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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Re: Compliance
« on: July 02, 2014, 06:13:42 PM »
Sad to say, but I am afraid the percentage is the same already =/

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Re: What I've learned lately
« on: July 02, 2014, 06:11:59 PM »
I wish we would all come back here too =( FB is quite shallow. Because posts disappear, not many people (including myself) make extensive and thoughtful posts/replies.

I miss fornits!

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Re: We need a new thread
« on: July 02, 2013, 09:22:10 PM »
Did they sing that is Springfield? I can't remember it, lol.

Gawd, it was horrible being a misbehaver for all that time and I didn't know any rock songs.. how embarrassing! Songs made me think of that again=)

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Re: We need a new thread
« on: July 02, 2013, 12:28:14 PM »
I got logged in! You know, I am easily led into controversial discussion... ^.~ Where shall we begin?

<3

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Re: Just stopping in...
« on: May 02, 2012, 07:17:14 PM »
I made it! I finished school today! 3.5 long full time years and over 100 credits later...
I can not believe I made it =) I graduate next week and take my licensing exam soon. I will be a Registered Nurse very soon <3

peace2uall!~
Withdraw

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Re: Just stopping in...
« on: March 12, 2012, 11:38:45 PM »
I can not believe I finally graduate in May!

Straight took so many years from me, it is about time I start getting them back =)

Hope everyone is well <3

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Just stopping in...
« on: November 23, 2011, 05:29:50 PM »
Hi you all =)

Thank you. Hope you all have a peaceful holiday. I have been thinking of you quite a bit.

peace2u,
Withdraw

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Re: Started Over Again at age 44
« on: September 16, 2011, 08:24:12 PM »
Sorry Botched =(

Have you considered taking just 1 class at the community college? I know that might sound dumb... since we are all so old now.. But I swear it has really changed my life. I feel so confident now and my life has really turned around. I was in the same place you are just over 2 years ago. I was sick, in bed, felt like crap about my life.. no job, no self esteem.. etc. I get it, I have been there most of my life.

There are tons of ways to get in school with grants and scholarships. Heck, just going to the local college and filling out the FASA forum will likely yield some (most likely total) assistance with tuition. It was really hard to get myself motivated, but as soon as I did it.. things just fell into place. Even if you aren't going for a degree, just taking a class would get you out there meeting people and building confidence.

Sorry if it sounds weird, but it has changed my life dramatically.

I hope things improve for you =)

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Re: Aloha!
« on: September 07, 2011, 06:47:25 PM »
Hey you =)

Good to see ya! I wondered what happened to you.

I made it, I'll be a RN in about 8 months =) Hope you are doing well!

Hugs!

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / I always come back to this..
« on: July 22, 2011, 05:24:30 PM »
I'm here studying for my Psych exam. It amazes me how insane Straight was to think for one second that what they were doing was helping children in any way at all. Here is what I was just reading:  

Frequent punishment, however, promotes only momentary compliance. The more harsh threats, angry physical control, and physical punishment children experience, the more likely they are to develop serious and lasting mental health problems. These include weak internalization of moral rules; depression, aggression, anti-social behavior and poor academic performance in childhood and adolescence; and depression, alcohol abuse, criminality and partner and child abuse in adulthood. (Afifi et al., 2006; Bender et al., 2007; Lynch et al., 2006)

Harsh punishment has several undesirable side effects:

> It models aggression
> It induces a chronic sense of being personally threatened, which promotes children to focus on their own distress rather than respond sympathetically to others.
> It causes children to avoid the punishing adult, who as a result has little oppurtunity to teach desirable behaviors.
> By stopping children's misbehavior temporarily, it offers immediate relief to adults, who may then punish more often - a course of action which can spiral into abuse.
> Adults who used corporal punishment are more accepting of it (Deater-Deckard et al., 2003). In this way, physical punishment may transfer from generation to generation.

(**And the real kicker for me is>>>)

Parents with conflict ridden marriages and with their own mental health problems are more likely to be punitive and also to have hard-to-manage children (Erath et al.; Knafo & Plomin, 2006)
 
This is taken from ::
Berk, Laura E. Exploring Lifespan Development. Boston ; Munich[u.a.: Allyn and Bacon, 2010. Print.


Reading this book makes me really think about how we were treated and all the lasting effects many of us have. I can't help but wonder if they knew what the outcome would be or IF we really were one of the experiments. It really makes me angry that we may never get any answers. But apparently many psychologists knew what the outcome would be to the kind of abuses we suffered, all along. I just can't ever wrap my mind around how it happened so easily right here in good ole FREE America. Sigh.

Anyhow, just venting it before I try to concentrate on this exam

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Wonder if that orange circle was a memory of the sun? Remember? I worshiped the sun as a child. ^.~ Interesting you said orange circle, I never considered that before.

Also, another thought I had was about 15 yrs ago.. I was doing these "lessons" for a spiritual native type group...You do these "lessons" to progress in the "Group". And the "leader" had to review your answers to the lessons.  Well Heck yea, you know me.. I rebelled! Big surprise there huh? Oh but anyhow, On lesson 4... the question was ~What is religion? My answer was ~ Religion is something you do religiously and it is something I do not want.

Well needless to say, I didn't "progress" LOL. Maybe I am / was in touch with this transcendental nature you speak of. Hrmm.

I love the way you make me think of stuff like that =)

ps: hope you all are well!

Peace2u

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Re: Turning it around
« on: July 03, 2011, 06:49:07 PM »
Thank you None-Ya.

I sincerely hope that at some point I will be able to help someone else go to school to. Someone who has waited a lifetime to fulfill an unimaginable dream.

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Turning it around
« on: July 02, 2011, 09:19:54 PM »
I don't have much of any other way to keep up with you all, except this forum. So, for those who are interested.. read on. For those who aren't stop reading here =)

College is getting really tough. I am going in my 3rd semester of nursing. I have been in school for 3 years - full time now. Just like I said I was gonna do =)

I just finished a Statistics class. OMFG, that is hard stuff for me! I get my grade on Tuesday. I am taking Psychology through the life span now, and English literature. These are all pre-reqs for my BSN.

I still love school, but the classes are really hard now. All I do is study, do homework or I am in bed ..... depressed about procrastinating on these things.

I will complete my Associates degree in Nursing next spring =D Yay! I am considering Anesthesiology or possibly Nurse Practitioner in Obstetrics.  I think I would absolutely hate working in a general family practice. Boring...Any way I go, I won't stop until I have a master's degree.

There is no fucking way in hell I am going to let Straight win anymore.

Dead, insane or jail.. my ass. How bout Doctor or at least a Master's degree. I hope everyday one of those mean straight staffers show up in my hospital ^.~

And yes, Psy =) This is on topic for Straight! This is my update on how I am overcoming adversity due to straight effects after 20 years of hell.

<3 you guys

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Quote from: "dragonfly"
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kecak

There are several videos about this as well....

When raps were broken up with motivating...when speaking was always preceeded by motivating....

Motivation induced trance.

flailing the arms all day, everyday, as a group, as expression, it was a currency in our token system...

it was a behavior that completely removed us from the outside world...


OMG, Dragonfly..

I get asked a lot why or how I didn't comply. I wonder if it had anything to do with not motivating? You guys musta thought I was so strange sitting their on my hands, staring at the floor everyday.

Funny you brought that old post about the room up too. There was a time when I could tell you exactly how many bricks were on each wall and how many tiles were on the floor. Interesting how our mind finds ways to survive.

Speaking of that, remember that creepy attic they use to take us to for Mom hair cuts? What I'd do to be able to go through that attic now.

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Re: Many Thanks!!!
« on: June 23, 2011, 06:39:27 PM »
I failed myself and all of you for not coming. I am sorry, because I hold a pertinent part of the story that is uniquely my own. A part which no one else can tell. A part that will be completely missing from the movie. For this, I am sorry. I wish I could change it.

You all have more courage than I. I wish I didn't let my own fear get in the way of truth.

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