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« on: May 19, 2003, 11:48:00 PM »
I am scheduled to have a scope down the throat on Wednesday this week, and it is amazing how something that is such a routine procedure has got me all nervous. Hedwigfan, being a doctor and all, has assured me that it will be just fine, and I take her word for it, mostly, but at the same time, I am fearful. You would think that after having had back surgery, and surviving the likes of hell in Atlanta, I would be prepared for something like this. But, to tell you the truth, I have these recurring fears that:
1: I will not wake up from the anesthesia, or
2: I will bleed out in my throat from them stretching my esophagus and wake up in the ICU.
Don't get me wrong, I am not even a squeamish type of person, and I gave birth with absolutely no medications, but for the life of me this has got me nervous.
Perhaps it is because I am a Mom and the thought of something going wrong and leaving my daughter alone is chilling to the bone. Perhaps it is just silly "head games" that I am playing. Perhaps I just need it to be over with, find out what is up with my lower esophagus and get my life back to normal.
Just thought I would share that information with ya'lls. So, thanks for listening. I feel better just getting it out.