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Elan School / stand ups and VRs
« on: February 27, 2005, 11:12:00 AM »
I blew a home visit for "wood working", not doing my job with enough gusto I guess. I was going home for easter and as I hadn't made any memories for like a year before that I don't remember the last time I got to see them, probably more than a year. I'd gotten so depressed I could hardly remember what i'd said 5 minutes ago and would go through days in a trance. I guess that made it hard for me to put that extra 10% they were looking for for me to "earn" my visit. Maybe i deserved it by their system, but I got put there for being depressed and I come out with a "displacement" coping mechanism that I still deal with (things happen like I get lost on the way to school, objects like my keys will dissapear and end up in strange places, I have entire conversations without knowing what i'm talking about -- its getting hard to go through graduate school like this). I'm not saying I wouldn't have become like this if I hadn't gone to Elan, but there are a few alternate options that actually help the thing i'm talking about (I'm going through very expensive therapy right now, hope it works). I'm glad they took my visit overall because when my parents did get to see me 6 months later they realized I didn't need to be there, elan was total bs and they took my visit away just because they could. (I did not say any of this to them I just went out with them and had a good time). they wanted to take me home with them then, but elan insisted I stay another month in order for my parents to "think things over". I'm glad I didn't know I was leaving until 3 days before it happened, I dont' think I could have handled the excitement.