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I used to get high with that guy. I took the Midnight Express from Straight VA in 83. He came later. What was he like? I met up with him again in NA in NJ. When ever he talked about Straight He seemed to get off on the fact that he was a staff memmber. The scary part was that he got a woody so to speak about being abusive. Strong was the word he used I think we all know what that means. " I didn't let any one get away with shit." He also told me that he had sex several times while a phasor and staff with female staff i.e Paula Prophet :rofl: . Who Knows maybe its all Bull Shit. He was an accomplished liar as a kid.

Rich
Mayflower Survivor 82-83

I was checking out thestraights.com site and came across a news report done by a TV station in Miami about Safe of Orlando ( formerly Straight of Orlando ). To be honest with you I am really afraid that I will have more Nightmares.

I read about these other programs and said to myself that the "REAL" Straight is gone for good. After watching this report I am dead wrong. I literally thought I was going to vomit ::puke::   when they interviewed the clients. It reminded me of when this Lawyer came to Straight and interviewed all of us about being abused or held against our will. Every single kid lied accept one Todd something... I remember that he got blown away in group start over and extreme consecquences.
In the report they showed people motivating, siting up straight, exercising, all the Love Ya's  ... Just watching it I could almost feel the absolute fear that the patients were feeling. I better be the perfect little Straight Robot or I will suffer like no has before.
The director Loretta Parrish has the same smug meglamaniac nasty condesending additude that Newton had in his hey day. I can't wait until she gets outed for the child abuser that she really is.

Rich
Mayflower Survivor 81-82 Springfeild VA Straight

Since I found these sites I have been able to pin point alot of behaviors I have and where they came from. When I get angry at my wife or my Daughter I can't stop confronting them. Its like a switch is thrown and I can't seem to think clearly any longer. This is something that I have been doing for a very long time. I remember
that I used to do the same thing while in Gulag 5515. My heart would start pumping, body language and loud voice. It kills me inside.

I also notice that I have the habit of standing and semi belt looping myself. I feel embarrassed even to mention it here. I really don't know who else to share it with. No one on earth would understand. It's frustrating as hell to try and tell any of this stuff to people who were not there.

I also have been thinking that maybe I would not have developed real drug dependence with out Straight. I am a substance abuse counselor
and recovering addict (14 years on the 27th). When I went to Straight I definitely was in the throws of substance abuse not dependence that
did not come until after Straight. My question is this all a self fulfilling prophecy that was implanted in me subliminally or was it just the natural course of progression due to the disease of addiction? Were we not bombarded day after day with all their propaganda? For example if you leave the program you will become a scum bag, embarrassment to your whole family, sell your ass, rob everyone, sexual deviate blah blah blah... You guys know what bull sh*t we were force fed. I really can't say one way or another would have happened had I not been imprisoned! Straight Inc. didn't treat addicts so much as it created them. Think about it. From a business
stand point its brilliant. Create an everlasting flow of business. Make sure that through the constant barrage of negative self talk you
program/brainwash your product to swallow as truth they will use over and over and over again to perpetuate the belief system you created.
Straight was an addict factory.

There is alot more stuff that I am begining to realize and in time I will have to sort them out.

Rich
Mayflower Survivor Gulag 5515 81-82

I live in NJ and would love to talk or meet up with other survivors in my area.  



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Rich Gulag 5515 May Flower Survivor 81-82

I remember Steve Prophet built a huge playpen out of 2x4's and instructed the phasers who had younger brothers to fill it with toys. He then made a huge to do in morning group when he dragged it in the middle between the girls and boys sides of group.

He made Brad Smith sit in there and and play with all the toys I think he called it baby status. This lasted for weeks.

I also remember that Brads brother Terry had to stand on a skate board for a couple of weeks. He was wheeled from place to place including the bath room. It must have been brutally painfull on his knees and ankles keeping  balance for twelve hours a day .

There were many people who were forced to wear a sponge around thier necks.

There was very young girl she had a brother named Mike Corn.. something... They made her dress up like little doll with a frilly dress and lots od rouge on her cheeks because they said  was too candy coated. She was barely Tweleve.  
:evil: LITTLE GIRLS ARE SUPPOSED TO TALK LIKE THAT YOU SICK FUCK.  :evil:  

How about taking the entire guys side and cramming them into small room doing what was called a bust ass rap that lasted for 2 plus hours. Front to back side to side with no where to move and motivate untill there was condensation rolling down the walls and people were falling out.

My newcomer Steve Smith was forced to sit on a portable pottie in the middle of group  fold his hands twiddle his thumbs and squinch his face like he was defacationg. This humiliation lasted for about a week or more.

I was a big kid and was involved in restaining people. I was so frightened that if I did not restrain people I would then get sat on or worse. I shot enough dope to float a battleship around trying to push down the absolute loathing I felt about that. Holding peoples arms like the way I was taught was brutal. Sitting on them was worse.

 If i did this to anyone who reads this there are no words I could say that wiil take that back. I have paid for it in my own way . I am sorry that I couldn't find enough inner resolve to say no.

Rich

I was in Straight Gulag 5515. I am a Mayflower survivor 81-82.

I am from New Jersey my name is Rich Moroski.


During this time I began to feel like I was drifting away from
reality.I felt like I was drifting away from the little kernal of the
real me that I kept hidden away and protected with the little
snippets of songs and memories of my friends and family. I have never
in my entire life felt so completely isolated and terrified. My plan
from jump street was to play along and "act as if" until I could get
the fuck out.I figured that if I became one I could escape. I began
to really loose my mind. I look back now and remember how frightened
and absolutely depressed I was. My biggest fear was that I would slip
up, get caught and started over again. It's the tightest rope I ever
walked.

I finally got up to the forth phase and was going to school at
Bethesda Chevy-Chase High School. I put in for permissions to go to
the Air and Space Museum with my Mom who was coming to visit. For
some reason I can't remember I was not able to go. I also got sat on
the third phase side by that little fuckhead Nathan Bright (better
hope you see me first another long story...). All the next day I felt
like Smeagol from the Two Towers Movie battling back and forth Go--
stay Go--Stay. I went to school and had lunch then went to a teacher
who was cool borrowed five bucks. Before I left I ducked into the
wood shop and stole a utility knife. If Straight was going to track
me down I was prepared to defend myself. I decided that I would walk
to Washington DC from Bethesda. I knew that all I had to do is stay
on Michigan ( Ithink) and it would take me to the mall.

First thing I did with the money was buy a pack of Marlboros and
smoked one for all of us! I had no idea how fucking far I had to
walk. I had about 5 or 6 hours of complete paranoia. I kept looking
over my shoulder and waited for carloads of abduction zombies. I am
so happy that it never happened because I would have hurt someone or
myself. Here I was in down town DC wearing a pair of freshly stolen
sunglasses and feel a tap on my shoulder I almost in one heart beat
shit myself and cut that guys hand off. It was Terry Smith's father.
He asked me what the hell I was doing in DC. I flat out told him that
I copped out. He offered to take me back to 5515 and and politely
refused and promptly ran for the hills. Finally it began to get dark
and I became hungry. The only thing I could do was call my Dad who
was the one who tricked me into Straight in St Pete. He was coming to
the open meetings for a while with his new wife until someone
recognized her and narced out her son who I used to get high with.
She refused to put her baby into Straight and they got thrown out and
I was left in. Oh yeah no one ever bothered to tell me what the fuck
happened until I made that call. I was left there thinking that my
Dad died or that I died and was in hell. I remember flying from St
Pete to Dulles and had no idea why I was being sent to Virginia.
 :flame: THOSE ROTTEN MOTHER FUCKERS LET ME SIT THERE AND DIE INSIDE :flame: . I have
not thought about this in twenty years.

I called my father and began to tell him of the things that
Straight called therapy. He became very upset. I told him that I
would never go back. I would live on the street and hitch hike to any
where to hide. He finally began to hear me. He put me up in some
motel in DC. I was sitting in my own intake room when all of a sudden
the phone rang and it was Chuck Hargroves ( JR. Staff & ex old comer)
He tried to talk me back and told me that there was a van down stairs
that would drive me back. Chuck was really cool and was one of the
best old comers I ever had. I said that I was not going back... I
refused to leave my room until the next day. My Mother came and got
me the next day.

The rest is for another day.

Thanks for the opportunity to relive the great escape. Please feel
free to contact me off list. I feel like an onion. I have many layers
of memories left to share.

Rich Moroski
[email protected]

I was there in the very begining. Courtney? Dean Mistreada, Jim Sailor, Steve and his sister.

Who eles was staff at that time? It's hard to forgive the smirks and out right laughter as I was publicly demoralized.

 :flame: I am absolutely full of twenty years of fear and anger!