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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / traumatic night
« on: February 05, 2003, 04:11:00 AM »
I had a really bad night. NO i am not a straight survivor but my husband is. Survivor? hmmm i really dont know if that is a good word for it. Alive, yes. That is a good word.
My husband went insane. He was talking jibberish completely out of his head, yelling out a car window all the way to the emergency room where he was restrained. He did not have coherent thought and had lost all sense of reality.
How did this happen? All he was trying to do was make himself better. He had a flood of memories that he could not deal with.
Now i get to deal with the guilt of knowing i put him in an instution that will try to help him, but will never really understand him.
I pray that he can forgive me for what i have done and for not helping him sooner.
I pray that he knows i still love him and that i will always be there for him.
I pray that he understands that i tried to help him as best i could and that i could do no more without the help of others.
I pray that his parents will some day come to grips with what is going on with there son (they didnt even come to the hospital).
and i pray that he will get better and be able to be with me again.
im willing to try praying even though i am an atheist
My husband went insane. He was talking jibberish completely out of his head, yelling out a car window all the way to the emergency room where he was restrained. He did not have coherent thought and had lost all sense of reality.
How did this happen? All he was trying to do was make himself better. He had a flood of memories that he could not deal with.
Now i get to deal with the guilt of knowing i put him in an instution that will try to help him, but will never really understand him.
I pray that he can forgive me for what i have done and for not helping him sooner.
I pray that he knows i still love him and that i will always be there for him.
I pray that he understands that i tried to help him as best i could and that i could do no more without the help of others.
I pray that his parents will some day come to grips with what is going on with there son (they didnt even come to the hospital).
and i pray that he will get better and be able to be with me again.
im willing to try praying even though i am an atheist