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Treatment Abuse, Behavior Modification, Thought Reform => Straight, Inc. and Derivatives => Topic started by: Gah on April 14, 2005, 01:02:00 AM

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Post by: Gah on April 14, 2005, 01:02:00 AM
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Post by: linchpin on April 14, 2005, 10:11:00 AM
I read your story, its heartbreaking
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Post by: 001010 on April 14, 2005, 10:21:00 AM
I'm still crying from reading it. You did such an amazing job of explaining the program. I can never recount my experience with out becoming tongue-tied and light headed - confused. I have voices of doubt that tell me I'm not telling the truth or, "It wasn't as bad as I describe." Yet here I sit, partly frozen like I could stare into nothing for hours on end, and partly still a child, crying and alone.

After all this time, I'm convinced these episodes will simply always be a part of me.

My mind will never be the same.
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Post by: ` on April 14, 2005, 12:14:00 PM
I agree, it is beautifully written, Shanna, and sad.

001010, I think I know what you mean about those voices of doubt. They used to haunt me a lot.

H.F., are you out there anywhere?
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Post by: Anonymous on April 14, 2005, 01:09:00 PM
Spell Check?
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Post by: Anonymous on April 14, 2005, 01:19:00 PM
Wtf do you mean spellcheck? Get the hell out of here.
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Post by: Antigen on April 14, 2005, 02:15:00 PM
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On 2005-04-14 10:09:00, Anonymous wrote:

"Spell Check?"


Still on staff, huh?

Necessity never made a good bargain
--Benjamin Franklin Apr. 1734

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Post by: 001010 on April 14, 2005, 02:28:00 PM
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On 2005-04-14 09:14:00, fka wrote:

"I agree, it is beautifully written, Shanna, and sad.



001010, I think I know what you mean about those voices of doubt. They used to haunt me a lot.



H.F., are you out there anywhere?"


Don't get me wrong, I know they're not the truth, but they (those so-called voices) are a form of PTSD that I think will always be in the background of my subconscious. They?re emotional responses triggered by traumatic memories. I know better than to give them any legitimacy.
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Post by: ` on April 14, 2005, 02:31:00 PM
(regarding spell check)
it's perfect the way it is. i would rather read someone's true voice.

(regarding those voices)
i guess some of mine haven't gone away. i am having a really hard time feeling anxiety about the most mundane choices. i guess i feel like i am getting "intuition" about things, then i don't know if it is intuition or just anxiety. those voices can still come out sometimes and criticize emotions, too. my emotions get messed up.

did anyone ever wonder what the beltlooping did to their "energy field" or whatever you might call it?[ This Message was edited by: fka on 2005-04-14 11:43 ]
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Post by: 001010 on April 14, 2005, 03:03:00 PM
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On 2005-04-14 11:31:00, fka wrote:

"(regarding spell check)

it's perfect the way it is. i would rather read someone's true voice.


I agree. It?s a personal story, not a news article.

Unfortunately, many ascribe one's credibility to their grammar, spelling, or intelligence level whether that be IQ equated or otherwise.

It?s a very real story, you can certainly feel it through her words.

Thanks again, Shanna.
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Post by: ` on April 14, 2005, 03:13:00 PM
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On 2005-04-14 12:03:00, 001010 wrote:

"Unfortunately, many ascribe one's credibility to their grammar, spelling, or intelligence level whether that be IQ equated or otherwise."


people who do that are just trained monkeys who can't see the whole world because the bars of their educated cage are blocking out the view.
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Post by: Gah on April 14, 2005, 03:51:00 PM
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Post by: sammiegirl on April 14, 2005, 06:01:00 PM
It is awful that our stories are so similar and yet we were from different states and times.
My heart bleeds for you sister and I hope you some day find peace, and when you do share a little with the rest of us. Thank you for your courage. Thank you for your honesty.
Samantha
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Post by: Anonymous on April 14, 2005, 10:39:00 PM
Spellun iz impoortint, goddammitt..
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Post by: Anonymous on April 14, 2005, 10:54:00 PM
but i love you no matter how you spell
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Post by: Anonymous on April 15, 2005, 04:51:00 PM
2 days before christmas?  That's fucked up!  It just goes to show how sadistic and vengeful a lot of those parents were/are. Guess what Shanna's getting for Christmas?  I wasn't able to focus enough to finish reading your story because it trigered a thought storm.  When those memory storms hit I can't concentrate or focus or do much of anything.  Sometimes that shit hits me in public and I start talk to myself and people give me strange looks.  Taking some action to change society for the better helps.  Everytime I win a battle I feel like I have won a part of my mind back.