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« on: October 24, 2009, 10:16:24 AM »
Programs like CEDU, which was not a drug rehab to begin with, cannot effectively stem drug use because the program centers around making you feel worthless. You are broken down and raw on one hand, but opposingly, deluded into this grandiose idea that the program SAVED your life and represents all that is good. This causes internal dissonance.
I was never addicted to drugs at all. I used recreationally as a teen and actually quit months prior to CEDU easily. After CEDU, I did not resume, but that was a personal decision made prior to attendance. Haven't even seen anything since I was 16. I don't have, obviously, an addictive personality.
However, if people are prone to drug abuse, I do not see how a program dedicated to breaking you down does anything but encourage escapism and self destruction. When you leave the surreal environs of CEDU, you emerge in to a reality with a severely distorted sense of its importance and also a misplaced trust in the tools you were given. You slowly realize either consciously or subconsciously (which is worse because you are still in denial) that nothing adds up, and you, your Stepford self, and your new cultic paradigm of emotional well being is NOT integrating into the outside world.
This forms a clusterfuck of internal chaos and denial that could only unleash your sleeping demons.