shit is cake
  dont get sucked in the opioid tornado
 Methadone is fucked...learn from my bullshit please..if you ever listen to anything I post let it be this.
 They dont call it "the dragon" for nothing.

 Barely hanging on another night...linchpin

yah I know the feeling. just cheated on my dose and took it 12 hours early so my mood is lifting..
 
   :roll: heres to living out of a bottle of cherry syrup..

On 2004-04-09 10:11:00, Cayo Hueso wrote:

"Funny how that kind of emotional vomiting seems to follow program people around.  For so long after I got out I was way[/b] too open with people about my life, even complete strangers.  I was later told by a therapist that it was a leftover PTSD symptom.



 

Give a man a fish and you feed him for a day; teach him to use the Net and he won't bother you for weeks.
--Anonymous

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same