Anon,
I feel your pain, literally.
Please seek a therapist that deals with "deprogramming" or EMDR therapy ...this therapy has been known to significantly reduce the amount of post traumatic stress disorder. It can help to give ones life back. The beauty of EMDR is that the patient is fully awake , unlike hypnosis. Has anyone else on this board ever experienced this treatment for PTSD before? If so, let me know what you think about it.
Anon, hang in there it will also get better over time......also, yes all of the things that ye thought were messed up "in there" most definitely were!
-D.P...
p.s.- There are also online petitions that ye can sign to try and stop this kind of thing from happening to anybody else. Another note, the 22 year lifer has a problem and it is known as being super brainwashed , and that is sad.
Nearly all men can stand adversity, but if you want to test a man's character, give him power.
--Abraham Lincoln (1809-1865)