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The Seed Discussion Forum / PTSD : POST TRAUMATIC SEED DISORDER
« on: November 05, 2003, 04:08:00 PM »
"Or, to draw another analogy, let's say you're raving about the wonderful sandwich your eating and I tell you it was made from a nice slice of my leg, which was taken against my will. The decent thing to do, in response to this new info, is probably not to call me names and insist that the sandwich is so damned good as to be worth my sacrifice."


now THATS funny, and right about on target.  
BTW, in case anyone here doesn't know, somejoker is me, I use it to do my moderating duties.

Greg.

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The Seed Discussion Forum / MY TIME
« on: September 20, 2003, 10:56:00 AM »
Of course, you would have been "dead, insane or in jail" without it.

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http://www.straightincorporated.com/pictures.html


Apparantly, The Straight occupied the same building for some time after the Seed closed down.
Surprising?  Not hardly.

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The Seed Discussion Forum / My image on the streets
« on: October 16, 2002, 12:50:00 PM »
I just had a  thought that made me laugh.



I was sitting at my desk at work and one of my co-workers said "sexy sadie".



This made me remember the "what was your image on the streets" raps.



Invariably, some girl would stand up and say "my image on the streets was sexy sadie".



Anyone else remmeber these inane raps we had? AS IF we were really ever "on the streets".  AS IF we had developed these well defined "images" and walked around pretending we were some comic book character.

Sexy sadie

freaky freddie

hysterical huey
Class clown




At least Art had a sense of humor. He must of cracked himself up coming up with this nonsense and then watching us parrot it back to him.







[ This Message was edited by: somejoker on 2002-10-16 12:26 ]

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The Seed Discussion Forum / The Three Signs
« on: October 06, 2002, 10:45:00 PM »
Quick, this is a quiz, Name the three signs?


Couldn't do it, could you?

However, we spent every weekday in rules rap,the seven step rap and the three signs rap and sexual confession rap (boys and girls rap).

Okay, lets start with what the three signs were;

1) Think, think, think
2) First things first
3) easy does it.

They were posted on the wall, silly.

Next quiz question, what were the purpose of the three signs and the endless "raps" about these special powerfull tools that we used to get straight?

This is my take.  They were meaningless except as a demonstration of cultic submission. The actual content was so meaningless,You didn't even remember what they were, did you?(hahaha).

my explanation. The three signs were held up as one of the special methods Art  gifted us as tools to the straight seedling life.  In actuality, the "sign raps" were used, just like the rules rap, to demonstrate our submission to the group and our readiness to adopt  cultic group behavior.

We would enter into these raps in a weakened emotional and physical state. We would be tired, hungry restless. We were made to look straight ahead at the rap leader, to "motivate" our excitement at our participation, and weren't even allowed to sit back in our chair without knuckles poked and prodded into us from behind. Any failure to completely submit and comply, not matter how small, would result in immediate and severe punishment.

It would be then that the sign rap would begin. John Underwood or some other tyrant would come sit in the stool and bellow "Okay someone tell me what the first sign is and what it means to you".

This is when anyone actually thinking (ie: cult slang-getting into your head) would have to stop doing so and motivate his/her desire to answer this question.

answer:

"the first sign is Think, think think. This means to me that........"

Now, it was TOTALLY UNIMPORTANT what it meant to you. What was important was that you answered in the manner and method expected by the cult.

You had to answer the question in your own words but expousing the group philosophy. If it sounded insincere, you were "come down on" for giving "pat answers". If it was some alternative explanation derived from your actual thought process, you were in even bigger trouble.  What was important was that you could convincingly regurgitate the cultic line in your own words in a sincere and convincing fashion.

If you cleared these hurdles, the leader would say "okay, who can tell me the next sign?"

"first things first means to me to always put my sobriety ahea.........."

regurgitate cultic group identity/behavior.

What the three signs actually were mattered not one iota. what mattered was the regurgitation of the group meaning and the adoption of the group identity as your own.

The three signs could have easily been this;

1) jack be nimble jack be quick
2) run don't walk
3) slippery when wet.

The point being that the content was irrelevant, it was the action that mattered.

Discussion?

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The Seed Discussion Forum / More Trivia
« on: September 25, 2002, 10:44:00 AM »
Give Eenie the website address! Tell her and her mother we want them both to post!

lol

Yes, even the Seed spokesperson, Claude Greene, admitted in the paper in 10/75 that the newspaper coverage "put the nail in the coffin".

Great stuff.

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There were over 500 kids in June of 73 and it flutuated down to about 350 up to 750. Most of the time, 500 was pretty accurate, and they were graduating kids like crazy. It was a true revolving door.
There was no incentive to keep you like there was in the later straight type programs where they billed your insurance company. So, they got you in, and thankfully, they got us out relatively quick in comparison to the kids that came after us in the spinoff programs like straight, kids, SAFE.

Some of those kids spent years on first and second phase.

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The Seed Discussion Forum / YOUR RESPONSE TO SEED COST SURVEY...
« on: September 09, 2002, 11:23:00 AM »
Well, in St Pete there were times that up to 700 kids were there. 1500 Parents, visitors, grandmas, Aunts, uncles. Do the math. It is higher than your estimate.

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The Seed Discussion Forum / Do you remember when?
« on: September 09, 2002, 11:22:00 AM »
Ginger's brother Thom, whom posts here occasionally but reads everything we post (Hi Thom!) was in the seedling band.

Art Ran for Congress right around 76-77. I remember being horrified when hearing that, but I was out and was avoiding the topic at all costs.

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The Seed Discussion Forum / Do you remember when?
« on: August 29, 2002, 08:06:00 PM »
Quote
On 2002-08-29 16:38:00, MommaDebi wrote:
I think I can remember that occuring...

OhMyGod

I also have a vague memory of somebody running directly from one of the raps, heading out the back (thru rolled up doors?). For some reason I seem to remember that those courageous people, that attempted to "split", generally went during our outside PE time. (rolling those shoulders... oooh, eeeeee, awwwwww).



I am sure that that particular person understands that you were only doing the very best you could under very strenuous circumastances...I believe that we all did the best we could during that time in our lives.



You were very young, as I and many others were, we were indeed "powerless", not like the steps demanded we atone for, but rather because we had no individual power, not in the group, not in our homes and not in the world at large.... Please forgive yourself.





PS)A person that I had dated ran from his oldtimers a few times before he was placed in PAR. Mark Sibilia..are you out there?
I have forgiven myself. I understand now that I was just surviving myself.
Hey,I remember that Name! Mark Sibilia-but I cant place the face.
The sliding doors you speak of were on the end where they led boys rap. It was actually a loading dock for trucks and there is a 4 ft drop right there. One day a guy ran from Guys rap (guy's rap-always a terrifying experience) and got past the guard and jumped....and twisted his ankle on the landing.
I believe the first day or second day I was there someone ran for the main door and was brutally thrown to the concrete and piled onto. I was forteen and that killed my spirit for running. Periodically people broke for the door but I never saw anyone sucessfully escape in this manner. It invariably led to brutality and humiliation for the person whom attempted, and fear for those who saw it.
Do you remember that if you tried to watch these episodes, the junior staff members would direct your attention back to the front by cocking their head and pointing to the rap leader? and if you didn't they would signal the rap leader to stand you up?

You weren't allowed to look anywhere but at the "rap" leader with your back off the chair. If you stopped to indendently think you were poked and prodded and admonished to "get out of your head".
The seed was very effective in its terror tactics.

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The Seed Discussion Forum / Do you remember when?
« on: August 29, 2002, 07:50:00 PM »
One of my favorite memories. There was this kid about 16 or 17 but on the small size that came in just a little after me. He escaped about a week later. Several days passed , he was brought back and was stood up and come down on hard. That night he escaped again. They caught him and court ordered him in. Back then that meant you got a six month program. After court, he came back and they stood him up and absolutely creamed him for like an hour. That night he escaped again. He was caught the next day and brought back and stood up and just hammered for what seemed like forever, but he was smiling. They sent him home with these two huge guys and mocked him about how the windows were locked, alarmed, guard dog, etc and there was NO WAY he would escape again. That was the last time we ever saw him because that night he escaped for the last time.
He was my secret hero!

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The Seed Discussion Forum / current picture of Art
« on: August 20, 2002, 09:00:00 AM »
anyone else notice that in the picture, between the seedlings Perloff and Libby, is a very seedling looking man. Notice how he puts his arm around Perloff? Makes me remember being walked to the car or to the bathroom as a newcomer. That is the old seedling grip in the way that boy newcomers were led around. Later in the straight they grabbed your beltloop.
I would bet anyone a hundred dollars  he is a seed graduate as well.

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The Seed Discussion Forum / Singing in the Orange Bowl
« on: August 19, 2002, 10:01:00 AM »
You may recall that as part of the indoctrination we were repeatedly told, and had to repeat, that if we ever "left" the seed we wouldn't be able to get the songs out of our heads.
Tis true...I remember them to this day.

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The Seed Discussion Forum / Moving on
« on: August 19, 2002, 10:00:00 AM »
The seed indeed is all I need
to fry my brain and make it bleed

You come each day from ten to ten
Whats for lunch, Oh No not P&J again!

When I have to crap why do you look
and log my movements in that book?

My drug use now is an exagerated lie
at open meetings my mom will cry!

At night locked up I don't make a peep
and try like hell to get three hours sleep

one day I'll get out and then you'll see
You haven't heard the last from me!

applause
thank you, thank you, thank you.....

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The Seed Discussion Forum / Questions, questions.
« on: August 16, 2002, 06:05:00 PM »
Could our new friend from Lauderdale please try to answer the following questions:

1) Art Barker claimed "13 years in adolescent drug treatment" during 1972. The seed had only been opened for two years. He used to say he had been at a place up North.
the question is:
Where did Art Barker get his experience. Was he a member of Synanon? Daytop?
2) Was it John Underwood or your brother that used to tell the story about having to bite a mouse in order to join a motorcycle gang?
3) What happened to Suzy Connor? Was she at the reunion?
4) What happened to Arthur? Was he at the reunion?
Thanks so much for your participation. How about posting a story about one of your experiences at the seed?

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