Fornits
Treatment Abuse, Behavior Modification, Thought Reform => Straight, Inc. and Derivatives => Topic started by: mental torture made me li on February 02, 2005, 02:01:00 AM
-
2/2/05
Today I alreayd got stoned and the army isn't even up yet. See below for my stoned creative writing of the evening.
Beck has a beautiful pink screen. It feels good to look at it.
I was always so scared of those higher phase girls. ?You need to get it together today. Your attitude sucks.? Oh I think I got called out my first day there. My name is -------, by the way, in case I had not yet mentioned that. Getting stoned is a win-win situation. You get my name, I get to write this. Anyways, at --------?s I was awake in the middle of the night, craving cigarettes. I can?t remember if I was sleep walking, but I remember being up in her room at night, looking out the window. I think I was half delirious, because I don?t remember checking the lock or anything, I was just looking out, in a daze.
Then whatsherface the other newcomer wakes one of them up, ------ or ----. Then the lights were on. Another night at that house I got a wicked bad earache. Maybe it was that night. Yes, I think that?s what it was. It should not be this hard to remember my own life. These memories don?t flow like childhood memories. They pretend. I see the white room, I see the orange room, the sibling rap room. Sure. The hall. The intake room. The gravel parking lot. It says no to me. Don?t think more. Don?t remember her. Don?t go back in the building and look at what happened there. Rob Frye. Rob Hockersmith. Chris Scoggins. Karen. Gawd this shit gets boring. As though an ything is helped.
As though we don?t get all distracted by RTP. Burning out impurities. And other projects of the current time. Straight. The name takes on comedy. But I can assure you that I have lived in the body of a ghost for the past eighteen years. Coming right up on eighteen fucking long got damn years of being the Brainwashed Child. Or whatev ya call it or want to. See what I mean? Distracted. Look, go in the building. That is where your body can be found. Who got out alive?
Building. White halls. Kim. The sick room where I went when my blood-stained jeans were being washed. The rows of chairs. The humiliation. The love rap where ------ said I lied! Funnnnnyyyyy. Stupid cunt.
The fucking godamn lunch line. Did everyone stand in line? Yes! I think we did! I can recall the feeling of excitement of being by the guys? side!!!!!!!
Meow! ::blushing::
I feel so humiliated of myself. No! Not for the last paragraph! Fuck no! No pun intended! :lol:
No, I feel humiliated for being the Brainwashed Girl. God, if we don?t all have anything else in common, I think we all have that in common. Except Jason the Misbehaver.
Do you know who you?re talking to?
-
ain?t it impressive how I can spoof stoned, while stoned? I have reverse dyslexia when I?m stoned. It looks like the type is coming out backwards, then I realize it is my perception.
-
I'm only five degrees of separation from Kevin Bacon: Susan Sarandon's relative, Susan Sarandon, who is in Alfie with Marisa Tomei, who was in Untamed Hearts with Christian Slater, who was in Murder In The First with Kevin Bacon. Damn, if I could only close that Susan Sarandon to Kevin Bacon gap. Were they ever in a movie together?
Wait, Susan Sarandon was in Witches with Jack Nicholson, who was in A Few Good Men with Kevin Bacon. That's four degrees of separation. Cool.
-
sorry, technical difficulties. that was me.
-
On 2005-02-02 04:57:00, Pietra wrote:
"sorry, technical difficulties. that was me."
how bout a spoof on the scene in "Finding Nemo" --Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming.
In regard to the technical difficulties; "Just keep smoking, Just keep smoking" :grin:
-
On 2005-02-01 23:01:00, Pietra wrote:
As though we don?t get all distracted by RTP.
I do what I can......
-
Pietra, I thought I saw a post of your recently on the TBPITW thread regarding the fact that you don't party and were waiting to get high for the first time or something? Now you are confusing "blogs" with "threads" and posting senseless smokey ramblings? Was your calling the entire board assholes and then editing your post a while back just another senseless drug induced rambling?
I have to ask, are you the late Lady Jerricho?
Few others here have ever made me :flame: . Calling us all assholes was uncalled for and not cool, not forgotten.
-
On 2005-02-02 13:55:00, Anonymous wrote:
"Pietra, I thought I saw a post of your recently on the TBPITW thread regarding the fact that you don't party and were waiting to get high for the first time or something?
So maybe she started getting high. That's no crime (uh, wait a minute, yes it is...)
So what if she smokes? Lots of us here do, some of us tell you about it on the "I Just" thread, which is THE most read and responded to thread on this forum.
Now you are confusing "blogs" with "threads" and posting senseless smokey ramblings? Was your calling the entire board assholes and then editing your post a while back just another senseless drug induced rambling?
I'm willing to give her a pass---after all, she did edit it. Maybe it was drug-induced rambling (done it a few times myself). I think if you read some of the above "smokey rambling", you'll find that she has touched on some of the things that all of us here have thought or felt at one time or another. Feeling humiliated for having been in Straight. That's something I have heard from a lot of folks, and something I felt when I went back to the community I was from after leaving Camp Virgil.
I have to ask, are you the late Lady Jerricho?
And who are you, Anon?
Few others here have ever made me :flame: . Calling us all assholes was uncalled for and not cool, not forgotten."
If getting called an asshole on a website is the worst thing that has happened to you, you are leading either a charmed or a sheltered life. Hell, I get called an asshole at least twice a day, and that's from my friends.....
Love ya, Asshole!
-
2/2/05
back on! i feel like i am gasping for air right now, after being deprived.
back to the regular schedule of blog entry:
(written last night at whatever time, the right time...)
first order of business for the day: response and reaction to today's comments:
Woof-A-Doof: meow! nice doggy!
Anonymous: folks, i'd like to introduce my troll. it's mine, my very own. nobody else has a troll like mine, that follows them around and says mean things. i like my troll a lot. i hope you do too. but hands off my troll. MINE.
RTP: meow meow. that's my boy, taking up for me with my troll. i leap to the top of the fridge and switch my tail and hiss. RTP battles troll, and sends it away. meow.
-
2/3/05. 1:26:11 am
First off, I have to brush my teeth.
Ah, much better. Minty & cool. No more scuz. Oops I didn?t floss. Be right back.
Done. Fornits is busted tonight. There is talk on the other board about Animals. No talking behind backs.
Oh my god, did I tell you about my new Beck thing? I have a Beck thing now. I have two of his cds, plus I just downloaded GETTOCHIP MALFUNCTION. His music has enough happening in it to keep a ADD pseudoephedrine amped girl like me entertained.
Sorry, this is a bit slow tonight. I?m just getting warmed up, really. I?m gonna take another hit. Oh, you know that thing about holding the smoke in for as long as possible? Is that for real? I mean do dat work?
Wait, there is something my troll said. Yes, I called everyone assholes. I just wanted to say that that is true, not just a rumor, or a troll lie. Let?s see what else. Oh, to clarify my marijuana history: oh yes I have so too gotten stoned before. I was forced by circumstance to live without both my favorite drugs for quite some time. Drinking came back last year. Helps me a lot. Now I have marijuana. Smoke drifts over my desk.
Speaking of kings, where is Troll King?
I miss A.W. (not someone from here, I?m back to the life I lead outside ciber world.) Anyhoo but he was crazy, They got a video of him, on a fabulous snowy night, holding on to the rear bumper of someone?s car driving around town. He?s using his boots for skis, like. What do you call that, florida water people?
A.W. the crazy. But HOT. I mean Calvin Klein underwear model hot. I am not fucking kidding you. In fact, a little while back, I saw a model in a magazine and I had to keep looking at it to see if it was him or not. Okay, you?re wondering what is so crazy. First off, major drunk. We had a date, and he walks down to my house to get me and he is wasted. God damn Greek god beautiful wasted asshole. Nah, he?s not an asshole for his drinking. Don?t worry, I sent him off that evening. Bye. Next time come when you?re not drunk.
Now please don?t read me wrong. If we went out, and got plastered together, what of it, or if we were hanging out making a meal or something and he got drunk, that is not a problem. Or I?d be calling the irish kettle ? something.
But come on, you?re with me, right? This was like a first or second date or something. No, on our first date, that again was the occasion for coming off a long grassless dessert into the savannah. Carlights waved by in the eight o?clock street like emissaries from the galaxies. He he he. Like it? Fuck, excuse me, I was saying, Yes. AW. Smoking weed. Yum. The show was cancelled. So we walked down over the bridge and stood in random parking lot and I tried as hard as I could to concentrate on the stories he was telling me about his first hometown boys. But I was so very high. We got back to second-hometown and I made him take me to the store for munchy stuff. I wish I could explain what I mean when I say he is crazy. First of all, his stare like a feral animal. He says obscure metaphorical things. He had that thing that charismatic people have, integrity of self. I don?t mean moral, he was an asshole. I mean soul integrity. And that is fucking attractive as hell.
little tangent there. Hell Yes! That is the song I am listening to. Gettochip Malfunction. Yes a Beck song. He?s my new loverboy. I love Beck. Beck and Pietra, sittin in tree, kissing. I?m like that boy, in About A Boy (only I?m a girl) who just does stuff to embarrass himself, even though he kind of knows he?s doing it anyway. God, that mother was pathetic. She was funny, That actress played another role like that one, a totally annoying overemotional person, only in that movie her character really sucks. Hmmnn. Talking about yourself again, Pietra? Yes I am. Omg. Wtf. HEHEHEHEHE. I just trolled myself.
God that Pietra chick is whacked. Oh mygod, and you know it ain?t just the weed, either.
Well, that?s about it, folks. I?ve either run out of lies, or I?ve run out of truth. I can?t tell which.
An I?m wasted and I can?t find my way home. Wait, I am home. Okay. Bye now. FOR REAL. GET OFF. GO TO SLEEP.
Oh yeah, another thing I have to ask about is how do you know when the bowl is smoked out? Now don?t make fun of me. I just used to smoke joints. I think I made my own bowl in high school though, out of a piece of wood. How clever of me. It was crude though.
P.S. 4:19:58am Fornits still out! There is an air of mystery around baremetal.com, regarding an unplanned/unexpected move.
Can it, Pietra.
Okay, one more thing. There are several secret undercurrents going on on the board. It is fun. Some people know something, and they are hinting at it. I think others know it too, but nobody will say? the tension is building.
-
Pietra, why don't you start an actual blog? Ginger or Jerk could help you with how to set it up.
-
Pietra, you have embarassed yourself again.
You don't even know HOW to smoke weed. Pfff.
RTP, I am not upset about being called an asshole "not the worst" that has ever happened as you mentioned. I just thought that Pietra did something rather raw emotionally and it had to do with calling everyone here assholes. I objected, posted, and she edited/deleted before it was noticed by all. It is uncool to call everyone here assholes, no?
Some people disliked animals, I don't like Pietra. Yep, I'm her personal and proud troll. The Pietra Hater, if you will. Pietra, it just seems like you are TRYING hard at something. Trying to smoke dope, trying to rally the troops in Bradbury's defense. Trying to be catwoman. Kind of like a wierd sort of wannabe poser poster.
It just rubs me wrong. Rub me right, we'll be ok. Unless it's more fun being bad.
-
Pietra is an animals wanna be.
-
TRYING to be animals.
-
She is emulating the master. A neophyte. And yet, I don't think she is willling to go the same way as her sensei. I foresee a divergence.
-
Tonight?s blog is un-stoned. It?s my thread, I can do whatever I want. I got too much to do to get stoned tonight. It has been fun. To my stupid troll: if I was a wannabe I would not cop to the smoking ignorance. I don?t even care. I ain?t like that. I can go down looking like the fool, but I got A?s in hard classes because I sat up front and asked questions when I was lost. Being the dumb one is smart. He he he. That might be hard for your logic processor, which seems to malfunction, as we can see by your logical inconsistency in trolling me persistently, reading my blog and responding even though you supposedly hate me. I really find it hard to believe that you are still upset that I called the ENTIRE FORNITS board ASSHOLES. Come on. Whatev, troll. No one else got bent about it. At least no one who has contacted me! He he he. And it?s not like I am so scary for someone to contact if they were really bothered. Not scary at all. But when you least expect it I will have you in a leg lock, you on the mat, sucker. You will be surprised.
Friends and Pathetic Tagalongs to the Pietra Hater Troll: you are correct. I dig animals. But I could not possible fill the empty space he has left behind.
[moment of silence]
So MEOW MEOW. I AM THE CAT WOMAN. HATERS AND FRIENDS ALIKE ARE WELCOME ON MY BLOG THREAD. I appreciate all input. Get real, troll. You are a fake wannabe troll yourself. But thanks for stopping by. I like all my fans.
For a good time, download GHETTOCHIP MALFUNCTION by Beck.
-
I liked you better stoned.
You sound so retarded that I am starting to feel stupid even responding to your posts. It's like kicking a sleeping homeless man in the ass. It's just not right.
Keep trying, baby.
-
you love her. admit it, troll.
-
Pathetic.
-
I concur, please smoke a bong before the next rambling post.
Pretty please?
-
You may have A's in hard classes from being geeky, but you definitely deserve an F on this thread (NOT BLOG) as you fail in howtosmokedope-ology.
And who is calling the kettle black?
Is your personal troll (and friends) trolling you, or are you trolling for trouble by making such posts?
-
keep it up....cracks me up!
-
Crack it up...keeps me up!
-
Thanks for everyone's comments. They mean a lot to me. I wrote something and posted it in a different thread instead of here, it was more serious.
-
I don't know if I would say I like the new Pietra thread. . . it made me remember how much I hated staright. I remember trying to force myself to split. I would leave the group, put my newcomers in the car, make sure my foster bro's were w/'em and then try to walk off grounds and haul ass. Never could I complete my split that way. I did leave on 4th phase during summer school, but unfortunately, I ended up back in group in a refresher that turned out to be many months. God I hated straight, staff and many of the phasers that worked as teh enforcers. I think when I 7th stepped it was one of the greatest feelings of my life. Unfortunately for me, the feeling changed from great to depressed to totally mentally ill as I became unprogramed. I remember going to the local park, climbing a jungle gym, tying a belt around the gym bars, and then wrapping it around my neck. I was really losing it at that point, my life was crashing down around me....so I jumped. I just wanted my world to end. I ended up hanging from the gym bars, choking the living shit out of myself and just asx I felt I was gonnna pass out, the belt broke, and I fell to the ground. Dufus me used on of those stretchy belts from the 1980's. My neck was bruised, swelled up real puffy was difficult to swallow for a couple of days. Thanks straight for nothing. I made it in spite of straight. I am a survivor.
-
kpickle, that's an awful story. First of all, I am glad you lived. Also, that must have been the worst, being brought back to Straight after splitting.
Hey, Congratulations on making the 1000th post on the I Just thread! Yay!
-
oops, that was me.
"Turn that shit off, man! What's wrong with you? Man, get the other record!...Damn!"
(Beck)
-
Beck, Mellow Gold, Soul Suckin Jerk
S : SOUL SUCKIN JERK
I got a job making money for the man
Throwing chicken in the bucket with the soda pop can
Puke green uniform on my back
I had to set it on fire in a vat of chicken fat
I leaped on the counter like a bird with no hair
Running through the mini mall in my underwear
I got lost downtown couldn't find a ride home
Sun went down I got frozen to the bone
'Til a hooker let me share her fake fur coat
As I took a little nap the cops picked up us both
I tried to explain I was only trying to get warm
I knew I never ever should have burnt my uniform
He said too bad. You want to bite the bullet hard son?
I didn't have no teeth so I stole his gun
And I crawled out the window with my shadow on a spoon
Dancing on the roof, shooting holes in the moon
I ain't going to work for no soul sucking jerk
I'm gonna take it all back and I ain't saying jack
I ain't going to work for no soul sucking jerk
I'm gonna take it all back and I ain't saying jack
Standing right here with a beer in my hand
And my mouth is full of sand and I don't understand
Fourteen days I've been sleeping in the barn
Better I get a paycheck tattooed on my arm
Whistling dixie with the dixie cup filled
With the barbecue sauce and the dental floss chill
Big fat fingers pointing into my face
Telling me to get busy cleaning up this place
I got bent like a wet cigarette
And she's coming after me with a butterfly net
Riding on the bloodhound ringing the bell
Black cat wrapped in the road map to hell
Pencil on my leg and I'm trying not to beg
Taking turns baking worms with the bacon and eggs
Well they got me in a bird cage flapping my jaw
Like a pretzel in the stars just waiting to fall
So give me what I got to get so I can go
Cos I ain't washing dishes in the ditch no more
I ain't going to work for no soul sucking jerk
I'm gonna take it all back and I ain't saying jack
I ain't going to work for no soul sucking jerk
I'm gonna take it all back and I ain't saying jack
-
I?m getting confused about my real life and the fornits? board. I?ve even been calling myself Pietra, or replaying jokes. Like ?Can it, Pietra.? That?s about my favorite one. Sometimes the things people say are so funny. But then again, I haven?t been to the psychiatrist yet. I could play that guy on 12 Monkeys, the Bradd Pitt character but female. That makes no sense, Pietra. You must be stoned again. Yeah, I am. Anyway, I am going to predict something, right here and now. I betcha I got the bipolar one. I have more fun that way. Maybe I am straight up manic. Maybe. Got damn I love Beck!!!
-
On 2005-02-04 10:03:00, Anonymous wrote:
"howtosmokedope-ology."
there's another one that replays. thanks, troll.
-
On 2005-02-03 09:15:00, Anonymous wrote:
"Pfff."
as well as this one. troll, your talent is in the one-liners. now giddy-up, ya little dog and pony show.
-
Pietra~
Bipolar? Manic? Uh, Hello??
How about the fact that you are simply retarded as fuck, Piet? You should study at least a chapter in howtosmokedope-ology before posting. Shit, at least rent a cheech and chong movie before asking "which end of the joint do I light?" sort of questions.
-
And by the way...do you even know what the dog and pony show analogy means, Piet?
-
Good morning, you're right on time, troll. Good pony, trotting out "howtosmokedope-ology" again. YAAAWWNN. You're losing your edge.
-
::hehehmm:: :nworthy:
-
Queen, could I be your King?
Could we kidnap Pietra, take her back to the castle and school her how to party like a big girl and how to not be so annoying? Maybe just duct tape her up in the basement for a while? When she is good we'll let her listen to 10 seconds of a Beck tune. We could rule the universe together and keep Peitra for a pet.
Remember, she tried stealing your avatar...
I know, you need time to think it over.
:smokin: