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spank you:) it is so good to see you are alright..i cant update my site for some dumb reason.. trying to make it into an art site.. and take the dumb photos off..is there anyway i can send you a photo?? i saw yours.. you look great!!

Im not sure if anyone around here knows or even remembers me, but i went to elan 8 from 98-2000. I was in a very strange position at elan.. you'd think being related to people who work there you might be treated differently.. and i was, but not favored. I grew up in maine just minutes from elan.. i remember being shot down once because i had put dirty socks in my bathrobe pocket in the closet after night time hygiene.. and forgot about them.. the next day i was shot down because they feared that i was trying to "run-away". i was held to a standard probably because they did not want to mess up with me..god knows if i had turned up crazy or anything:) I know Joe had many problems.. but to be honest he is just like abyone else that back-stabs lies and cheats in life.. and that is almost everyone. Joe was my quazy-grandfather.. my sister's husband was a cook there.. when i first came there i remember wallking by him and not being able to talk to him.. i also remember when my brother was sent there.. (he recently got out).. but he was sent to my house.. and at one point before i left, i had to tell him what to "do".. it was very strange.. i would not be surprised if he resented me.. Anyways.. Yes- Joe did some controversial things.. i do not know the details and i am not denying anyone of their feelings or opinions.. but i knew him as a very wise man.. I'd rather be in therapy with someone who has been there and has had life experience than some text-book college degree flake.. how can you respect that? if someone is perfect how do they know where you are ocming from? They dont. That was my two cents.. do with it what you may.. but i found alot of those things you said rather hurtful.. but as you all know it is a free world.. you dont have to like anyone..if you dont want to.- MIchelle

ive never been to this one before.. This is Michelle from elan 8.. 1998-2000.. I saw that Maren is posting.. i wanted to say hey lady!! its been a while.. i hope all is well. Say hi to danielle too. now -- this is on another note.. and ill probbably get some twisted reponse but heck.. it is a free world.i have to say that one thing elan did for me is make it hard to truly be yourself. When you are told you are something you are not.. every teen has problems.. big or small. piercings dark eyeliner and jewelry.. yes it is an image.. it is also very healthy to have an image. it is called INDIVIDUALITY. Yes- i was in trouble.. i was a confused and hurt little girl..but does it condone making me feel like complete scum everyday for two years.. no. and no i dont want anyones sympathy either. Just to update.. i went to art college.. it is too expensive.. and you cant teach someone to be an artist.. not only is art in the eye of the beholder..as well as music, but you are either good or not. So .. im not in college.. i work in a bakery decorating cakes for 7.50 an hour.. but you know what? I have my pride. i am a musician.. i play piano and keyboards.. i have a wonderful boyfriend. Unlike any other i have ever been with. He loves my mind. He gives me total repect and freedom( i learned the hard way when i got out of elan when it came to controlling boyfirends.. ) he makes me happy, he is totally honest with me whether i want to hear it or not. i am also doing little things here and there with design and band art.. its all fun stuff.   along with the good comes bad as well.. i still have major trust issues.. i can be jealous, and i dont always have the best self esteem. im still finding out who i really am, and am confused about it still sometimes. .. Over all things are normal.. i still live in maine. my brother is out of elan too... going to college.. he has grown sooo much. i cant believe it hase been almost 6 years since i first stepped into elan.. and 4 since ive been out.. i wonder if ill always remeber it like yesterday?? .. anyways.. im on a rant. I hope everyone is enjoying thier summer.. im just happy to be able to be myself.. and wake up to an alarm.. Write if you like.. - MIchelle