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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Nobody can read my thoughts
« on: May 13, 2005, 11:15:00 PM »
i am telling myself this. this might sound strange, but how many people all over the world think that God or the like can read their thoughts, so they have to censor them? in my case, i am afraid that other people, and sometimes a God i fear but do not worship, can read my thoughts, so i have thought that i have to fix them. but i don't, because no one can read them!  yes! i am no longer psychotic!  :wink:  :em:

God was the devil, Jesus Christ was trying save God, more than us. not that he didn't have anything he wanted to teach us. he did, and it is about a different kind of society. all that other hoopla, rising from the dead, etc.: cheap tricks by God to make it look like Jesus was a charlatan just like him.

i speak of these things as myths. you will rarely see me in church or reading the damn bible. it's a freakin horror movie, god fucking people around like that! the people worshipped a vengeful and punitive God, and that's what they got.

that's weird, i have no idea why i just typed all that. [ This Message was edited by: fka on 2005-05-13 20:15 ]

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i think that's the right word. if not, i will edit. but i feel like i learned how to cut people off. after all, that is what i did to my friends. i went without music and whatever else, i think it was on first phase that i looked in the mirror and decided that it was mine to suffer. my place or my role or whatever. then also, this might not even be asceticism, but i swear i have been  so self-conscious that i hold my face in non-expression... not so much these days because i feel more what that feels like & consciously try to relax. not saying this governs my waking hours, but it is something that i notice when in public if i am feeling vulnerable.

and i know the rages started after Straight. i got in fights with my parents before Straight, but otherwise i don't think i was too impatient, you the kind of irrelevant rage at traffic and such.

anyways, i was just sitting here reading a cookbook, and i am thinking how like i don't even know what i want to eat sometimes, i hardly ever take the time to cook anything good. is that stupid? i guess it is all this depression or whatever. like i been living a certain miserable rageful, pent up way for a really really long time and i am not going back into that.

also just the feeling of freedom, liking what i like, this has spent long time being suppressed, and that was not just Straight, but maybe Straight broke my spirit so i was afraid to be.  especially with my parents, who put me there.

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Oliver Twist
« on: May 13, 2005, 12:54:00 AM »
now i bet that's a good story.

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Copyright 1998 The New York Law Publishing Company  
The National Law Journal

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November 23, 1998, Monday

SECTION: WINNING; Successful Strategies From 10 of the Nation's Top Trial Lawyers; Pg. B15

LENGTH: 1518 words

HEADLINE: She Uses Her Cases To Improve Society

BYLINE: Dianne Jay Weaver

BODY:
ATTORNEY: Dianne Jay Weaver, 54

FIRM: Fort Lauderdale, Fla.'s Krupnick Campbell Malone Roselli Buser Slama & Hancock

CASE: Wynn v. Towey, 94-011434 (18) (Cir. Ct., Broward Co., Fla.)

THE TREATMENT Aaron Wynn received while in custody of the Florida Department of Health & Rehabilitation Services reads like something out of the annals of an insane asylum in the 19th century. In 1985, Mr. Wynn, then 18 years old, sustained a head injury in a motorcycle accident that left him with symptoms akin to those of schizophrenia, says his attorney, Dianne Jay Weaver. In April 1988, he was arrested after hitting a policeman and was committed to the South Florida Evaluation and Treatment Center for evaluation. "The committing diagnosis said he had a possible brain injury, but this was ignored," Ms. Weaver contends.

Mr. Wynn spent more than two of the next 3 1/2 years in seclusion and restraints, medicated with drugs contraindicated for a brain injury. "They would leave him for hours or days tied spread-eagled on the bed," she says. "They would let him urinate or defecate on himself." When he was eventually transferred to the medical ward of the facility, she says, "he couldn't walk anymore because he had been tied down so much." As he recovered, she says, he was still restrained, but in a wheelchair. "They let him out for 45 minutes each day to walk in an exercise room. Then they would bring him back and tie him down."

After his release, in November 1991, he returned home, she says, "extremely withdrawn, paranoid and disoriented." In July 1993, he became "spooked while purchasing bologna in a grocery store and ran out the door. He knocked an elderly woman, and she hit her head and died." Mr. Wynn was arrested and charged with manslaughter.

He was committed to another state forensic hospital and "put in isolation, in a 6-by-10-foot room with no furniture and no windows." More than a year later, he was placed in a private facility under court order, she reports. The manslaughter charge was eventually dropped.

Mr. Wynn's criminal defense attorney, Howard Finkelson, contacted Ms. Weaver, long considered one of the nation's most prominent female trial lawyers. Ms. Weaver represents plaintiffs in products liability, medical malpractice, general personal injury and fraud, but she specializes in litigation with a public-interest component.

In the 1980s, she won a $ 5.1 million punitives award, the nation's largest consumer fraud verdict to that date, in a class action against a Florida-based auto dealership. For this case, she was featured in The National Law Journal's 1988 "Winning" section.

Also in the 1980s, as plaintiffs' counsel for women whose mothers had taken the drug diethylstilbistrol, she persuaded the Florida Supreme Court to accept the notion of market share in the litigation. Overall, she has won about 15 verdicts of $ 1 million or more, plus numerous settlements.

Mr. Wynn's family wanted to sue the Florida Department of Health and Rehabilitation Services, but there were several major obstacles, she says. In Florida, she says, "if you sue a sovereign for mere negligence, there's a cap on recovery of $ 100,000 -- $ 100,000 won't take care of this man for six months."

It is possible to get the cap lifted, she says, "but we would have to go to the state Legislature with a claims bill." This would have taken years, or even decades. On a previous occasion when she had won $ 8 million for a baby who sustained massive brain damage at a public hospital, "it took 11 years before the Legislature finally passed the bill. She got substantially less."
 
A Way Around the Cap

Ms. Weaver decided to try the case as a civil rights action, for which there is no cap. "The failure to provide proper medical care was a violation of his civil rights," she says. The decision brought new hurdles, in the form of a higher standard of proof. "I had to prove deliberate indifference to medical needs and substantial departure from any sound medical judgment."

To try a case using an unusual theory, she says, "you have to know the law. . ..They will come back claiming that this was the best they could do, so you have to know what the standards are."

The plaintiffs sued 17 people, including those who directed the facility, the medical director who developed Mr. Wynn's treatment plan, his physicians, his social workers and his psychologists at each facility. They sued individuals, but the state would be on the hook for any judgment. To make her case, Ms. Weaver researched the standards for each category of worker.

Ms. Weaver sifted through 27,000 pages of documents on Mr. Wynn's treatment in the Florida facilities. Before she had been brought in for the civil action, a brain injury expert, Dr. Antoinette Appel, had gone through the records for the criminal case. Ms. Weaver's team "went through these records many more times with her, to determine what each defendant did and to determine the relationship between his behavior and the drugs. We also had two full-time nurses and two other lawyers going through these with us, looking for deliberate indifference and departures from the standards."

The material was so extensive, she says, that it turned up another problem: "How can we cull this and put the information on to be absorbed by six people?"

Ms. Weaver and her associates developed a series of demonstrative charts, color-coded to indicate the days (and months) that Mr. Wynn spent in various forms of restraint, "so you could see immediately how many hours and what type of restraints were used," says Ms. Weaver.

She also produced charts on the rules on restraints from the American Psychiatric Association Task Force, the Joint Commission on Accreditation of Hospitals and Florida hospital regulations, and how the restraints had violated these procedures.

Ms. Weaver is a great believer in using visual demonstratives: "It's one thing to tell the jury that he was in restraints for 75 percent of the time in 1988. But if they see a chart with a world of yellow and just a patch of white, it gives the jurors a better ability to internalize what they're being told." She used the charts extensively in her opening statement.

She began by telling the jury that "the defendants sought to break Aaron Wynn because he was not compliant. He was put in restraints more than any other individual -- ever. As a result of his being tied down, he had lost his mind. He had a brain injury and could have been rehabilitated. He could have had a life. But now he will always be in institutions."

She stressed not just the liability of the defendants, but also the jury's responsibility for changing Mr. Wynn's life. "I told them that the choice they had to make was whether he will be allowed to stay in the institution, where he is treated like a human being, or he will be sent back to a state institution to be treated like an animal."

She called Dr. Appel, both to testify about seeing Mr. Wynn in custody of the state and to teach the jury. Dr. Appel explained the anatomy of the brain, using charts that were color-coded by parts, by function and by the parts most affected by given drugs. She explained that because Mr. Wynn had been misdiagnosed as a schizophrenic, the drugs administered at the state facilities made him worse rather than better.

Seemingly, this testimony was neutral, but in fact it would prove devastating for the defense, Ms. Weaver believes. At a later point, when she asked the defendants about the effects of certain drugs on temporal lobe syndrome, "the witnesses didn't know the answer, but by then the jury did."

She called each of the defendants as witnesses in her case. "To a person, they all denied responsibility," she says. With each, the cross was relatively brief, centered on proving indifference and departure from standards. With Mr. Wynn's actual caretakers, she was able to score a number of memorable points. When, for example, she asked one of the state's treating physicians what would happen to Mr. Wynn if he was returned to the state facility, he said Mr. Wynn would be tied down again.

One of the doctors, she recalls, brought a notebook with him to the trial. She asked to see the notebook before he testified. In it, she says, was a handwritten note advising him "to give very long answers whenever I asked a question." So Ms. Weaver changed her method of questioning for this witness. "With him, I would ask a question and I would sit down, and he would keep talking. Then I would say, 'Do you remember the question?'" After doing this a few times, she says, "I read the handwritten note to the jury."

On April 3, a Fort Lauderdale, Fla., jury ordered 13 of the defendants to pay Mr. Wynn a total of $ 17.99 million. There was no appeal. The state settled for $ 17.75 million, paying the first $ 10.75 million installment Oct. 28.

****
 
Trial Tips

* Be creative to skirt caps.

* Know what you have to prove before taking depositions.

* Use demonstrative aids to explain extensive evidence.

* Keep cross short.

GRAPHIC: Photo, Photograph of Ms. Weaver. SUSAN GREENWOOD

LOAD-DATE: November 30, 1998

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / etc
« on: May 11, 2005, 02:57:00 AM »
okay that was me, running way low on weed. i am in a bad way. so you know it will not be easy for me to explain anything right now! having damn crying in the public library! but i had my sunglasses with me, so it's midnight in the library, sure i need sunglasses because of the glare from the computer screen. but problematic this week is the oh i stopped myself from self-injury. good for me. but it is disturbing to think of the things i think of. so give me some weed.

what i really started this thread for. to debunk once and for all the "get over it" myth. the thing is, i wouldn't trust myself! or my own perception of my own reasons for the things that are not right in my life! but I am telling you, i am hearing it from people here: it was painful then. it has been painful since then. it is very confusing trying to put one's history together! the role we played then, and what we see now, from the perspective of years! people hurt, they really really hurt, and you know, it would be absolutely cruel for anyone to say that is unreasonable. time does not heal all wounds. kindness heals wounds.

way back in 1997, a friend of mine held my hand when i was upset. i am so not good at that. but see, i remember it now.

we are trying to figure out what we learned in Straight, and all the before Straight and after Straight. it is very confusing! we know. no one can tell us we don't know. and that is what i need. that is why i like meeting people here.

there are people here who are suicidal. we can say all the damn things we want about whatever, but not one of us in our hearts wants another person on that list. so please, don't break my heart anymore than it is already broken.

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Does anyone have this information
« on: May 11, 2005, 12:46:00 AM »
When Straight was in operation in Florida, what was the "certifying" or "oversight" or whatever agency? Screw that, just tell me what agencies were involved, or were not involved when they should have been. Thanks. I'm sure I could find it on my own but I thought someone might have the information handy.

Florida Florida Florida. Give me whatever you have on Florida please. Thanks.

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from Smoke and Mirrors by Dan Baum
(pages 20-21)

Fear and anger, Gordon Brownell thought. That?s what got Richard Nixon elected and that?s what will keep him in office.

A smooth-faced, heavy-set politics junkie of twenty-four, Brownell had a dream job: administrative assistant to Nixon?s political manager, Harry S. Dent. Dent had masterminded the so-called ?southern strategy? that pried white southerners away from the Democratic Party during the last election by playing to their fear of black power and their anger at the civil rights movement. It had transformed the GOP?s image from country club golfer to defender of working whites fed up with expensive hand-wringing over Negroes and the cities. The strategy worked, but was poorly named. Nixon?s win was national, and its most visible new adherents were manifestly northern ? union-affiliated former Democrats known loosely as ?hardhats.?

The White House lived by the principles or the southern strategy, and Dent?s office had its own lingo. There were issues that mattered to ?our? people, and those that mattered to ?their? people. ?Their? people were what the White House called ?the young, the poor, and the black.? The phrase rolled off the tongue like one word: theyoungthepoorandtheblack. The young were the long-haired student antiwar types for whom the president had open and legendary contempt; the poor and the black were leftover concerns from the Great Society.

Brownell daily read a dozen newspapers from around the country and clipped stories that played on those themes. He looked for stories about badly managed social programs, watched for currents of localized resentment, combed the columns for colorful quotes and juicy anecdotes the presidential speechwriters might use. He particularly kept and eye out for drug stories. Drugs were one thing the young, the poor, and the black all seemed to have in common.

Despite Nixon?s assertion to the preelection Disneyland crowd that drugs were ?decimating a generation of Americans,? drugs were so tiny a public health problem that they were statistically insignificant: far more Americans choked to death on food or died falling down stairs as died from illegal drugs.

So Brownell was delighted that the media were inflating the story by melding the tiny ?hard drug? heroin threat with the widespread ?soft drug? marijuana craze. Marijuana, Brownell knew, was a perfect focus for the anger against the antiwar counterculture that Nixon shared with ?his people.? Brownell dug out a recent clip from Newsweek: ?Whether picketing on campus or parading barefoot in hippie regalia, the younger generation seems to be telling [the middle-class American] that his way of life is corrupt, his goals worthless and his treasured  institutions doomed. Logically enough, a good many middle-class citizens tend to resent the message.? In an article Brownell might have penned himself, Newsweek identified the targets of that middle-class resentment this way: ?The incendiary black militant and the welfare mother, the hedonistic hippie and the campus revolutionary.? The young, the poor, and the black. Nixon couldn?t make it illegal to be young, poor, or black, but he could crack down hard on the illegal drug identified with the counterculture.

Brownell loved his job and ? until he went wildly apostate and joined the opposition ? he was good at it.

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On 2005-04-26 00:56:00, fka wrote:

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On 2005-04-24 10:07:00, Anonymous wrote:


"Man, if only I could smack the shit out of someone over a computer.  When will THAT pc modification be available?  





What is your "cause" Piet?  What are YOU doing for me and for KIDS still being abused today, you warrior of wonder you?  Researching litigious documents in a library and posting them here between learning to roll joints, kissing the donkey you live next door to, and visiting shrinks that see through your attention craving bullshit?  You say you have been "referring" people to ISACCORP.ORG?  Are you in the assesment/referral industry? Or when you "refer" do you mean that you are telling your shrinks to go check out some website to try to gain insight into your warped busybody Beck loving STRAIGHT raped mind?





Social interaction in a web based forum with people that share a one time similiar experience in a drug rehab does not substantiate a "cause" nor a movement to do anything else aside from post to each other about the value of TBPITW.  Saying that you have a "cause" infers your personal activism against abusive rehabilitation facilities.  Your activism is seemingly limited to part time trips to the library and researching something that is of interest to you.  Ah, what a trooper for "the cause" you are my friend.  Thanks for you hard work and dollars spent for "the cause".  Though you are getting there, 'lil grasshopper, you have not yet done enough to be critical of others that have been a bug in STRAIGHTS ass for years and has spent much effort, time, and money doing so.  Saying that Wes's site is "disgusting" and "discredits our cause" is the dumbest thing you have said since proclaiming that everyone here on fornits are total assholes.  Remember that post?  I do. "




my mom told me about boys who like to pull my pigtails. you love me. admit it. well i love you. i think you are so cute. and so right! sorry, it's true, i can be very opinionated and annoying. not to mention a know-it-all! sorry you have to put up with me.   ::kiss:: "


hi, i wanted to get your attention.

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Jane/JMA, check your pm's
« on: April 19, 2005, 05:51:00 PM »
hiya i just sent you one

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / The Front Lines in the War
« on: April 18, 2005, 03:47:00 PM »
Stay Tuned: you will be updating this list. To be added: AARC address and contact info. Also, certifying/licensing agencies (the bureaucrats that sign off so the POW camps can stay in operation), the owners of these POW camps, other state agencies that are responsile, ought to be responsible, or likely have information on what is going on in the POW camps, for example, the police. Plus, information on staff, Boards of Directors and so on. If anyone has this info, or wants to find it and post it that would help.



These are the Straight spawn and they are still open:

Kids Helping Kids
http://kidshelpingkids.com/

Admissions
Tracy Wheatley
[email protected]
513-575-7300 x26

Kids Helping Kids
P.O. Box 42398
Cincinnati, OH 45242
http://www.kidshelpingkids.com


S.A.F.E. ,Inc .
4563 South Orange Blossom Trail, Orlando ,Florida 32839-1752
(407) 422-7233
[http://www.orlandoweekly.com/news/story.asp?ID=3796]

Growing Together
http://www.growingtogether.com/
561-585-0892
(Lake Worth, Florida)


Pathway Family Center
[http://www.mhweb.org/oakland/pathway.htm]
Call 248-443-0105          or 248-527-1965 (after hours pager) for admission  information.

[ This Message was edited by: fka on 2005-05-22 20:16 ]

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Somebody knew, I'm telling you. They knew exactly what they were doing to us and they knew it came from the POW camps, and they knew that The Seed was closed down for it.

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / what they did to me
« on: April 17, 2005, 09:56:00 AM »
i was out of Straight at the end of August. they had warped my whole self. i sat on the couch with my mother and held her hand. i read childhood books again. i was on ice, as my mother would have put me back in Straight if I had gotten out of line. i went to AA meetings to show her that i was going to be good. i was out of Straight due to the good fortune of not being treated for an obvious medical problem for a week at Straight, followed by high fever and iv drips at Fairfax Hospital for a kidney infection. my mom let me come home after that. maybe she had seen enough of me in the hospital to know that i was toeing the line. in fact, the brainwashing had taken hold well and good. i would not associate with former friends, i went to AA and NA meetings -- i was quite invested with my strict new outlook on people. my first boyfriend saw me at some point within the first few years after Straight, and he described that recently: i was a zombie. i looked like the person he knew, but there was someone else in her body. he said when talking to me back then, it was as though i had a checklist or an application to go through with him before i would talk to him, like if he was drinking or "using".

i had many problems with anxiety after getting out. i was worried a lot about getting in a car wreck, or having some deadly medical thing, also checking locks and that kind of anxiety.

it took me five years of being "clean and sober" before i finally drank alcohol again. it turned out that i did not drink like an alcoholic. i could drink half a beer and not want more, then go months or years before having another drink.

my deepest sadness in my life is that i could not resist the brainwashing. i have felt for a long time that i am a failure because of this. it is a horrible thing to know about yourself. maybe i feel this especially because of what i believed in before Straight. my personal code, so to speak, was all about self-direction, and no respect for authority based solely on fact of rank. this was the material 80s, and i wore whatever crap I felt like to school. once the subschool principal was calling me back and i said "bye" and walked on. i drew sandals on my feet so i didn't have to wear shoes (hoping from a distance they looked like the real thing). :smile:

then i went in Straight.

these days i still feel a vulnerability of mind. it was a professor of mine that took away the definition of brainwashing. he wanted to call it "radical resocialization", or, instead of "cult", call it a "new religious movement". well, really, he didn't want me to approach my historical anthropological exploration of Straight with any preconceived ideas, so that would throw his words out as well. so what do we think brainwashing is? explaining it is a bit like trying to convince someone that magic is possible. i think it is like i was saying to Jane the other day -- and forgive me, i don't know if that post was rude or not but i didn't mean it to be -- Real Jane was not allowed to speak, so she went away. it has been one mystery of the last eighteen years where the real me went, or, did she die. all the dirt Straight washed out of my brain, that was my memories, and included in the memories are my connections to my self, my brothers and sisters from that age, all the things that made me happy. happy! roller skating, and the bumps the cracks in the sidewalk made. swinging so high you get that moment of slack in the chains. bicycling around and around the grass island in the neighborhood parking lot. banana seat bicycles! flags on the back post, plastic woven baskets. mine was pink. i want my dirt back.

Straight filled up my mind with a whole lot of thoughts that were just reactions to anxiety related to the underlying question of what i could think and how to think it in my head so i did not get in trouble later. for example, say i thought of copping out by going through the screen door and climbing off the deck, then i would realize i thought that, then i would add thoughts to it, like how scared i was that i was going to find my druggie friends and get high, then that "good" thought is on the end of the copping-out thought, all ready to tell in just that way so i would be found innocent. this was my mind. those were bad years.

i don't know why the memories are hard to get. maybe Straight terrorized me so much that my brain was trained to stay out of the memory circuits.

some training in my brain messed up other things, too. i was an A student in English the year before Straight, when i went to class anyway. my professor thought my papers were outstanding. then after Straight i came back, i guess i got an A anyway, but she and i both knew something was not the same about the way i wrote. i was trained by Straight to write from the lying patterns they laid down in my thought circuits.

so it was not just training me to believe i was a diseased drug addict and alcoholic (utterly absurd given my drug and alcohol use), Straight was zapping my mind and emotions so much, it was messing with even deeper circuits dealing with creativity, purpose, happiness, connection to people and history, the ability to remember, the line connecting me from the very beginning, through all the childhood and teenage years, to my present self. my history, as contained in my memories, which gave me my self-conception, the true one that came from my own life, had been destroyed. the line was destroyed, the line of self knowing self. i became self unknowing self.

don't know if this makes sense, don't care. not everyone's reality is going to be the same. this is a decription of my reality.

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"Newton and his operation have been sued many times, and his carriers have paid out more than $5.8 million. He's been investigated criminally in Florida and New Jersey, but never prosecuted. But one by one, agencies have cut off the payment of claims, sometimes after exposes by the television shows "60 Minutes," "20/20" and "West 57th Street." -- from thestraights.com, i believe the denied claims referred to here were from Kids of NJ



could someone please explain why an insurance company would have reason to care if the claim they were paying came from a facility practicing child abuse. thank you.

(talking to myself...)
because that gave them good reason not to pay the claim. whenever possible, they don't pay the claim.

but say it was a sluggish government insurance agency, like Medicaid (am i wrong?), so they just didn't get around to caring one way or the other, and paid the claims... would that get them in any trouble?

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Went to dumb psych person
« on: April 14, 2005, 12:02:00 PM »
God was she dumb. She wanted to put "conditions" on me, in other words, I have to do something she says, or at least be "open" to it and discuss it with her, or she would not do therapy with me. This is after an hour of me telling her things that lead HER to believe I am so bad off I should quit what I am doing and go into day care.  :lol:  I mean a day program thing, I don't even know what she was talking about, but she said five days a week, and they teach you coping skills and you have a lot of group things where you "learn from other people" when they talk about their k-rap. That sounded retarded, why would I spend the day in a mental health place listening to emotionally wrecked people when I could just stay at home!  :lol:  But anyway, that is how bad off she thinks I am, THEN she mentions about the conditions. Hello? I don't need another mommy! And I am most certainly not interested in having conditions put upon me. She said I would have to "cooperate" and that she knew that "authority was ruined" for me but she said several times "trust me". Uh huh. Way to chase off a cult survivor! Like, will you be my mommy if I work my program?

Sincerely,
Your Straight Poster Child  :em:

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Hyde Schools / Bath, Maine, Child Abuse, Hyde School
« on: April 11, 2005, 09:38:00 PM »
Hi folks,

Maine is one of my favorite states. There are so many great people there who would be on your side if they only knew the truth about Hyde School. One of my favorite things to do is make the abusive schools and the criminals behind them google-able, hence the title of this thread.

Thank you for telling your stories here. Keep it up. I would also suggest bringing your stories to the attention of local media in Maine. Many Mainers are very politically savvy, it seems especially so with regards to education, home schooling, alternative schooling, that sort of thing. I wish you the best of luck. I may just have to swing through Bath the next time I am in the state and take a look at Hyde School. For my own unruly teenager.  :wink:

fka

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