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The Seed Discussion Forum / Conversion: the "Three Day Miracle"
« on: December 30, 2005, 04:41:00 PM »
I think I lived at cranbrook sometime in the 78-83 range (I think that is where we had been using a bar as a book shelf - rolled it down the steps when we were moving out) - I think Dave B and Jeff N lived there as well.
I think the 78-83 (my years there) era had less physical violence and more mental violence - it was obvious that everyone else had it going on and for you to question it showed how fucked up you were, and everyone ws there to support that.
The raps about the best staying, it was a priveledge, it was harder, etc. reinforced the notion that leaving was "bad" and because we love you we will show you the error of your ways.
The fact that many of us did not have cars was a limiting factor as well.
I remember when Wayne A got a car, I thought he was going to get started over.
I think the fact that no one ever came around and told anyone they were going and where and why made it seem all the worse - they just becaame an unperson.
A few people seemed to come and go but I always felt that suggesting that I wanted to do something else would result in my stuff on the curb and loss of residence.
In retrospect it was really pretty easy to hang around - once I got assigned house duty during the aforementioned football games (I got my alone time at Arts house - no guilt involved). Cliff picked out what was for dinner, I played chess with Seth many nights, I could play games (interact with the oppossite sex) at work (no other seed kids in my building).
I got to where I lived in fear of being started over - I would lose my job and would be under surveillience again.
I will quit rambling now
G-man
I think the 78-83 (my years there) era had less physical violence and more mental violence - it was obvious that everyone else had it going on and for you to question it showed how fucked up you were, and everyone ws there to support that.
The raps about the best staying, it was a priveledge, it was harder, etc. reinforced the notion that leaving was "bad" and because we love you we will show you the error of your ways.
The fact that many of us did not have cars was a limiting factor as well.
I remember when Wayne A got a car, I thought he was going to get started over.
I think the fact that no one ever came around and told anyone they were going and where and why made it seem all the worse - they just becaame an unperson.
A few people seemed to come and go but I always felt that suggesting that I wanted to do something else would result in my stuff on the curb and loss of residence.
In retrospect it was really pretty easy to hang around - once I got assigned house duty during the aforementioned football games (I got my alone time at Arts house - no guilt involved). Cliff picked out what was for dinner, I played chess with Seth many nights, I could play games (interact with the oppossite sex) at work (no other seed kids in my building).
I got to where I lived in fear of being started over - I would lose my job and would be under surveillience again.
I will quit rambling now
G-man