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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Cant sleep again
« on: September 08, 2006, 01:44:13 AM »
My brain keeps comming up with shit. For the last few years, I have been talking about my experiences in Straight. If you noticed I said in Straight. I felt like I never left really. I found some people I have been in Straight with and spoke to a few, Maybe it wasnt such a good idea but I never really understood why or how people can just go on with thier lives. I have learned that some people really can put it in some lil closet in there brains. I guess I just lived with it thinking about it all my life every day. Now when I think back, I think about memories before Straight. I am not as angry about it. What I have relized today is that I never found who I am as a person. What do I like and dislike? I allways avoided making decision in fear that people would degrade me for them. I have lived my life moment to moment letting life make choices for me and when i have to make a choice, I do what my parents would have done cause that is the right decision. I never picked out a theme to any room in my house, i allways took what people gave me and never got rid of it in fear that they would be angry with me. I know its time to decide what i like and dislike. I have allways eaten all my food because im supose to lol. This maybe kinda hard to break these habits that Straight help make in me. This is going to be exciting, confusing and prolly scary, but I think its time to start finding who I am. I allready stopped eating meat 3 weeks ago lmao. I never buy homes cause what if i buy the wrong one? my towels dont match, i have my parents old ones. I am still using the ugly dishes that were givin to me 5 years ago for Christmas. I am glad, I know my battle with the memories from Straight is over, but now I need to clean up the mess those faggits made. nope, not angry ;) well this is gonna be an adventure. Now maybe I can get some sleep!

Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / myspace
« on: August 22, 2006, 06:06:33 PM »
Anyone here have a myspace add? it would be nice to put faces with names.

Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / College
« on: August 09, 2006, 04:45:32 PM »
Anyone esle going back to college this fall?

Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / World Cup Soccer
« on: June 27, 2006, 06:36:00 PM »
Anyone watch soccer on a HD flatscreen television? Its the best!!!!

Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / NS Cant sleep
« on: June 22, 2006, 03:56:00 AM »
Cant sleep. Sitting here in my Goddess nighty wondering when my eyes will turn all fuzzy from being so tired. I hate all this spam crap on the boards. I dont know why we cant fix it, You guys have prolly talked about it but I missed it somewhere. I am bored. blah, blah, blah

Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Psyco Wards
« on: June 03, 2006, 01:16:00 AM »
How many have you guys been in after Straight? I am uh just curious?

Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Easter
« on: April 16, 2006, 01:57:00 AM »
I forget what Easter was like in Straight? Did we just not celabrate it? I know I was there but I do not remember it.

Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Furniture
« on: March 01, 2006, 02:06:00 PM »
I have relized that I have never had real bedroom furnitur since I have been in Straight. I have had a water bed with drawers under it and thats it in my room. I have noticed also that my children have no bedroom suites too. I have a hard time buying things. I cant never make up my mind what to buy and whats the best deal so I just dont buy nothin. I think I am going to go buy some furniture. I have found some log furniture online and I like it a lot but I would think shipping would cost more than the furniture haha. Oh and I dunno if I could put it together after it gets here. Im like scared to death I will buy some kinda furniture and then It will look dumb and I will be embaressed so I might as well not have any.

I should listen to my sexual thoughts of wanting to be lesbian so I can get a lover that can buy and decorate my home for me. omg I need help!!

Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Moved to Oklahoma
« on: February 19, 2006, 05:56:00 PM »
Sorry, this post lost

Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Moving again!!
« on: February 01, 2006, 01:38:00 PM »
I am moving to Oklahoma. Anyone else from there?

Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Jimmy
« on: December 22, 2005, 06:29:00 PM »
Jimmy H. was a misbehavor in Dallas Straight. After Straight I was friends with his sister. Jimmy was not in group very often. He stayed not in the time out rooms but a room next to the time out rooms in the back of the room. I remember one day a doctor that I never had seen before came to the back of the group. We all turned around and the man tried to tell us that sometimes they have to take drastic mesures to get the results they need from some kids. I didnt understand what the man was saying but shortly after that I heard Jimmy scream and he yelled HELP ME VALORIE! Valorie was a girl he new before Straight and she was standing on 5th phase at the end of the row I was sitting in. I looked up at her and tears where rolling down her face. I heard someone say to her, here, sit down. She sat down in the row behind me. We didnt hear Jimmy scream for hours after that. I allways wondered why they treated Jimmy differently than other misbehavors. His mother and my mother had been best friends in the past. She placed her kid into Straight I think because my parents had recomended it to them. Later after I had got out of Straight I heard somewhere that she had pulled Jimmy out of Straight because Straight was abusing him. Does anyone remember that day in Straight?

Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Tomorrow
« on: December 22, 2005, 04:33:00 PM »
December 23rd was the day I was put into Straight. December 23rd is also My Fathers Birthday. What a great present my father had. I was 13, I had almost all my presents bought for my family and friends for Christmas. I had $25 I had left it in the van while we was going to go visit this counsolor (Straight) I was excited because after the counsolor appointment,I was going to be able to buy my mom a great present for Christmas at the mall in Dallas, being from Midland, buying anything in Dallas was a big deal haha. I never got to get my mom that gift. I never saw that $25 again. It sucks that every year I have been expected to get at least a birthday card for my father and call him to wish him a happy birthday. Tomorrow, I will be on my way to spend the holidays with them. I will give my father his birthday card and his gift. My kids will be excited and happy. I will not talk about Straight for the next 3 days. I wont be on this forum. Christmas is about giving, and being joyful right?  

Oh and to top everything off, they have a foster kid with the same birthday as my fathers and she is turning 13yrs. old tomorrow. WTF?

Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Why did I babysit his kids?
« on: November 11, 2005, 06:49:00 PM »
I went to church with George Bush at First United Methodist Church in Midland Texas. I babysat his kids. I think about how stupid and unrealistic it sounds but its the truth. Shortly after I met him I was in Straight. I think to myself now, Did he tell my parents about Straight? I shoulda said no to baby sitting those lil bratts. I shoulda been paid more haha. It all sounds like I made it all up. George Bush sent his babysitter to Straight?

Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / .
« on: May 25, 2005, 02:09:00 PM »
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« on: April 14, 2005, 01:02:00 AM »
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