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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Dealing with Straight consequences, also where are Orlando s
« on: May 04, 2002, 12:26:00 AM »
I am pissed off about the education bit too. I was in there for 13mons and then discharged to a psych. ward. in RI. Not only did they fuck up my education they branded me insane. I am just now starting to get a little less bitter. Finding these websites is what has helped me. I could not even explain to my friends what is was like in there. I am from NY and the Straight I was in was 4 1/2 hours away from my home. No one could understand where I had been or what it was like in there. I nightmare. I also hate authority, a problem my parents seem to think is my own problem but I think it is related to Straight. Of course I am not going to trust anyone I was tortured by a place that was legal! I do not have respect for the government and am not a flag waver, I love this country for one reason and that is because it is where my son is and I want to keep him safe and that means the US has to stay safe other than that no trust at all. I got my GED also but I have never really found my niche, I went to community college and have 7 more classes for a human services degree but I still have no idea what to do. I cannot work in a rehab I don't believe in them. I cannot work for the government to them I am a nut. Certified thanks to Straight, I don't know maybe I am not over this bitterness at all. Whatever I just feel where you are coming from. .........kady Boston 89-91

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / anybody remember Sunday?
« on: May 04, 2002, 12:15:00 AM »
We never had to write any reports Thank God and we had Sundays off. We got to watch a PG movie and I almost always I had to sit with my back to the TV because I was a misb. So I would sit there and listen to the movie so my oldcomer could be aware of me but I could not see the movie. I really could not have gave a shit at that point. The worst was eating, I would be soooo hungry and they would try and make me ask 50 times to pick up a fork, I would not do it fuck them! So I was starving half the time and still managed to gain weight (go figure) As for admiting up to shit I did not do I made up the longest list of bullshit when I finally decided I was not getting out unless I played the game. My list was so full of stuff complete with girl girl relationships and the whole nine. I made it to third phase though eventually. Remeber how we had to talk about something in the past and express emotions ect.. I deserve an Emmy for writing and starring in some of the weirdest stories about my life that never happened. I would keep my eyes wide open to burn the tears out of them. Still sometimes my shit didn't fly and they would confront me for not being real. I wish I had the balls to tell them I had made it all up. I was 14 I had like no stories to tell the group. What did they want from me? Now I could go back and cry my ass off about Straight that brings emotion. Oh by the way I was in Boston Straight 89-91 I guess we were the Virginia split off or something. They can all kiss my ass! take care all, kady

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / any good days that you can recall?
« on: May 03, 2002, 11:57:00 PM »
Rocking out!!! Holy shit I haven't thought about that phrase in a long time. I used to love to sing Sanitarium (sp?) in group when I was misbehaving and One and a couple other good Metallica songs that totally should of been the theme songs for Straight! :grin:

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Elan School / HumanEducationAgainstLies...HEAL
« on: May 03, 2002, 04:01:00 PM »
i feel you anon that is the "pat" excuse my family used for years and at 27 i still have resentments as a parent now i am going to do more then my best for my son!

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Remember when people would just disappear???
« on: May 03, 2002, 03:57:00 PM »
God I used to feel guilty when a cop out would return and I would feel happy to see them. Being ab misbehavior for almost my entire program I bonded with a lot of guys/girls I would have never talked to if I "worked my program". I would see them be reintroduced in the back of group and be so torn between feeling bad that they were back and caught and being so glad to see their faces again. There are so many people I miss from that place. There are like no Boston people on this site, well hey Sully&Scott I didn'y mean you all did not count. Take care!
kady,Boston 89-91

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / anybody remember Sunday?
« on: May 02, 2002, 02:08:00 AM »
Nintendo???? Are you serious?????? When and where were you? I have never been into video games but I would have played with a piece of string in that place. I am not even sure if Nintendo was around when I was in. Was Nintendo around in 89? I had an apple 2C remember them? :grin:

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Rapping/Gaming
« on: May 01, 2002, 11:00:00 AM »
I love the dead and floyd. When it comes to real moving songs I love Tangerine that song can make me cry still. Also Dream on even though I am not an Arosmith (can't even spell the name) fan. I don't listen to rap on my own but my friends all love it and I have found a lot of the songs to be really intense. When the emotion and feelings are real it totally invades the song and you can feel it. A lot of rap has that quality and draws me in. Tangerine though, so great, and Scarlet Begonias makes me want to dance!! Ginger....Penn. you are getting close to me! Welcome to the neighborhood. Seen any Amish??
I swear if they weren't so damn opressive I would be amish (sp??) I want to drive a horse and buggy and commune with the earth. Take care you guys

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Bingo
« on: March 31, 2002, 02:02:00 AM »
I feel really sad and weird now after watching that Bingo thing. The Jean Sanders story was depressing but I still felt like my angry hurt cynical self...but the bingo shit just fucked me up. Who put that on there by the way? Maybe I am just getting moody or PMS or tired but it almost made me cry. Very twisty sick stomach feeling, :sad:

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / My friend is home
« on: March 31, 2002, 01:42:00 AM »
lol :grin:

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / My friend is home
« on: March 29, 2002, 10:48:00 PM »
Thats right lady J. oops gotta check those brownies I was bakin ya.....just kidding bad sense of humor. :sad:

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / My friend is home
« on: March 29, 2002, 02:24:00 PM »
D

[ This Message was edited by: kaydeejaded on 2004-03-03 08:26 ]

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / ghost town
« on: March 20, 2002, 02:52:00 PM »
This place has not been to active. I think it is because we are all on the alum one now also. This is actually better though because there are no stupid ads popping up in your face every 5 sec. I think that yahoo shut the site down just to cram in more ads. Gimmie a break. We are on this website to recover from this capitialistic bullshit ok??? ........kd :grin:

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / any good days that you can recall?
« on: March 15, 2002, 02:59:00 PM »
Milady you say the things I thought but would not. LOL :grin:

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / test
« on: March 13, 2002, 04:06:00 AM »
Did I pass?????? :grin:

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Christmas at Straight Inc.
« on: March 10, 2002, 10:09:00 AM »
Christmas was really depressing (give in) in Boston we sang Christmas songs for hours and got one present. I was on 1st phase both times Christmas rolled around. It just sucked. That is all I can remember, singing and one present, that was (of course) clothing. I got a pair of jeans that did not fit because I had gained so much weight from the last time my parents saw me the 1st year the second I don't think I cared enough to remember. I hate Christmas Carols not sure if it is Straight related or not.

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