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The Seed Discussion Forum / F---ed
« on: April 19, 2006, 12:31:00 PM »
Well I certainly have gotten a whole lot out of the forum, Greg, so, as always, thank you.
Thank you Greg and Walter for your thoughtful responses to my last post. It's interesting to me that the other post that came--the one by the person who "benefitted" from both Catholic School and The Seed--was anonymous. What's up with all these anonymous Seed cheerleaders? So strange.
In fact, one of the most unexpected things about this whole forum is the presence of people still loyal to The Seed, still saying that they are straight and The Seed saved them. (In the beginning of the forum, everyone was angry about The Seed, isn't that right, Greg?) There were only two Seedlings that I knew who did not, as far as I know, start using drugs again within a year or two. The vast majority of former Seedlings were using drugs again, but acting as if The Seed had been no big deal.
Greg, I can't imagine how gross it would feel that your father should get involved with Straight after the damage you sustained in The Seed. That's cool that you went to UF though. I bet we were there at the same time. I arrived in fall '76 and stayed through the fall '78 quarter and then moved to CA.
I can also relate to feeling overwhelmed when I first heard about Straight. Shortly after moving to CA I became very active in anti-nuclear political activism and met a lot of lovely people and I thought to myself, Well, this is all so much more important than the Seed anyway. Then, in 1986, I was on the cross-county Great Peace March for Global Nuclear Disarmament and I was reading the novel, "A Scanner Darkly" by Philip K Dick, which had a fascist futuristic drug rehab in it. Another young man on the march saw me with the book, and he said, "Wow, you're reading that book? It's poignant as shit, man."
I said, "Well, I like it. I don't know if I'd call it poignant. But this drug rehab reminds me of an experience I myself had long ago . . ." and I told him about The Seed and his jaw dropped. He knew all about The Seed. He himself had been through Straight, and he was very very damaged. He told me all about Straight, how it had "blossomed" from The Seed, and about "motivating" and all the bizarre shit that went on, and how Straight was very very big right then. And I felt sick inside because I realized that the whole phenomenon was too much for me to face, even though I felt a responsibility to do something. Just the thought of trying to do anything filled me with such dread, I knew I couldn't be the one to start a survivors' movement against Straight/Seed or anything like that. I wanted somebody else to do it. And I guess, eventually, people like Ginger and Greg and Richard Bradbury and Maia Szalavitz did, albeit MUCH later than I could have imagined.
Thank you Greg and Walter for your thoughtful responses to my last post. It's interesting to me that the other post that came--the one by the person who "benefitted" from both Catholic School and The Seed--was anonymous. What's up with all these anonymous Seed cheerleaders? So strange.
In fact, one of the most unexpected things about this whole forum is the presence of people still loyal to The Seed, still saying that they are straight and The Seed saved them. (In the beginning of the forum, everyone was angry about The Seed, isn't that right, Greg?) There were only two Seedlings that I knew who did not, as far as I know, start using drugs again within a year or two. The vast majority of former Seedlings were using drugs again, but acting as if The Seed had been no big deal.
Greg, I can't imagine how gross it would feel that your father should get involved with Straight after the damage you sustained in The Seed. That's cool that you went to UF though. I bet we were there at the same time. I arrived in fall '76 and stayed through the fall '78 quarter and then moved to CA.
I can also relate to feeling overwhelmed when I first heard about Straight. Shortly after moving to CA I became very active in anti-nuclear political activism and met a lot of lovely people and I thought to myself, Well, this is all so much more important than the Seed anyway. Then, in 1986, I was on the cross-county Great Peace March for Global Nuclear Disarmament and I was reading the novel, "A Scanner Darkly" by Philip K Dick, which had a fascist futuristic drug rehab in it. Another young man on the march saw me with the book, and he said, "Wow, you're reading that book? It's poignant as shit, man."
I said, "Well, I like it. I don't know if I'd call it poignant. But this drug rehab reminds me of an experience I myself had long ago . . ." and I told him about The Seed and his jaw dropped. He knew all about The Seed. He himself had been through Straight, and he was very very damaged. He told me all about Straight, how it had "blossomed" from The Seed, and about "motivating" and all the bizarre shit that went on, and how Straight was very very big right then. And I felt sick inside because I realized that the whole phenomenon was too much for me to face, even though I felt a responsibility to do something. Just the thought of trying to do anything filled me with such dread, I knew I couldn't be the one to start a survivors' movement against Straight/Seed or anything like that. I wanted somebody else to do it. And I guess, eventually, people like Ginger and Greg and Richard Bradbury and Maia Szalavitz did, albeit MUCH later than I could have imagined.