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Open Free for All / Re: And Now A Subliminal Message from The Program
« on: September 27, 2014, 03:02:16 PM »
Thanks  :-* Did you understand it? I mean is there stuff into the mix that doesn't make sense in the context? If so, I need to either compress (prolly a bit, I usually do) and/or better illustrate the connection. Anything that just plain doesn't make sense at all? Any other suggestions?

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Open Free for All / Re: And Now A Subliminal Message from The Program
« on: September 27, 2014, 10:09:59 AM »
Updated. Reviews, questions, suggestions, please?

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Open Free for All / Re: What woke you up?
« on: September 27, 2014, 09:35:27 AM »
Hmm. Is there a way to ask what woke you up without sounding like we already dun did? Nope. I don't think that there is. I get the meta-double-bind thing too. And thanks for softening the blow and making it all go down so smoothly with that whimsical bread truck imagery.

Yeah, most of us have talked about various levels of meltdown in the process and I sure don't want to think about armed and authorized officers melting down enmass. It's like the wolf has got us by the foot and we want to shake him off but we fear to do so cause he'll go for the throat.

What say ye, anthropologist Pirate? Can you think of instances in human history when an authoritarian police state has been mellowed out without a lot of nastiness? What causes realization?

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Open Free for All / What woke you up?
« on: September 25, 2014, 11:47:43 PM »
I liked it better when the world was more or less ok and only I was a little paranoid. But now I'm grown and have to come to equitable terms with reality. I wasn't trippin' when I first started fearing cops because they reminded me of staff. They are staff. And staff who have woken up are among our best allies in this "war" to end the War. So... what are your best insights as to how to wake them up now? What woke you up? What woke me up?

Shit. I woke up several times that I can remember. Once when I was about 9, again a year or two later, harshly, rudely awoken the moment I realized what I had taken part in doing to Bobby R. What can we say and do to wake them up?

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I guess I forgot the original video that made me say "Marry my daughter, Kai!" Here it is

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ckfBGdZoR_0

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Open Free for All / Re: And Now A Subliminal Message from The Program
« on: September 25, 2014, 01:23:08 PM »
We will murder whomever we please without provocation or warning. Go ahead, say something!

https://plus.google.com/117303045388933921465/posts/E976cBDu4hR

Please let me know if the above linked article makes any sense at all? I seriously need some feedback right now.

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A fellow former POW is in need of help. Please repost this all over the planet.

Turns out, Kai (Caleb Lawrence McGillvary) is a fellow program vet.: Edmonton’s Bosco group home for children with behavioural problems.
http://www.oacas.org/news/09/sept/13bosco.pdf
http://www.boscohomes.ca/aboutus/leadshipteam.aspx
Any familiar names?

He's now held on $3M bond in the Union County, NJ Jail charged with the murder of a wealthy attorney who allegedly drugged and raped him. And, evidently, he's gone suicidal
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2368934/Kai-hatchet-wielding-hitchhiker-beat-lawyer-death-rushed-hospital-self-inflicted-wounds-suicide-attempt-jail.html

Here's where you can write to him
http://www.jailexchange.com/CountyJails/New-Jersey/Union/Union-County-Jail-Inmate-Mail.aspx
Offender Name: CALEB MCGILLVARY
Offender ID:2000292568
Date of Birth:09/03/1988
Age: 25

How Canadian YouTube sensation ‘Kai the Hatchet Wielding Hitchhiker’ went from hero to inmate
news.nationalpost.com
Today, the Edmonton-born young man is in a Pennsylvania prison, accused of murder in the beating death of a prominent New Jersey lawyer three times his age

http://news.nationalpost.com/2013/05/23/kai-the-hatchet-wielding-hitchhiker-went-from-hero-to-inmate/

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Web forum hosting / Bill's paid, we're back.
« on: June 19, 2012, 12:39:48 PM »
Bill's paid, we're back.

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Quote from: "seamus"
It often strikes me a odd, how we percieve time. Sometimes it nearly seems to stand still, other times str8 seems a liftime ago,sometime it seems like I never left at all.  All I can think of is the dull empty feeling of sitting in group, day after fucking day, listening to some jackass blather on endlessly about some foolishness or another.And allthe bullshit about "feelings" feel this, felt that> maybe it was meant to accentuate our misery,some kind of twisted fucked up shit that "Gift" of awareness is.....ah yes to be oh so aware of my pain.....thank you so much.
And the fucked up way the term DESERVE, got bandied about ......how I didnt deserve a family or to be loved or whatever the bullshit du-jour was.
  I cannot possibly calculate the amount of dope Ive put into myself post str8, nor the drink. I have literally had loaded gun to my head at times just from the fucking memory of it all. I do not for one second believe I will ever have peace,and Id have to be fucking downright delusional to think any measure of justice will ever come my way. It just never goes away. I cant believe in anything, I only see lies. I can only love what is sure to break my heart. This life fucking sucks. I tried to sit in church till the whole " Faith, hope and love thing came up" I left nearly beside myself because I am bankrupt on all three counts.
                                 Sometimes life is like falling down a hill made of razorblades.Fuck me.

Hey, I love you, Seamey. And I'm sure I'm not the only one. Hang tough, please.
 :hug:   :-*

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Thank you.

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Open Free for All / Re: ugly cunt whore bitch of a wife is dangling
« on: May 03, 2012, 05:34:17 PM »
What the hell for? I've asked several times. Not my day to watch ya', brother.

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« on: May 03, 2012, 05:32:21 PM »
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I remember it and when they made a rule against it. Maybe mid `82 or so, Sarasota.

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The Seed Discussion Forum / Re: Is It Just Me?
« on: May 02, 2012, 06:05:27 PM »
Of course you know I'm jacking this, right?

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The Seed Discussion Forum / Re: Ginger McNulty
« on: April 25, 2012, 07:49:23 PM »
you realize, of course, that you're one of, if not the most active user right now. Project much?

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