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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / TOOL
« on: December 31, 2003, 02:21:00 AM »
To me is the most important and unique band to come out in the last 10 years
That is all :smokin:
That is all :smokin:
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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / I am here to corrupt you
« on: December 31, 2003, 12:09:00 AM »
I am your druggie friend incarnate :silly: :silly:
wheres my druggie friends when I need them???
wheres my druggie friends when I need them???
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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / This morning
« on: December 29, 2003, 08:00:00 AM »
I went down to the methadone clinic and I hadnt slept all yesterday...right before I went to bed last night I found this site..and was flooded with such memories that I didint sleep again.
So the nurse says "You feel ok?" and I said well was up all nite on cpu...found this web site of these other survivors of this brainwashing center I was locked in as a child.
She got a big old grin on her face like I was joking around....I said no really.she asked whom put me there and I said my parents..I kind of skimmed over the whole "Wouldnt let us use restroom...physical and mental abuse" ...and she asked why I was put there and I said well I was a confused teenager that got caught trying pot.
And she shrugged it off like "Well did it help you?" /boggle wtf?!!!! ( as Im standing in line for my mega fuck ton dose of synthetic heroin)
Then she brushed it off with "Ok hun see you wednesday"
This is a far too common response from people.
It really is hard to explain to people what happened. And really I had kinda just got over it and blocked it out...and moved on..
Then I found this site....and I saw that these places are still open. I thought all Straight type centers were closed for good and America learned a lesson.
And we as ex survivors are doing a severe evil in not working to expose this shit.
I wanna thank you guys for this site. I dont feel alone anymore, because in you guys I share a bond beyond friendship....as you guys are the only ones that can ever understand. And that program shattered my self esteem to this day...ask Timmy he knows me now...Im a basket case that can hardly stand to leave the house.
I walk into a mall and feel like im on display...like people are saying bad things about me. Before straight I was an outgoing tanned little kid that had friends and skateboarded. I still never really got color in my skin...as I cant stand to be outside...and around people. Im such a basket case that my wife gave up on me.So Im basically friendless social reject that has failed at everything in my life. This isnt straights fault totally. I chose to use heroin etc etc....I have made my share of bad decisions. But as far as my anxiety..and hating myself and feeling like Im not a good human being I place that blame directly on the shoulders of staff members such as Steve Brooks, whom I have come to terms with and now i like the guy.once I realized that he hated himself just like me and thats why he treated me that way.
I would love so much to see you guys and gals.
I hope those of you that remember me will e mail becuase I certainly remember you guys...and I think i need someone to talk to that has been there as I never worked thru it...I just got out and tried to block it all out and it has eaten me for years.
[ This Message was edited by: Therion on 2004-01-01 17:42 ]
So the nurse says "You feel ok?" and I said well was up all nite on cpu...found this web site of these other survivors of this brainwashing center I was locked in as a child.
She got a big old grin on her face like I was joking around....I said no really.she asked whom put me there and I said my parents..I kind of skimmed over the whole "Wouldnt let us use restroom...physical and mental abuse" ...and she asked why I was put there and I said well I was a confused teenager that got caught trying pot.
And she shrugged it off like "Well did it help you?" /boggle wtf?!!!! ( as Im standing in line for my mega fuck ton dose of synthetic heroin)
Then she brushed it off with "Ok hun see you wednesday"
This is a far too common response from people.
It really is hard to explain to people what happened. And really I had kinda just got over it and blocked it out...and moved on..
Then I found this site....and I saw that these places are still open. I thought all Straight type centers were closed for good and America learned a lesson.
And we as ex survivors are doing a severe evil in not working to expose this shit.
I wanna thank you guys for this site. I dont feel alone anymore, because in you guys I share a bond beyond friendship....as you guys are the only ones that can ever understand. And that program shattered my self esteem to this day...ask Timmy he knows me now...Im a basket case that can hardly stand to leave the house.
I walk into a mall and feel like im on display...like people are saying bad things about me. Before straight I was an outgoing tanned little kid that had friends and skateboarded. I still never really got color in my skin...as I cant stand to be outside...and around people. Im such a basket case that my wife gave up on me.So Im basically friendless social reject that has failed at everything in my life. This isnt straights fault totally. I chose to use heroin etc etc....I have made my share of bad decisions. But as far as my anxiety..and hating myself and feeling like Im not a good human being I place that blame directly on the shoulders of staff members such as Steve Brooks, whom I have come to terms with and now i like the guy.once I realized that he hated himself just like me and thats why he treated me that way.
I would love so much to see you guys and gals.
I hope those of you that remember me will e mail becuase I certainly remember you guys...and I think i need someone to talk to that has been there as I never worked thru it...I just got out and tried to block it all out and it has eaten me for years.
[ This Message was edited by: Therion on 2004-01-01 17:42 ]