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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Proper Blunt rolling
« on: February 07, 2005, 11:41:00 PM »
okay, so I'm going to ask, since no one else is talking: do you think you get more out of your weed in a bowl or in a joint? the bowl i borryed is annoying me. It is metal, with pipe fittings and some handle that's busted so it keeps spinning around.

well I guess tonight's joint worked just fine.

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / I just
« on: February 07, 2005, 11:11:00 PM »
this stuff stinks so much i could smell it on the way home in a baggie, in my coat pocket! yay! now i am rolling a joint. it is a bit of a mess. let's see if it works anyway...

hmmnn. waiting, waiting. turning on music. elliot smith, between the bars. it is a melancholy night.

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Proper Blunt rolling
« on: February 07, 2005, 09:18:00 PM »
While we are discussing blunts, I would like to raise my hand and ask a question.

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Newtons "Church" Land Use approved
« on: February 07, 2005, 09:13:00 PM »
Quote
On 2005-02-07 13:35:00, Erinys wrote:

"Perhaps send flowers?"


good one

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Untitled
« on: February 07, 2005, 09:09:00 PM »
thanks Erinys and JMA (Jane? Is that you with a new id?), and everyone else.

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Calling out the rest of the people who knew where we were bu
« on: February 07, 2005, 04:15:00 PM »
I am feeling hopeless about us govt and the people who voted them in and Alberto Gonzales. Last night I read some of the fascist stuff over on Tacitus' Realm or was it another one.

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Man Kills Mother After She Flushes Marijuana Down Toilet
« on: February 07, 2005, 04:10:00 PM »
I like smoking, and I have been in a much mellower mood this past week even the next day. It makes me a little spacey, but I'd rather that than the teeth grinding, can't get out the door in the morning without crying. I see a psychiatrist soon. Maybe I will get diagnosed with something and get some medicine that has different effects than pot. Maybe I will choose to maintain on pot and alcohol instead.

I am not married, so I can't say what I would do. Once someone really close to me died and I called a friend to talk about it, but they were stoned and could not respond well.

If my hubby were watching tv all day fucking long damn right I'd fucking bust the thing and throw it in the dumpster. I'll be sure to make that clear before I get married though. :wink:

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Calling out the rest of the people who knew where we were bu
« on: February 07, 2005, 03:29:00 PM »
Sometimes I think about teachers, especially my favorite ones, who knew me really well. I was in Straight, and they did nothing, at least as far as I know.

My friends, I have heard, knew about Straight (then why didn't I?) and tried to talk to my parents, though.

Doctors I saw since I was little, and so on.

Then I came back, and I was SO pale. My schoolwork was different too. My favorite teacher said "you are so brave". Everyone was into the fact that I was "an alcoholic" "in recovery". How special.

I think one counselor knew. I didn't see him long enough to get into the brainwashing thing, however.

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / My Stoned Blog
« on: February 07, 2005, 12:13:00 AM »
oops, that was me.

"Turn that shit off, man! What's wrong with you? Man, get the other record!...Damn!"

(Beck)

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Power is controlling access to resources
« on: February 06, 2005, 07:25:00 PM »
That story from Tampa is shocking.

My point in this thread is to talk about power and control, not deprivation per se, although that is a part of it.

But don't think daily inadequacies can't add up. A number of us came close to dying or being permanently injured due to lack of water, nutrition and access to medical care. Some of us were permanently physically injured.

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Power is controlling access to resources
« on: February 06, 2005, 12:40:00 PM »
If you can think of more, please add.


The resources you DID NOT have free access to:
1. freedom of body, to move where or how you willed when you willed.  
2. Food
3. Water
4. Privacy of body
5. Privacy of communication, including your own writing.
6. Freedom to communicate with anyone you might want to talk to.
7. Freedom of time, to spend it how you wanted
8. Freedom of mind, to daydream when you wanted, to get some peace
9. Music
10. Personal decisions about ANYTHING, including the clothing you got to wear on any day, or how you wore the required barrettes in your hair.
11. sunshine (you were inside all day, rare outdoor ?exercise?.
12. outside information -- in addition to no freedom of communication, you could not even get information such as news, or other information carriers, like books.

Later you were permitted access to more and more of these, but it was still controlled access, because the resource could be taken away at any time.

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / I just
« on: February 06, 2005, 12:22:00 PM »
It is if I want it to be. I'm listening to High Five right now. I got a new Beck cd last night. I will tell you about it after i rip it.

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Crank...blown synapsis
« on: February 06, 2005, 12:08:00 PM »
Funny, troll. So if I'm wrong, say what AARC you are talking about.

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Reasons for being restrained
« on: February 06, 2005, 11:40:00 AM »
Please post them.

In my case, I was started over, then refused to participate. When the girls on either side grabbed my arms to make me motivate, I did what a normal person would, I tried to get free. In this struggle I started talking out loud, not allowed whatsoever in a rap. So to control me they took me to the back of group. Five-point restraint. For trying to get them off me, I got five-point restraint. Hunt them down.

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / I just
« on: February 06, 2005, 11:14:00 AM »
Beck really is extremely talented.

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