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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / I play a lot of other songs
« on: April 24, 2018, 12:07:37 PM »
as well -
You know this conversation jumps around the web has a long string of threads , cool - I know you mentioned you weren't there- a person you know and are close with was- I am grateful that you care - and do this.
When I look back at what I have written and my experiences prior to turning 18 - and Elan being one of them for two years - and I write about it- on other sites you know there is some stuff there that well- it aint pretty and there is a pursuant of a justice goal that -well you have to dot the i;s and cross...
Yet when I read up on the AARC or see something like our film- "The Last Stop" - I say something as well as -you know -tie in that time article ,which I read along with hundreds of thousands who were just appalled from reading -
I was triggered because save for that one story of how adult prisoners of war were being tortured at lunch time everything else was present at Elan - Jesus -( I may be able to pull wires across a box and make sounds that are pleasant to the ear - though I am worried I won't or can't be able to put it up - still my god man triggered like no bodies business ) I don't have the savvy to deal with Time Magazine online to copy and paste an article and make it stick - I have the change for the purchase - yet not the expertise nor confidence to do it . Be nice if some kind soul would beast that Time Article here on this thread as it travels.
I was triggered by that article because everything else they were doing to break these adult men -sadly Ajax I experienced for Two years - And I can now very factually put into words the lunacy that I was subjected to in the name of -what - I want to know what they were trying to do - Because the stuff Elan put me thru was not designed to assist any living creature post that experience ,
I come here and have a conversation - and I factual state - and I Ajax have witnesses and I witness for many - so I stand tall when I look back read my words that I have replied back to you in regards to AArc and other hell holes - and I feel like I am just being honest in my ability now to clearly see - why and how I was pushed into doing something horrible to another person at the same time ( irony ) how I almost shut down or exposed Ricci's program when I, in a bizarre mental fog ,pushed to the point and had an acute psychotic break - by a place that was supposed to be saving me- and in this state I stabbed another adult at the time resident. I honestly don't remember the exact act it is not in my m- I do remember coming out of a weird fog like thing hearing my name being screamed and then in utter horror as I am coming out of this fog - (Ronnie Evans was yelling for me and he seemed like miles away and it took a while but eventually I came back out of this strange fog) and suddenly realized that I was holding a knife in my hand - I threw it on the floor and ran faster than I have ever in my life, away from that hell hole. I am grateful to god that O have no actual memory of this event - I have a prior and after but not during - I was that far out there- and if there was memory that I want god to remove it is that and it aint there- so maybe he plucked it as it happened – no clue and can’t speculate.
I made Joe Ricci scramble like he had never done, ever in his life - the adult I stabbed came from a very affluent family - His brother was a Legal analyst for NBC. Ricci had to appease that adult boy’s parents ,and he had to get me back quickly , almost two days of running around in the Maine woods before I finally found a road , and got caught. Ricci told them that he was going to make sure I got punished if they didn't or would not press charges.
And then this is where the sick that was Joe Ricci , Gerald Davidson , Martin Kruglik, and Morris Fink turned professional and they devised and carried out a treatment plan and participated in a treatment plan - that would be embarrassing to normal kind human beings to simply hear me tell it , and found to be devoid of any therapeutic value as well pure extreme criminal child abuse when the shock wears off after I have finished relating - And I really haven't gotten into here on fornits as much - Yet I can very easily now talk about my particular brand of treatment that I received post psychotic break - honest hindsight is 20/20. I have witnesses -
I am also very empathetic to others who have experienced this form of criminal child abuse regardless of program - just because ... Yet when I converse here I use words convey to exactly how and what Elan did - and it was torture - That is the only way you can truly break a soul -
Elan broke me twice - well they tried real hard the second go round after that assault incident , Yet I don't think they really broke me completely the second time because the therapy or what I received after my psychotic break the extreme measures used to break me - hard labor ,constant screaming - 50 haircuts a day for being a sick sick ,sick person - for three months , encounter groups of such haltered and those twisted Primal scream groups I don't think it took they had already broken me once - that was why that adult got assaulted
And the reason I say it didn't take because I am here now - if I had believed anything Elan was feeding me as truth at that time I would have ended my life in my early 20's. instead I picked up the guitfiddle and it saved my life. -
Ricci made sure I knew he was pissed that I had almost caused him to find another way to make a living and he had to scramble fast. He made sure and I believe it was his intent to make sure I did not survive and I am sure most of those others like Morris Fink ,and Martin Kruglik ,and Jeffery Gottlieb were very surprised to learn that I had survived that insane therapy that they willingly and gleefully imposed using a group of 24 residents in the house -to achieve their means and loved every minute of making sure I suffered like no bodies business as They implemented such a revised and even sicker treatment plan -
I think back to it all, it is bizarre to me that they really went a long with it - like I didn't have any input -and said no sorry I know I am not so lets put that crazy talk away still I would be spanked when I did and coerced to work in primal scream groups that had nothing to do with me except be triggering . Nothing like having a bizarre form of out of body experience and you see or feel like you are watching you just going thru the motions of working on shit that to me in my core being just did not make sense - yet the pressure and constant barrage of the onslaught
So yeah I look back at what I have written and then I think back as to what I rise above and what so many didn't and I know why it was so unbelievably hard to function with all that insane crap that used exact text book by the book Torture on ...., just like the Article in that time magazine - And then I realize that I wrote above that this is/was used on children - and I am just freaking appalled .
Then it dawns on me I remember I was that child that this was used on - and people wonder why I got Elan exposed - got folks to assist me in closing that hell hole down so it could in my mind never hurt another child like it did me and the many that lie dead in the wake of its long and lengthy corruptly protected legacy.
Why Elan Survivors have a movie and why I seek the last of the major goals, I made 18 years ago , the movie thing just fell out of the sky into my lap , an act of Grace and a labor of love and that is to seek justice for all Elan survivors.
It is so odd to me when I write more factually here in my weird and sometimes hard to follow fashion about this stuff and I use words I don't scream or cuss I use my words and it just blows me away that I am speaking in truths and facts - torture has been and is being used on children today.
And then I think how in the hell do I know so much about this horrible, insidiously protected and hidden industry and then it dawns on me just how much of a survivor of torture - And there are so many of us - So maybe that explains why I am pursuing what I have slowing been building- a case -
Sometimes I forget because of the knowledge just can be overwhelming as one tries to factually use those true words torture and using it on children. That I really do forget that I didn't learn of this in any college course - , or books I learned of this first hand - sometimes it is good to take a step back - breathe and continue on once you catch your breathe .
It might do good to find out who in Alberta believes that using torture on children is okay - Hell it is really frowned upon in the united states also by the American public - when they finally understand what is being done to at risk and learning disabled as well as emotionally unbalanced children from chronic childhood life abuse or traumas from their primary care givers.
You need to find out who says this is okay - I would love to have a polite conversation with them about the facts. Torturing children and making a buck on it doesn’t end well
one way or another this story has got to end - one way or another this train has got to run.
You know this conversation jumps around the web has a long string of threads , cool - I know you mentioned you weren't there- a person you know and are close with was- I am grateful that you care - and do this.
When I look back at what I have written and my experiences prior to turning 18 - and Elan being one of them for two years - and I write about it- on other sites you know there is some stuff there that well- it aint pretty and there is a pursuant of a justice goal that -well you have to dot the i;s and cross...
Yet when I read up on the AARC or see something like our film- "The Last Stop" - I say something as well as -you know -tie in that time article ,which I read along with hundreds of thousands who were just appalled from reading -
I was triggered because save for that one story of how adult prisoners of war were being tortured at lunch time everything else was present at Elan - Jesus -( I may be able to pull wires across a box and make sounds that are pleasant to the ear - though I am worried I won't or can't be able to put it up - still my god man triggered like no bodies business ) I don't have the savvy to deal with Time Magazine online to copy and paste an article and make it stick - I have the change for the purchase - yet not the expertise nor confidence to do it . Be nice if some kind soul would beast that Time Article here on this thread as it travels.
I was triggered by that article because everything else they were doing to break these adult men -sadly Ajax I experienced for Two years - And I can now very factually put into words the lunacy that I was subjected to in the name of -what - I want to know what they were trying to do - Because the stuff Elan put me thru was not designed to assist any living creature post that experience ,
I come here and have a conversation - and I factual state - and I Ajax have witnesses and I witness for many - so I stand tall when I look back read my words that I have replied back to you in regards to AArc and other hell holes - and I feel like I am just being honest in my ability now to clearly see - why and how I was pushed into doing something horrible to another person at the same time ( irony ) how I almost shut down or exposed Ricci's program when I, in a bizarre mental fog ,pushed to the point and had an acute psychotic break - by a place that was supposed to be saving me- and in this state I stabbed another adult at the time resident. I honestly don't remember the exact act it is not in my m- I do remember coming out of a weird fog like thing hearing my name being screamed and then in utter horror as I am coming out of this fog - (Ronnie Evans was yelling for me and he seemed like miles away and it took a while but eventually I came back out of this strange fog) and suddenly realized that I was holding a knife in my hand - I threw it on the floor and ran faster than I have ever in my life, away from that hell hole. I am grateful to god that O have no actual memory of this event - I have a prior and after but not during - I was that far out there- and if there was memory that I want god to remove it is that and it aint there- so maybe he plucked it as it happened – no clue and can’t speculate.
I made Joe Ricci scramble like he had never done, ever in his life - the adult I stabbed came from a very affluent family - His brother was a Legal analyst for NBC. Ricci had to appease that adult boy’s parents ,and he had to get me back quickly , almost two days of running around in the Maine woods before I finally found a road , and got caught. Ricci told them that he was going to make sure I got punished if they didn't or would not press charges.
And then this is where the sick that was Joe Ricci , Gerald Davidson , Martin Kruglik, and Morris Fink turned professional and they devised and carried out a treatment plan and participated in a treatment plan - that would be embarrassing to normal kind human beings to simply hear me tell it , and found to be devoid of any therapeutic value as well pure extreme criminal child abuse when the shock wears off after I have finished relating - And I really haven't gotten into here on fornits as much - Yet I can very easily now talk about my particular brand of treatment that I received post psychotic break - honest hindsight is 20/20. I have witnesses -
I am also very empathetic to others who have experienced this form of criminal child abuse regardless of program - just because ... Yet when I converse here I use words convey to exactly how and what Elan did - and it was torture - That is the only way you can truly break a soul -
Elan broke me twice - well they tried real hard the second go round after that assault incident , Yet I don't think they really broke me completely the second time because the therapy or what I received after my psychotic break the extreme measures used to break me - hard labor ,constant screaming - 50 haircuts a day for being a sick sick ,sick person - for three months , encounter groups of such haltered and those twisted Primal scream groups I don't think it took they had already broken me once - that was why that adult got assaulted
And the reason I say it didn't take because I am here now - if I had believed anything Elan was feeding me as truth at that time I would have ended my life in my early 20's. instead I picked up the guitfiddle and it saved my life. -
Ricci made sure I knew he was pissed that I had almost caused him to find another way to make a living and he had to scramble fast. He made sure and I believe it was his intent to make sure I did not survive and I am sure most of those others like Morris Fink ,and Martin Kruglik ,and Jeffery Gottlieb were very surprised to learn that I had survived that insane therapy that they willingly and gleefully imposed using a group of 24 residents in the house -to achieve their means and loved every minute of making sure I suffered like no bodies business as They implemented such a revised and even sicker treatment plan -
I think back to it all, it is bizarre to me that they really went a long with it - like I didn't have any input -and said no sorry I know I am not so lets put that crazy talk away still I would be spanked when I did and coerced to work in primal scream groups that had nothing to do with me except be triggering . Nothing like having a bizarre form of out of body experience and you see or feel like you are watching you just going thru the motions of working on shit that to me in my core being just did not make sense - yet the pressure and constant barrage of the onslaught
So yeah I look back at what I have written and then I think back as to what I rise above and what so many didn't and I know why it was so unbelievably hard to function with all that insane crap that used exact text book by the book Torture on ...., just like the Article in that time magazine - And then I realize that I wrote above that this is/was used on children - and I am just freaking appalled .
Then it dawns on me I remember I was that child that this was used on - and people wonder why I got Elan exposed - got folks to assist me in closing that hell hole down so it could in my mind never hurt another child like it did me and the many that lie dead in the wake of its long and lengthy corruptly protected legacy.
Why Elan Survivors have a movie and why I seek the last of the major goals, I made 18 years ago , the movie thing just fell out of the sky into my lap , an act of Grace and a labor of love and that is to seek justice for all Elan survivors.
It is so odd to me when I write more factually here in my weird and sometimes hard to follow fashion about this stuff and I use words I don't scream or cuss I use my words and it just blows me away that I am speaking in truths and facts - torture has been and is being used on children today.
And then I think how in the hell do I know so much about this horrible, insidiously protected and hidden industry and then it dawns on me just how much of a survivor of torture - And there are so many of us - So maybe that explains why I am pursuing what I have slowing been building- a case -
Sometimes I forget because of the knowledge just can be overwhelming as one tries to factually use those true words torture and using it on children. That I really do forget that I didn't learn of this in any college course - , or books I learned of this first hand - sometimes it is good to take a step back - breathe and continue on once you catch your breathe .
It might do good to find out who in Alberta believes that using torture on children is okay - Hell it is really frowned upon in the united states also by the American public - when they finally understand what is being done to at risk and learning disabled as well as emotionally unbalanced children from chronic childhood life abuse or traumas from their primary care givers.
You need to find out who says this is okay - I would love to have a polite conversation with them about the facts. Torturing children and making a buck on it doesn’t end well
one way or another this story has got to end - one way or another this train has got to run.