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The Troubled Teen Industry / Re: How do you feel towards your parents?
« on: September 16, 2010, 05:28:03 AM »
21 years later...I still don't' trust any member of my family. They also still feel I am "manipulating" them. They try to tell me that some "good" came from it, but more damage than good came out of it.

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The Melting Pot / Re: Advice Thread..
« on: September 12, 2010, 11:44:38 PM »
Thanks Che! What you said helped. I find out the second approval tomorrow. I remember how much you wanted to go overseas and that first winter. I am sure you are ready to come home by now. I say. "Do what you need to do". You will land with both feet on the ground no matter what! You have potential to do so much. I can see you helping teens, teaching, or doing ESL!

One area where there is never a shortage is in Rochester, NY, doing ASL at NTSD. I think you are very flexible and could do anything you want. Look into the ASL program. It pays well and would put you near the GF.

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The Melting Pot / Re: Advice Thread..
« on: September 12, 2010, 03:37:07 PM »
Che,
I think I would sign on for six more months, and then see what the US economy does. That is all I know to say. As you know, I, too, am in a quandary. I have pretty much decided to move due to the antagonist in my life. Also finding "affordable housing" is not easy. It is looking like I have found it. The person that outed me is on a warpath with me and trying to break me down like she did 25 years ago. I am onto her game, and not playing it.

I would not be surprised if she has not already filed to have me committed. I guess you can tell from my writing that I am not "crazy". I am fine, just fine.

I know you don't love China but have found your niche there. I do miss you but also want the best for you. If you are employed then you are way ahead of many of my friends. I know those first few months for you were hard, and winter was VERY hard, but I think the stay is worth it.

As for the GF, if she is serious, she will wait for you to get home. Do you trust her to wait that six months? That is what it boils down to.

What was your advice for me? You know the situation. i was locked away for 9 months due to gender issues. The state I am in is very hard on my health issues. I hate leaving when I have parents that need me, but I also need to take care of myself. It has become necessity. Part of my wants to stay and part of my wants to leave. The sister has been making my life miserable! Everything is a crisis with her. She is an ex-pat, and brought me back here to care for my parents. I have don't it for 15 years. I love them, but they love me enough to see that I need to leave for my health.

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The Melting Pot / Re: Advice Thread..
« on: September 12, 2010, 03:20:12 PM »
Darnit, another one of my posts has disappeared.

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Open Free for All / Anxiety, Family, and Moving.
« on: September 11, 2010, 08:16:28 PM »
I am I am in a dilemma. I am in the state where I hospitalized. I am now looking into moving to a different state. In some ways I hate to move for a variety of reasons. The person who first outed me to my family has bought a home here, and is once again saying I "am crazy" and attempting to control me. I have found a places that I can afford in another state. It is easier on my breathing difficulties there. The hard part is leaving good friends, and my metalsmithing opportunities.

I would love to tell my relative to get lost but she has more money, and is very controlling, right down to my meds. What do I do in this case? I have an adopted family here. Literally, the family that took me in the whole time my mother was physically sick when I was growing up!

I am having extreme uncontrollable anxiety about all of this. Then there is free floating anxiety. Lots of free floating  anxiety. I also need a 2nd driver for my move. I fall asleep at the wheel constantly.  Please talk to me..someone.

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Open Free for All / Re: Considering full moderation
« on: September 08, 2010, 04:30:27 PM »
Thank you. I am rusty at posting here and don't want to break the rules. I feel overall they are good, but of course you know, I hate bans. I am unclear when one would be banned. That part confused me. Please clarify. IAmArtsy

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Open Free for All / Re: Considering full moderation
« on: September 08, 2010, 04:11:15 PM »
Psy,
Are you deleting my posts? I don't understand why. iamartsy

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The Troubled Teen Industry / Re: Nothing Makes You Feel Loved like....
« on: September 08, 2010, 02:07:40 PM »
Whooter,
I must say that I think the family was name calling, unless you consider some depression due to prednisone (mental illness). They were lumping me in with bipolar relatives, and psychotic relatives. I should clarify that by saying those relatives are not MY blood relatives. They are my in law's relatives!

What you say does not apply in this case.
IAmArtsy

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The Troubled Teen Industry / Re: Nothing Makes You Feel Loved like....
« on: September 08, 2010, 03:54:30 AM »
Che,
You hit the nail on the head! I let everyone have it. I was one pissed off woman. I might be a certain size, but I pack a big temper! Mentally ill are two words that set me off into a rage!

So you got it right! I might be estranged from my blood relatives be I am not mentally ill! What crap? They incarcerated me for four years for being a lesbian! Then I they joined "The Forum", and wanted to pay to send me. HA!
IAmArtsy

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The Troubled Teen Industry / Nothing Makes You Feel Loved like....
« on: September 06, 2010, 07:27:40 PM »
Two nights ago, my family pulled the rug out from under me. I know who the protagonist was in this game. Guess what the response to the anger I showed in return....Take one guess. I got told that their actions were appropriate because I am mentally ill! Were it not for Fornits and a few special people no one would have known that there was a possibility I might be sent "up the river". I let everyone have it yesterday, and was told I was being inappropriate. I want to go into details but it is too complicated. I will summarize it by saying, I am one person's pawn in the family. I am refusing to play that role anymore!

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Open Free for All / Re: Hurricane Ike-Houston Please Read
« on: August 30, 2010, 02:11:25 AM »
This is finally just a follow up! I am about to move. They still have not fixed up my apartment complex two years later. I mean, we did get a half-assed roof and my closet had the sheet rock replaced.  After much research, I have decided to move to a cooler climate, if I get financial approval from the landlord. Also I have to get out of my lease here in H-town. The beach in Galveston is still weird to visit, and still a mess. We can finally eat seafood at the restaurants not owned by Fertitta. I will post again after I get moved. If anyone cares to help me drive or get settled in my new Midwest area drop me a PM. IAmArtsy

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The Troubled Teen Industry / Re: Post your positive program experiences
« on: August 30, 2010, 01:50:58 AM »
Whooter,
I was in my last program in 1985. That is a long time ago! I still have no positive memories! Quit lying! The industry has not changed.

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Facility Question and Answers / Re: Lifeway
« on: August 30, 2010, 01:39:32 AM »
There is a PDAP alumni group on FB. It sounds like Lifeway had become way more like Straight than PDAP ever was. Then again, Meehan, seems to be losing his mind. The recent tapes of him are nothing like the PDAP I joined in 1982. They did tell me what to do, how to act, and, when to go to college (if I went). They were also homophobic as hell! That left me very screwed up! PDAP, became Freeway in CA, and then Lifeway reoccurred in the 90s in Houston. I toyed with going to a meeting, but after one PDAP meeting in Houston, I wanted nothing else to do with anything related to Meehan. I am sorry you were treated so poorly by Lifeway. PDAP was reigned in after the 60 minutes show about them. It sounds like they went back out of control as without media attention!

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Anne, that was my point. I came home to find out that the guy running the sweat lodge was barely a doctor. It had taken him over thirty years and lots of states to finish his training. Do I want to do a sweat lodge with this guy? HELL NO! I don't trust anything about him anymore!

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I admit that I almost attended a sweat lodge two weeks ago. Then, during lunch the day before, a friend that had attended two years prior told me not to go due to my medical problems. I immediately canceled!

I have adrenal problems, and had asked the "doctor" that ran it if I should do it. He said, "Why yes, I see no reason for you not to".

Two nights ago I investigated this "doctor" further. I read between the lines of his CV, and guess what I found? It appears that he has been kicked out of every residency program he ever attended. I had asked him about his latest move to the NE, and he me brushed me off. I now know. He obviously, was discovered to be a QUACK, and I was damn near a SUCKER! The guy that discouraged me from doing the sweat lodge had gotten ill during the one he attended. August in the Southwest is hotter than Hell! Why make it even hotter. I am embarrassed to admit any of this. I think I would do damn near anything to get off of my numerous meds I take daily, but I don't want to die doing it. I actually like life too much for that! On top of it current state of residence is a constant sweat lodge!

I am sick of hearing about herbs, potions, etc. What do people think meds are derived from? Simply, look at penicillin!

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