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Treatment Abuse, Behavior Modification, Thought Reform => Straight, Inc. and Derivatives => Topic started by: Nonconformistlaw on August 27, 2006, 08:58:31 AM

Title: Surviving Straight Inc. - In Their Own Words
Post by: Nonconformistlaw on August 27, 2006, 08:58:31 AM
A new website has been created. Here is the link:

http://www.geocities.com/surviving_stra ... /index.htm (http://www.geocities.com/surviving_straight_inc/index.htm)

I created this site to document many str8 survivor stories (not just mine) in one place..... plus, it bothered me how scattered straight survivor stories are on the 'net for awhile now....

Mine is there along with links to other stories to get it started but I want more people to contribute. If you would like to add your story, check out the Submit Story link. If you submit yours, I will add a page for you and post it as soon as I recieve it.

Eventually there will be many straight survivor stories documented here...This is everyone's site to use...hope to see more stories added soon.
Title: Surviving Straight Inc. - In Their Own Words
Post by: Anonymous on August 29, 2006, 09:18:26 PM
::bump::
Title: Re: Surviving Straight Inc. - In Their Own Words
Post by: Anonymous on August 30, 2006, 07:02:47 AM
Quote from: ""Nonconformistlaw""
A new website has been created. Here is the link:

http://www.geocities.com/surviving_stra ... /index.htm (http://www.geocities.com/surviving_straight_inc/index.htm)

I created this site to document many str8 survivor stories (not just mine) in one place..... plus, it bothered me how scattered straight survivor stories are on the 'net for awhile now....

Mine is there along with links to other stories to get it started but I want more people to contribute. If you would like to add your story, check out the Submit Story link. If you submit yours, I will add a page for you and post it as soon as I recieve it.

Eventually there will be many straight survivor stories documented here...This is everyone's site to use...hope to see more st"Gooories added soon.
     

                     "Good-Job"

                                  -Steve Brown
Title: Surviving Straight Inc. - In Their Own Words
Post by: Nonconformistlaw on September 02, 2006, 03:42:32 PM
Thanks... it improves a little each week.

I've added a new page (since posting the link here) and 2 surviviors have added their stories.
Title: Surviving Straight Inc. - In Their Own Words
Post by: starry-eyed pirate on September 02, 2006, 04:31:02 PM
I'll add mine eventually NCL, just caught up in other things for the time bein'.

Keep up the good work.
Title: a poem
Post by: Anonymous on September 02, 2006, 04:58:44 PM
Roses are red

Violets are blue

Straight, Inc. was fucked up as all hell!
Title: Re: Surviving Straight Inc. - In Their Own Words
Post by: Anonymous on September 03, 2006, 11:57:23 AM
The Rambo Granny of Melbourne, Australia

 


Gun-toting granny Ava Estelle, 81, was so ticked-off when two thugs raped her 18-year-old granddaughter that she tracked the unsuspecting ex-cons down - - and shot off their testicles.

The old lady spent a week hunting those men down -- and when she found them, she took revenge on them in her own special way, said Melbourne police investigator Evan Delp. Then she took a taxi to the nearest police station, laid the gun on the sergeant's desk and told him as calm as could be:

'Those bastards will never rape anybody again, by God.' Cops say convicted rapist and robber Davis Furth, 33, lost both his penis and his testicles when outraged Ava opened fire with a 9-mm pistol in the hotel room where he and former prison cell mate Stanley Thomas, 29, were holed up.

The wrinkled avenger also blew Thomas' testicles to kingdom come, but doctors managed to save his mangled penis, police said. The one guy, Thomas, didn't lose his manhood, but the doctor I talked to said he won't be using it the way he used to, Detective Delp told reporters. Both men are still in pretty bad shape, but I think they're just happy to be alive after what they've been through.

The Rambo Granny swung into action August 21 after her granddaughter Debbie was carjacked and raped in broad daylight by two knife-wielding creeps in a section of town bordering on skid row. "When I saw the look on my Debbie's face that night in the hospital, I decided I was going to go out and get those bastards myself 'cause I figured the Law would go easy on them," recalled the retired library worker. "And I wasn't scared of them, either-- because I've got me a gun and I've been shooting' all my life. And I wasn't dumb enough to turn it in when the law changed about owning one"

So, using a police artist's sketch of the suspects and Debbie's description of the sickos', tough-as-nails Ava spent seven days prowling the wino-infested neighborhood where the crime took place till she spotted the ill fated rapists entering their flophouse hotel.

I knew it was them the minute I saw 'em, but I shot a picture of 'em anyway and took it back to Debbie and she said sure as hell, it was them, the oldster recalled.
 
So I went back to that hotel and found their room and knocked on the door and the minute the big one, , opened the door, I shot 'em right square between the legs, right where it would really hurt 'em most, you know.

Then I went in and shot the other one as he backed up pleading to me to spare him. Then I went down to the police station and turned myself in.

Now, baffled lawmen are trying to figure out exactly how to deal with the vigilante granny. What she did was wrong, and she broke the law, but it is difficult to throw an 81-year-old woman in prison, Det. Delp said, especially when 3 million people in the city want to nominate her for Mayor.

DEPORT HER TO AMERICA--- WE NEED HER !!
Title: Surviving Straight Inc. - In Their Own Words
Post by: Nonconformistlaw on September 03, 2006, 03:30:22 PM
Quote from: ""starry-eyed pirate""
I'll add mine eventually NCL, just caught up in other things for the time bein'.

Keep up the good work.

No worries, no rush.  ::rainbow::
Title: Surviving Straight Inc. - In Their Own Words
Post by: Fire Swamp on September 03, 2006, 09:08:42 PM
Get a wriggle on, Pirate y' skallawag!
Title: Surviving Straight Inc. - In Their Own Words
Post by: Anonymous on September 04, 2006, 10:42:19 AM
By whom, please?
Title: Surviving Straight Inc. - In Their Own Words
Post by: Fire Swamp on September 07, 2006, 08:34:01 PM
Quote from: ""Guest""
By whom, please?

WHAT? What th' bloody hell?
Title: Re: a poem
Post by: Anonymous on September 07, 2006, 11:22:47 PM
Quote from: ""dissolver""
Roses are red

Violets are blue

Straight, Inc. was fucked up as all hell!


I love a good poem!
Title: ALMOST BRAIN WASHED
Post by: Anonymous on September 09, 2006, 10:01:57 PM
I HATED THAT PLACE I WAS THERE FOR WHILE TILL I TRIED TO KILL MYSELF.THAT PLACE FUCKED WITHY MY HEAD.I AM DOING BETTER NOW,BUT THAT PLACE TRIED TO BRAIN WASH ME,ALL STRAIGHT INC DID FOR ME WAS FUCKED UP MY RELATIONSHIP WITH MY FAMILY.YEH I MESSED UP FOR AWHILE NOW I WORK AT A DRUG COMPANY NAMED PFIZER.I HAVE A SON AND I AM HAPPY BUT I DO NOT THANK STRAIGHT FOR THAT ONE.
                       BONNIE :cry: [/b]
Title: Surviving Straight Inc. - In Their Own Words
Post by: Anonymous on September 09, 2006, 10:50:57 PM
I work for an oil company called Exxon. :)

WElcome to Fornits.
Title: Surviving Straight Inc. - In Their Own Words
Post by: Anonymous on September 10, 2006, 05:02:25 PM
Quote from: ""Guest""
I work for an oil company called Exxon. :)

WElcome to Fornits.


I didn't know you posted here, Mr. President.
Title: Surviving Straight Inc. - In Their Own Words
Post by: Anonymous on September 10, 2006, 06:10:42 PM
:D  Shh!

Thanks. :wave:
Title: Re: Surviving Straight Inc. - In Their Own Words
Post by: BROWNIE on September 10, 2006, 09:37:30 PM
Quote from: ""Nonconformistlaw""
A new website has been created. Here is the link:

http://www.geocities.com/surviving_stra ... /index.htm (http://www.geocities.com/surviving_straight_inc/index.htm)

I created this site to document many str8 survivor stories (not just mine) in one place..... plus, it bothered me how scattered straight survivor stories are on the 'net for awhile now....

Mine is there along with links to other stories to get it started but I want more people to contribute. If you would like to add your story, check out the Submit Story link. If you submit yours, I will add a page for you and post it as soon as I recieve it.

Eventually there will be many straight survivor stories documented here...This is everyone's site to use...hope to see more stories added soon.


The Bomd!!!!!
Title: Re: a poem
Post by: BROWNIE on September 11, 2006, 12:06:36 PM
Quote from: ""Guest""
Quote from: ""dissolver""
Roses are red

Violets are blue

Straight, Inc. was fucked up as all hell!

I love a good poem!


Amen !
Title: Re: Surviving Straight Inc. - In Their Own Words
Post by: Anonymous on September 11, 2006, 01:01:23 PM
[
The Bomd!!!!![/quote]


Word up.
Title: Surviving Straight Inc. - In Their Own Words
Post by: BROWNIE on September 11, 2006, 02:37:24 PM
Quote from: ""shrub""
:D  Shh! SHUB B R PRES.

Thanks. :wave:
Title: Re: Surviving Straight Inc. - In Their Own Words
Post by: BROWNIE on September 12, 2006, 07:57:22 AM
Bump

the

la la ................
Title: WHAT THE PROGRAME DID TO MY LIFE
Post by: Anonymous on September 17, 2006, 08:10:32 AM
:roll: FIOR STARTERS MY SISTER SHOWED ME SISTER SHOWED ME THIS SITE SHE WENT TO ELAN  AND THEY SAY ALOT OF FUCKED UP SHIT ON YHAT SITE BUT ANY WAYS ,STRAIGHT SCREWED ME UP SO BAD I STILL DEAL WITH ALOT OF THOAE LITTEL DEMONS,THAT PLACE MADE ME SO DEPRESSED WHILE I WAS THERE I TRIED TO KILL MY SELF AND ALMOST DID,I DO NOT EVEN TALK TO MY PARENTS ANY MORE,MY LIFE HAS BEEN HARD I LOST MY ONLY NEPEW TO MURDER WHEN HE WAS FOUR SO I HAD TO GET MY LIFE TOGETHER TO BE THERE FOR MY SISTER,I HAVE A SON WHO IS 12 YEARS OLD BUUT AFTER THE DEATH OF MY NEPEW MY HUSBAND COMMITED SUSIDE AND I FELL BACK INTO DOING DRUGS,I FINALLY GOT CLEAN BECAUSE MY SISTER IS IN LIVER FAILURE AND SHE NEEDS ME,SHE HAS NEVER EVEN DRANK OR DONE DRUGS AND LOSEING A CHILD AND NOW THIS,ALL I CAN SAY THAT PLACE DID NOT HELP ME ONE BIT AND I BELIVE THEY TRIED TO BRAIN WASH ANY ONE WHO WALKED THROUGH THAT DOOR,EVEN THE PARENTS AND SIBLINGS THANK GOD MY SISTER DID NOT LISTEN TO THE SHIT THEY TRIED TO TELL HER AND THAT GOT HER SENT TO ELAN IN MAINE AND I THANK STRAIGHT FOR THAT ONE TOO THEY HAD MY PARENTS SO BRAINED WASHED IT IS NOT EVEN  FUNNY
 :exclaim:  :exclaim:  :exclaim:
Title: Re: WHAT THE PROGRAME DID TO MY LIFE
Post by: BROWNIE on September 17, 2006, 08:23:41 AM
Quote from: ""BONNIE HANSEN""
:roll: FIOR STARTERS MY SISTER SHOWED ME SISTER SHOWED ME THIS SITE SHE WENT TO ELAN  AND THEY SAY ALOT OF FUCKED UP SHIT ON YHAT SITE BUT ANY WAYS ,STRAIGHT SCREWED ME UP SO BAD I STILL DEAL WITH ALOT OF THOAE LITTEL DEMONS,THAT PLACE MADE ME SO DEPRESSED WHILE I WAS THERE I TRIED TO KILL MY SELF AND ALMOST DID,I DO NOT EVEN TALK TO MY PARENTS ANY MORE,MY LIFE HAS BEEN HARD I LOST MY ONLY NEPEW TO MURDER WHEN HE WAS FOUR SO I HAD TO GET MY LIFE TOGETHER TO BE THERE FOR MY SISTER,I HAVE A SON WHO IS 12 YEARS OLD BUUT AFTER THE DEATH OF MY NEPEW MY HUSBAND COMMITED SUSIDE AND I FELL BACK INTO DOING DRUGS,I FINALLY GOT CLEAN BECAUSE MY SISTER IS IN LIVER FAILURE AND SHE NEEDS ME,SHE HAS NEVER EVEN DRANK OR DONE DRUGS AND LOSEING A CHILD AND NOW THIS,ALL I CAN SAY THAT PLACE DID NOT HELP ME ONE BIT AND I BELIVE THEY TRIED TO BRAIN WASH ANY ONE WHO WALKED THROUGH THAT DOOR,EVEN THE PARENTS AND SIBLINGS THANK GOD MY SISTER DID NOT LISTEN TO THE SHIT THEY TRIED TO TELL HER AND THAT GOT HER SENT TO ELAN IN MAINE AND I THANK STRAIGHT FOR THAT ONE TOO THEY HAD MY PARENTS SO BRAINED WASHED IT IS NOT EVEN  FUNNY
 :exclaim:  :exclaim:  :exclaim:


STR8 HAD MY BRO. N A N TAKE ROOM 4 3 HRS.  THANK GOD HE DID NOT COME N HE WAZ LIKE 21 @ THE TIME. I STILL WONDER WHAT HE WOULD HAVE DONE ?
Title: Surviving Straight Inc. - In Their Own Words
Post by: Anonymous on September 17, 2006, 09:28:27 AM
fior starters my sister showed me sister showed me this site she went to elan and they say alot of fucked up shit on yhat site but any ways ,straight screwed me up so bad i still deal with alot of thoae littel demons,that place made me so depressed while i was there i tried to kill my self and almost did,i do not even talk to my parents any more,my life has been hard i lost my only nepew to murder when he was four so i had to get my life together to be there for my sister,i have a son who is 12 years old buut after the death of my nepew my husband commited suside and i fell back into doing drugs,i finally got clean because my sister is in liver failure and she needs me,she has never even drank or done drugs and loseing a child and now this,all i can say that place did not help me one bit and i belive they tried to brain wash any one who walked through that door,even the parents and siblings thank god my sister did not listen to the shit they tried to tell her and that got her sent to elan in maine and i thank straight for that one too they had my parents so brained washed it is not even funny
Title: Surviving Straight Inc. - In Their Own Words
Post by: BROWNIE on September 17, 2006, 09:49:41 AM
Quote from: Guest
fior starters my sister showed me sister showed me this site she went to elan and they say alot of fucked up shit on yhat site but any ways ,straight screwed me up so bad i still deal with alot of thoae littel demons,that place made me so depressed while i was there i tried to kill my self and almost did,i do not even talk to my parents any more,my life has been hard i lost my only nepew to murder when he was four so i had to get my life together to be there for my sister,i have a son who is 12 years old buut after the death of my nepew my husband commited suside and i fell back into doing drugs,i finally got clean because my sister is in liver failure and she needs me,she has never even drank or done drugs and loseing a child and now this,all i can say that place did not help me one bit and i belive they tried to brain wash any one who walked through that door,even the parents and siblings thank god my

I SPENT 3 YEARS N THAT PRIZON. I AM SO SORRY 'BOUT IT ALMOST LED U 2 KILLYOUR-SELF.]
Title: Re: ALMOST BRAIN WASHED
Post by: BROWNIE on September 17, 2006, 10:17:19 AM
Quote from: ""bonnie hansen""
I HATED THAT PLACE I WAS THERE FOR WHILE TILL I TRIED TO KILL MYSELF.THAT PLACE FUCKED WITHY MY HEAD.I AM DOING BETTER NOW,BUT THAT PLACE TRIED TO BRAIN WASH ME,ALL STRAIGHT INC DID FOR ME WAS FUCKED UP MY RELATIONSHIP WITH MY FAMILY.YEH I MESSED UP FOR AWHILE NOW I WORK AT A DRUG COMPANY NAMED PFIZER.I HAVE A SON AND I AM HAPPY BUT I DO NOT THANK STRAIGHT FOR THAT ONE.
                       BONNIE :cry: [/b]


HATED THAT PLACE I   U SAID IT !

THAT PLACE TOOK A TON OF ENDURENCE.
Title: Surviving Straight Inc. - In Their Own Words
Post by: Nonconformistlaw on September 09, 2007, 05:31:26 PM
Thought I'd resurrect this thread to see if anyone was still thinking about writing down what happened to them in Straight.

IMO, the more people that write it down the better. Weeding through thousands of posts here can be an overwheming task to those outsiders, reporters etc who do want to inform themselves. My site was to alleviate that problem by having many survivor accounts easly accessible.

I also think the best way to convey what Straight was like is by explaining it from numerous perspectives.
Title: Surviving Straight Inc. - In Their Own Words
Post by: hanzomon4 on September 10, 2007, 01:02:49 AM
This one is pretty powerful (http://http://www.geocities.com/surviving_straight_inc/ppl/krisflannery.htm), Good site man I'm bookmarking it for when I need to explain this stuff to people.
Title: N OWN WORDS
Post by: Nikki on September 10, 2007, 09:24:37 AM
"EVERYONE SHOULD.


hanzomon4"

I'm bookmarking it for when I need to explain this stuff to people.
Title: surviving straight
Post by: happy on September 10, 2007, 11:35:55 AM
Thanks for the link.
Title: Re: surviving straight
Post by: Nikki on September 10, 2007, 12:22:40 PM
BUMP
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Title: Surviving Straight Inc. - In Their Own Words
Post by: str8h8er on September 10, 2007, 05:10:41 PM
Man, I dont even know what to say.

Thanks for posting that.
Title: SURVIVING
Post by: Nikki on September 12, 2007, 08:11:30 AM
Quote from: str8h8er
Man, I dont even know what to say.

Thanks for posting that


I THINK I MAY SNEEZE  ?
Title: Re: SURVIVING
Post by: str8h8er on September 12, 2007, 06:27:48 PM
ASSHOLE
Title: Re: SURVIVING
Post by: Nikki on September 12, 2007, 07:07:33 PM
="str8h8er"]ASSHOLE

LOL  I DID THAT 2 BUMP IT.WTF ?

I WOULD NEVER HURT N.C.L N ANYWAY. LOL
Title: Surviving Straight Inc. - In Their Own Words
Post by: str8h8er on September 13, 2007, 08:43:09 AM
I would hope you could see why I said what I said.

What is neccessary to quote me and then say

" I think I am gonna sneeze?"

Not too sure what that means, I got defensive. Wasn't sure how to react.

Sorry Brownie or Nikki????
Title: LOL
Post by: Nikki on September 13, 2007, 08:55:44 AM
Quote from: str8h8er
I would hope you could see why I said what I said.

What is neccessary to quote me and then say

" I think I am gonna sneeze?"

Not too sure what that means, I got defensive. Wasn't sure how to react.

Sorry Brownie or Nikki???

LOL I'M WACKED 4 SURE.

IT'S MY BAD.
Title: Surviving Straight Inc. - In Their Own Words
Post by: str8h8er on September 13, 2007, 09:02:25 AM
It's all gooooooood B!!!!
Title: Surviving Straight Inc. - In Their Own Words
Post by: str8h8er on September 13, 2007, 09:23:03 AM
OK. OK.

Straight...in my own words.

Let me see now.....

Imagine having your skin scraped off with rusty razor blades leaving exposed flesh. Then imagine 200 angry teenagers rub salt into the exposed flesh. or maybe rubbing alcohol.

That just describes the outward pain.
Title: Surviving Straight Inc. - In Their Own Words
Post by: Nonconformistlaw on September 13, 2007, 09:46:52 AM
Quote from: ""str8h8er""
OK. OK.

Straight...in my own words.

Let me see now.....

Imagine having your skin scraped off with rusty razor blades leaving exposed flesh. Then imagine 200 angry teenagers rub salt into the exposed flesh. or maybe rubbing alcohol.

That just describes the outward pain.


OMG....I actually had an extremely graphic nighmare like this about Straight a couple years ago.....lots of kids with the skin scrapped off completely, bleeding, in agony. I am dead serious....it was my worst Straight nightmare.
Title: Surviving Straight Inc. - In Their Own Words
Post by: str8h8er on September 13, 2007, 10:04:53 AM
It's an analogy I use because it is extremely difficult to explain STRAIGHT to anyone who has not had first hand experience.

I spent a number of years immediately following Straight having nightmares about being confined and unable to escape. Even after waking, it took some time to realize I was safe.

From time to time, even now these nightmares will make an ugly appearance. It's easier for me to snap out of the fear because when I wake, I see my husbands face and I know that I am safe.

"Existing" with no purpose. Your there, but your not. That is how I can begin to explain the emotions of being there.

I haven't allowed myself to fully place my brain back at the time of Straight. Does that make sense? LOL

What I remember, is all I want to remember for right now. I don't think I want too, but a part of me knows I need too.

For a long time, I'm not sure I even understood what was happening to me. I was young. I do know that I have issues, mostly trust issues. Who doesn't, right?

It's fucked up all the way around. What's more fucked up is that there are kids, just like us who are still trapped in these places.

Have you ever heard people say, "This is my job in life"? I believe my job, is to expose every business, person and funder who was involved with Straight. All of them.
Title: SURVIVING
Post by: Nikki on September 13, 2007, 10:33:50 AM
I HAD NIGHTMARES AS WELL, UNFORTUNATELY, I HAVE 2 TAKE MY "MAN PILL". B BOLD. TAKE THOSE HORRID MEMORIES  INTRUTH TO EMPOWER VIGULANCE 2 PROMOTE FUCKIN ON-GOING "CHILD ABUSE !

"B"

 ::unhappy::
Title: Surviving Straight Inc. - In Their Own Words
Post by: Froderik on September 13, 2007, 10:35:38 AM
Quote from: ""str8h8er""
I spent a number of years immediately following Straight having nightmares about being confined and unable to escape. Even after waking, it took some time to realize I was safe.
Not uncommon at all... I had the same sort of nightmares for years and years, and they only stopped after I read about stuff on these sites...

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I haven't allowed myself to fully place my brain back at the time of Straight. Does that make sense? LOL

What I remember, is all I want to remember for right now. I don't think I want too, but a part of me knows I need too.
Sure it makes sense -- and I'll tell you that there is no need to rush into it, either. Let it come back at a rate you think you can deal with...

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For a long time, I'm not sure I even understood what was happening to me. I was young. I do know that I have issues, mostly trust issues. Who doesn't, right?
If you're referring to ex-clients of str8, then yeah, trust issues galore...

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It's fucked up all the way around. What's more fucked up is that there are kids, just like us who are still trapped in these places.
Someone should forcibly remove them right now! Just burn the fucking place down at night while it's empty! If there's an exec or two still in there at the time, oh well...too fucking bad.. ::hehehmm::

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Have you ever heard people say, "This is my job in life"? I believe my job, is to expose every business, person and funder who was involved with Straight. All of them.

Well you won't be short of company in that regard around here... and there are plenty of ways to go about this... Use your own imagination before just going along with the pack and what someone else thinks is the right way to accomplish that.... how can I expose them? Let me count the ways... but don't forget about the other places you mentioned that are still around today. There are shit-tons of them!

One final point: These "rehabs" are just one side-effect of The Drug War. Don't forget the big picture. Read some recent posts by Scarlett Chiclet and myself on the TTI forum for an in-depth explanation of that. I think most of them are on the "Winning The Culture War" thread...peace out.
Title: www.thekidsbbs.com
Post by: Nikki on September 13, 2007, 12:00:28 PM
FROD, I CAN'T LOCATE YOR POST ?

www.thekidsbbs.com (http://www.thekidsbbs.com)
Title: LOL
Post by: Nikki on September 13, 2007, 12:22:40 PM
Quote from: Fire Horse
Get a wriggle on, Pirate y' skallaw

OMG SHOULD WE FORCE HIM 2 COVET THE PLANK ?
Title: Surviving Straight Inc. - In Their Own Words
Post by: Anne Bonney on September 13, 2007, 01:59:29 PM
Quote from: ""str8h8er""
It's an analogy I use because it is extremely difficult to explain STRAIGHT to anyone who has not had first hand experience.

I spent a number of years immediately following Straight having nightmares about being confined and unable to escape. Even after waking, it took some time to realize I was safe.

From time to time, even now these nightmares will make an ugly appearance. It's easier for me to snap out of the fear because when I wake, I see my husbands face and I know that I am safe.

Same here.  For the first few years of our marriage I was jolted out of bed by that same fear a couple of times a week.  It only rears its ugly head now after I read Help At Any Cost or watch Over The GW (its on its way.  ordered it the other day and am more than a little nervous about watching it) or something similar.

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"Existing" with no purpose. Your there, but your not. That is how I can begin to explain the emotions of being there.

I haven't allowed myself to fully place my brain back at the time of Straight. Does that make sense? LOL

Perfect sense.  There are still holes in my memory.  Some things are crystal clear while others are just gone.


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What I remember, is all I want to remember for right now. I don't think I want too, but a part of me knows I need too.

For a long time, I'm not sure I even understood what was happening to me. I was young. I do know that I have issues, mostly trust issues. Who doesn't, right?

It's fucked up all the way around. What's more fucked up is that there are kids, just like us who are still trapped in these places.

Have you ever heard people say, "This is my job in life"? I believe my job, is to expose every business, person and funder who was involved with Straight. All of them.



Frod gave you some really good advice when he said don't rush it.  Let it come in the time frame its supposed to.   I still have to take periodic breaks from these boards.  It just gets overwhelming at times and I have to stop.

Hang in there.  It does get better.

 8-)  ::dove::
Title: Re: LOL
Post by: Anne Bonney on September 13, 2007, 02:00:17 PM
Quote from: "Nikki"
Quote from: ""Fire Horse""
Get a wriggle on, Pirate y' skallaw

OMG SHOULD WE FORCE HIM 2 COVET THE PLANK ?



How do you covet a plank?

 ::bwahaha::
Title: Re: LOL
Post by: Nikki on September 13, 2007, 03:25:48 PM
Quote from: "Anne Bonney"
Quote from: "Nikki"
Quote from: ""Fire Horse""
Get a wriggle on, Pirate y' skallaw

OMG SHOULD WE FORCE HIM 2 COVET THE PLANK ?



How do you covet a plank?

 ANY 1 CAN COVET ANYTHING.  cov·et (kvt)
v. cov·et·ed, cov·et·ing, cov·ets
v.tr.
1. To feel blameworthy desire for (that which is another's). See Synonyms at envy.
2. To wish for longingly.
Title: Re: LOL
Post by: Anne Bonney on September 13, 2007, 05:59:54 PM
Quote from: "Nikki"
Quote from: "Anne Bonney"
Quote from: ""Nikki""
Quote from: ""Fire Horse""
Get a wriggle on, Pirate y' skallaw

OMG SHOULD WE FORCE HIM 2 COVET THE PLANK ?


How do you covet a plank?

 ANY 1 CAN COVET ANYTHING.  cov·et (kvt)
v. cov·et·ed, cov·et·ing, cov·ets
v.tr.
1. To feel blameworthy desire for (that which is another's). See Synonyms at envy.
2. To wish for longingly.



So you wish longingly for a plank?  I still don't get it.  But its probably me.
Title: Re: LOL
Post by: Nikki on September 13, 2007, 06:25:38 PM
lol No I should have used a proper word. just giving my buddy a hard-time. He know's the deal. I remerber some great times. next time Frod n I will convince him 2 Baptise that Staightt wall so some one can capture the Kodak moment. i will miss u N.C.L.


So you wish longingly for a plank?  I still don't get it.  But its probably
Title: Surviving Straight Inc. - In Their Own Words
Post by: Nonconformistlaw on September 13, 2007, 11:47:33 PM
Quote from: ""str8h8er""
It's an analogy I use because it is extremely difficult to explain STRAIGHT to anyone who has not had first hand experience.

I spent a number of years immediately following Straight having nightmares about being confined and unable to escape. Even after waking, it took some time to realize I was safe.

From time to time, even now these nightmares will make an ugly appearance. It's easier for me to snap out of the fear because when I wake, I see my husbands face and I know that I am safe.

"Existing" with no purpose. Your there, but your not. That is how I can begin to explain the emotions of being there.

I haven't allowed myself to fully place my brain back at the time of Straight. Does that make sense? LOL

What I remember, is all I want to remember for right now. I don't think I want too, but a part of me knows I need too.

For a long time, I'm not sure I even understood what was happening to me. I was young. I do know that I have issues, mostly trust issues. Who doesn't, right?

It's fucked up all the way around. What's more fucked up is that there are kids, just like us who are still trapped in these places.

Have you ever heard people say, "This is my job in life"? I believe my job, is to expose every business, person and funder who was involved with Straight. All of them.

Its a good anaolgy too.....I always took that dream as symbolic of how deeply damaged we all were by Straight. And it is extremely difficult to explain to people what Striaght was like....which is why I always say, the more of us that write about our experience, the better.

I have had the same nightmare, being confined and unable to escape with a few added things, the kidnapping and no one ever believing me. Only mine didnt start until I found the boards....which in my case was likely due to how deeply I suppressed and blocked Straight out altogether. Funny, as horrible as the nightmares are, I take it as a healthy thing. Does that make sense?

And yes it makes sense that you havent completely let yourself go there yet. I did that too, by not allowing myself to contact people I found that I actually remembered from Striaght. I started out by talking to people from other branches, not mine, in part because I was not completely ready to "go there." It took me months before I did that....

Oh and I completely get "This is my job in life" and the exact same "job description." I have sensed that since I was 20 years old.....its only the past 2 years since finding the boards that my "job description" has become crystal clear.

Hang in there....alot of us here completely get it.
Title: Re: LOL
Post by: Anonymous on September 14, 2007, 09:43:09 AM
Quote from: "Anne Bonney"
Quote from: "Nikki"
Quote from: ""Anne Bonney""
Quote from: ""Nikki""
Quote from: ""Fire Horse""
Get a wriggle on, Pirate y' skallaw

OMG SHOULD WE FORCE HIM 2 COVET THE PLANK ?


How do you covet a plank?

 ANY 1 CAN COVET ANYTHING.  cov·et (kvt)
v. cov·et·ed, cov·et·ing, cov·ets
v.tr.
1. To feel blameworthy desire for (that which is another's). See Synonyms at envy.
2. To wish for longingly.


So you wish longingly for a plank?  I still don't get it.  But its probably me.


My plank is bigger than your plank.
Title: Re: LOL
Post by: Nikki on September 14, 2007, 10:39:17 AM
I DON'T WISH 4 THAT SILLY. THAT WAS ABOUT (MY FRIEND) STARRY -EYED PIRATE. I'M SORRY I HURT U BUT IF YOU BUT IF YOU R TRYING 2 ANTAGONIZE ME GOOD LUCK. IF U STILL DON'T COMPREHEND THE STUPID JOKE THEN RENDER IT. THAT MEANS FORGET.
TRYING 2 REEDEEM MY SELF WITH U. IS A HARD TASK,ANNE

LOVE, STEVE





How do you covet a plank?

 ANY 1 CAN COVET ANYTHING.  cov·et (kvt)
v. cov·et·ed, cov·et·ing, cov·ets
v.tr.
1. To feel blameworthy desire for (that which is another's). See Synonyms at envy.
2. To wish for longingly.[/quote]


So you wish longingly for a plank?  I still don't get it.  But its probably me.[/quote]

My plank is bigger than your plank.[/quote]
Title: Re: LOL
Post by: Anne Bonney on September 14, 2007, 11:00:14 AM
Quote from: ""Nikki""
I DON'T WISH 4 THAT SILLY. THAT WAS ABOUT (MY FRIEND) STARRY -EYED PIRATE. I'M SORRY I HURT U BUT IF YOU BUT IF YOU R TRYING 2 ANTAGONIZE ME GOOD LUCK. IF U STILL DON'T COMPREHEND THE STUPID JOKE THEN RENDER IT. THAT MEANS FORGET.
TRYING 2 REEDEEM MY SELF WITH U. IS A HARD TASK,ANNE

LOVE, STEVE



I wasn't antagonizing you Steve.  I was joking around.  I won't let it happen again.

 :roll:
Title: Re: LOL
Post by: Nikki on September 14, 2007, 12:17:22 PM
LOL NO IT'S MY FUCKED-UP HEAD. I GET 2 EMOTIONAL WHEN I COME HERE. THANKS TO SEMBLER I WILL ALWAY'S B ENCOURAGEBLE. MAN, ANNE LET'S JUST "LIVE" NOW WEBDIVA, FROD, U N OTHERS R COOL IT'S ME. LOL

I wasn't antagonizing you Steve.  I was joking around.  I won't let it happen again.

 :roll:[/quote]
Title: Re: Surviving Straight Inc. - In Their Own Words
Post by: Nonconformistlaw on February 28, 2010, 02:11:03 PM
My webiste is back - the new url is  http://survivingstraightinc.com/home (http://survivingstraightinc.com/home)

Right before geocites shut down all geocities pages, I saved everything from that site. The petition and apology are there too.

Its all back up, a few things in different places, but damn close to exactly that way it was when geocities pulled the plug (DAMN THEM!!!)

If anyone wants to add their story please feel free - the more posted the better. Send stories to this email address - http://www.geocities.com/surviving_stra ... /index.htm (http://www.geocities.com/surviving_straight_inc/index.htm)

I created this site to document many str8 survivor stories (not just mine) in one place..... plus, it bothered me how scattered straight survivor stories are on the 'net for awhile now....

Mine is there along with links to other stories to get it started but I want more people to contribute. If you would like to add your story, check out the Submit Story link. If you submit yours, I will add a page for you and post it as soon as I recieve it.

Eventually there will be many straight survivor stories documented here...This is everyone's site to use...hope to see more stories added soon.[/quote]
Title: Re: Surviving Straight Inc. - In Their Own Words
Post by: Nonconformistlaw on March 01, 2010, 11:55:51 PM
Just to clarify something for everyone -I got a question emailed to me and wanted to share the answer.
I put up separate pages for each branch that the website already had stories for. If there is no page up
for a particular branch, it just means I dont have anything from there. If I get one for a branch without a page,
I will add a page for that branch.
Title: Re: Surviving Straight Inc. - In Their Own Words
Post by: Che Gookin on March 02, 2010, 06:25:59 AM
I'm just happy to see you around Nonconformistlaw.

:)
Title: Re: Surviving Straight Inc. - In Their Own Words
Post by: Nonconformistlaw on October 31, 2010, 02:46:57 PM
Surviving Straight Inc - My website was created in 2006 to document many Straight survivor stories in one place..... I wanted a website that tells the Straight story in survivor's own words. I think the best way to tell the complete story is through many people's experience in Straight, how it effected them, etc. If anyone would like to add their story, check out the Submit Story link. I will post it as soon as I receive it. Thanks!?

http://survivingstraightinc.com/home (http://survivingstraightinc.com/home) - HOME PAGE
 
http://survivingstraightinc.com/submit_ ... nformation (http://survivingstraightinc.com/submit_story__contact_information) - SUBMIT STORY LINK


If submitting a story....

    * Length - any will be posted.
    * Content - up to you - your feelings, perspectives, thoughts about and experiences in Straight, Inc. will be respected and posted as is.
    * No revisions will be made - ie: no spelling errors corrected etc. I will not alter your submission in any manner.
    * Branch/location & years - please include.
    * Anonymous contributions welcome - please specify if you want your name omitted

***please note**** My site will NOT publish "pro Straight" submissions. Those who were injured or destroyed by Straight, Inc. deserve a page of their own. Please feel free to email your experience in Straight, Inc to be posted here to http://www.straightincthemovie.com/ (http://www.straightincthemovie.com/)
Or, you may prefer the written format for whatever reason.
Or you may wish to do both...of course you can do both!

The point is....there are options!

Email submissions to [email protected]

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