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Open Free for All / The Art of the Process
« on: March 18, 2004, 03:05:00 AM »
Any of you current/ex needle users ever feel you were addicted to the needle itself?
 Thats ultimately what led me to quit..Dulling thru dozens of syringes to get one shot in..
 
 Bleeding from about 30 holes and yhaving to take another shower just to wash all the blood off so as not to stain my clothes..

 But I noticed when I made the transition to Methadone...it fixed me and I felt better ...but missed the process of fixing..
 Watching the little line of blood suck up into the dope when you pull the plunger back...or if you hit a big dino vein sometimes you didnt need
to register...you felt that satisfying "pop" as it broke the vein and just knew it was a red head.

 Yes the needle itself was (is) powerful wasnt it?

_________________
It's the FEAR that keeps them silent. Pretty soon that fear turns into brainwashed acceptance. Years later it still has a way of lingering. Not letting that fear control us is the only way to survive.

[ This Message was edited by: Therion on 2004-03-19 04:29 ]

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Holy Shit!
« on: March 11, 2004, 10:15:00 PM »
I hide myself inside the shadows of shame
The silent symphonies were playing their game
My body echoed to the dreams of my soul
This God is something that I could not control

Where can I run to now?
The joke is on me
No sympathizing God is insanity, yeah
Why don?t you just get out of my life, yeah?
Why don?t you just get out of my life now?
Why doesn?t everybody leave me alone now?
Why doesn?t everybody leave me alone, yeah?

Obsessed with fantasy, possessed with my schemes
I mixed reality with pseudogod dreams
The ghost of violence was something I seen
I sold my soul to be the human obscene

How could it poison me?
The dream of my soul
How did my fantasies take complete control, yeah?
Why don?t you just get out of my life, yeah?
Why don?t you just get out of my life now?
Why doesn?t everybody leave me alone now?
Why doesn?t everybody leave me alone, yeah?

Well I feel something?s taken me I don?t know where
It?s like a trip inside a separate mind
The ghost of tomorrow from my favorite dream
Is telling me to leave it all behind
Feel it slipping away, slipping in tomorrow
Got to get to happiness, want no more of sorrow

How I lied, went to hide
How I tried to get away from you now
Am I right if I fight?
That I might just get away from you now
Sting me!

Well I feel something?s giving me the chance to return
It?s giving me the chance of saving my soul
Beating the demigod, I?m fading away
I?m going backwards but I?m in control
Feel it slipping away, slipping in tomorrow
Getting back to sanity, providence of sorrow

Was it wise to disguise
How I tried to get away from you now
Is there a way that I could pay
Or is it true I have to stay with you now?

How I lied, went to hide
How I tried to get away from you now
Am I right if I fight?
That I might just get away from you now
Suck me!

I?m really digging schizophrenia the best of the earth
I?ve seized my soul in the fires of hell
Peace of mind eluded me, but now it?s all mine
I simply try, but he wants me to fail
Feel it slipping away, slipping in tomorrow
Now I?ve found my happiness, providence of sorrow

No more lies, I got wise
I despise the way I worshipped you yeah
Now I?m free, can?t you see
And now instead I won?t be led by you now
Free!

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Merry X mas Group
« on: March 10, 2004, 04:46:00 PM »
I fucked your girlfriend last night.
While you snored and drooled, I fucked your love.
She called me Daddy. And I called her baby when I
Smacked her ass. I called her sugar when I ate
Her alive till daylight. And I slept with her all
Over me, from forehead to ribcage I dripper her ass.
Sometimes I thought you might be spying, living out some
Brash fantasy, but no. You were knocked out. But we were
All knocked out you know. In a way

I serve too many masters.

We didn't know you'd break the bottle that the magic
Came in to use those jagged shards to slit our wrists
And neck. And you'd do it too, you're that kind of dude.
But you wouldn't know what you were doing because
I didn't, your girlfriend could have been a burn
Victim, an amputee, a dead body. But god damn I wanted
To fuck.

I'm serving too many fucking masters.

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / therion
« on: March 10, 2004, 04:41:00 PM »
Is a useless bastard..



 Discuss  :lol:  :lol:  :lol:  :lol:  :lol:

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Count to 6 And Die
« on: March 08, 2004, 05:36:00 AM »
She?s got her eyes open wide
She?s got the dirt and spit of the world
Her mouth on the metal
The lips of a scared little girl

I?ve got an angel in the lobby
He?s waiting to put me in line
I won?t ask forgiveness
My faith has gone dry

She?s got her christian prescriptures
And death has crawled in her ear
Like elevator music of songs
That she shouldn?t hear

And it spins around 1...2...3
And we all lay down 4...5...6
Some do it fast
Some do it better in smaller amounts

And it spins around 1...2...3
And we all lay down 4...5...6
Some do it fast
Some do it better in smaller amounts

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Lateralus
« on: February 29, 2004, 02:51:00 AM »
If you own this CD and play the title track and skip to 4:56 in that song and listen to the High Hat cymbal...its insane..

And the strange thing about lateralus is the time signatures on the album all make a mathematic spiral....

Ok digging u the link for you guys n gals :idea:

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Kill me please
« on: February 29, 2004, 12:40:00 AM »
Anyone? Anyone? I know theres got to be some people that hate me out there..I promise to tell God I gave you permission and to let you slide..

You see I am a miserable lonely fuck and pray for my untimely death every few hours..

I dont believe in suicide though..and would never harm myself..

This is why I need you good people to help me..

we could set it up like a hunting accident..
Ill put on a bear suit....

You see I am a loser..and have no friends or loved ones anymore..
 I also find life to be dull and joyless...
 I hate being alone but always am....
 I am really tired of the struggle..
 Life to me has become a game (Picture yourself in a room playing monopoly by yourself for 5 years straight with no break...ok thats how I feel about life) that I am tired of playing..

 Is there none among you with the means or gumption to end my lonely pathetic existance??!!




no but seriously..

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Missy Misdemeaner Elliot/Ebola/and My Family
« on: February 29, 2004, 12:19:00 AM »
_________________
A "never had", a "never will"
In the syringe being pushed through
The leverage that pulls it over
Is dropping into the moot, drowning on a sinking boat
The pressure brings it up, then down

****FOREVER INCREASING MY POST COUNT****

[ This Message was edited by: Therion on 2004-02-28 21:33 ]

[ This Message was edited by: Therion on 2004-02-28 21:48 ]

[ This Message was edited by: Therion on 2004-03-18 22:40 ]

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Pharmaecopia(Does your God come in a capsule?)
« on: February 28, 2004, 06:19:00 AM »
Pharmaecopia

Does your god come in a capsule?
To sedate you tear the walls down,
Headless prison cannibals chew,
to consume you bring the alien,

Halcium and morphine,
5-methoxy-n, n-dimethyltryptamine,
Psilocybin, mescaline, aspirin, histomine,
Brushite, darvaset, valium, caffeine, cannabis, and LSD,
Ayahuasca, harmine give it all to me I want it

These are just a few of my favorite things
'


Trisolam and xanax, serotonin, mdma, ibogaine, dopeamine,
Tetra-hydro-chloride, atenolol,
Amanita muscaria,
Boric oxide, arrabinitol, psilocin, and flamizine,
Cylotec and harmaline
Give it all to me I want it

Does your god come in a capsule to sedate you?
Tear the walls down, headless prison,
Cannibals chew to consume you,
Bring the alien

You can't kill me,
I'm already dead
Inside my hole,
Inside my head,
We just beg for any way to be sedated,
It's all about escaping,
Numb to me,
Numb body from this hell,

I can feel them pushing, I can feel them pulling
I can feel them holding, I can feel them moving,
I can feel them prying, I can feel them prodding,
I can feel them breathing, I can feel them digging
I can feel them stabbing, I can feel them scoping,
I can feel them living, I can feel it,
Consume, take in, plunging, plumbing,
Instruments prying, aliens inside me,
Tooling the machine,
Intoxicating,
Feel it unfolding, riddles in me

It's all about escaping, we just beg for any way to get away
Who do you bow down to?? does your god come in a capsule, or on a
plate???
They're trying to sedate you, swallow self and bring on the alien
You tried to kill me, I'm already dead to this world
IM ALREADY DEAD TO THIS WORLD


_________________
A "never had", a "never will"
In the syringe being pushed through
The leverage that pulls it over
Is dropping into the moot, drowning on a sinking boat
The pressure brings it up, then down

****FOREVER INCREASING MY POST COUNT****

[ This Message was edited by: Therion on 2004-02-28 03:21 ]

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Eyes of the south
« on: February 27, 2004, 06:12:00 AM »
Hey check this band out..
They are fucking badass..
Louisiana swamp music
(Yes thats Phil from pantera)
Click the stone the crow vid first
Ladies ,Gents I give you DOWN!!

http://launch.yahoo.com/artist/videos.a ... ID=1007682

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Elan School / So tell me...
« on: February 27, 2004, 04:17:00 AM »
About elan..
How long was the program? Did they have "group" all day?
Did you live in host homes or dorms?
I have read alot ofposts on here and have an understanding of the abuses however..
I didnt hear much about the program...
What was the Minimum age? Were you court ordered?
IS elan still open? was staff really former "clients"?
Were you allowed to commune with family by phone or letter?

I am Therion..I was in Straight Dallas shortly after my 13th B day..and stayed about a year in 1988...

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / OMG I just got a job
« on: February 27, 2004, 12:41:00 AM »
Yah Im selling batteries at K Mart..

Yup,Yup I can keep all you ladies dildo's a buzzin..

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / My conversation with the deceased
« on: February 25, 2004, 07:53:00 AM »
EDIT : Eat fucking shit!!!assholes

_________________
I fucked your girlfriend last night.
While you snored and drooled, I fucked your love.
She called me Daddy. And I called her baby when I
Smacked her ass. I called her sugar when I ate
Her alive till daylight.

[ This Message was edited by: Therion on 2004-02-25 05:47 ]

[ This Message was edited by: Therion on 2004-02-25 12:20 ]

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / I just saw on COPS
« on: February 24, 2004, 01:27:00 AM »
They got a call to this house..and theres some couple fighting...anyways they have 2 little kids..

The cops look in the Kitchen and theres Gnats and flys and Piles and Piles of Trash and dirty dishes it looked like a fucking dump!

And the Cops are like "WTF is THIS?!" I mean it was NAASTAAY
 So nasty they basically told her to either clean it or they were placing the kids in foster home..

So they are asking the woman...do you work? "no"
well what do ya do all day? "Im a housewife"
But you havent cleaned the kitchen ,nor taken trash out in MONTHS?!

I was just like DAMN ya know??!And also why cant the husband clean the shit..
 It aint that fucking hard to do a pile of dishes..

 When I was married I cleaned all the time..but Lisa was in school and working most of the time so I was trying to lessen the load...rather than be like "Clean up...cook me some dinner and get me a beer Bitch!"
 Because thats just lame...and Im a lover not an asshole and all that good stuff..

 I was appaled tho..thats bad when the police have to come MAKE you clean your fucking house.
 Come to think of it...even when My live in and I were like down and dirty on the needle our house didnt look like that..

What causes people to live like that?
But Im a neat freak as well..I hate bugs...I hate trash and cannot live like that..

So if heroin addicts can keep a clean house...how  can regular people live in filth..and yet not have jack shit to do all day??

And yes I know this is a dumb post but Im bored and would like your opinions..

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Finally all the clean piss pays off!!
« on: February 23, 2004, 07:48:00 AM »
My paperwork just got approved this morning for weekly Methadone Carrys (1 supervised dose + 6 take home bottles)To go into effect Friday

 This makes my life a metric fuckton easier ladies and gents..

 Now I can flip doses to night and sleep!!!!
Anyone thats been on MMT is familiar with Morning nods and up all fucking night...because you hit a trough in your blood level....

 Now I only go 4 times a month rather than 4 times a week..

 Took  me 17 clean piss tests..(inclusing one dirty one which set me back 3 months)

 Thats right kiddies once again Therion wins..

 
 PRE RESPONSE TO ANON POSTERS : Fuck you, die,eat my fucking white ass, and fuck you a 2nd time for posierity!!

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