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21 years later...I still don't' trust any member of my family. They also still feel I am "manipulating" them. They try to tell me that some "good" came from it, but more damage than good came out of it.

Che,
I think I would sign on for six more months, and then see what the US economy does. That is all I know to say. As you know, I, too, am in a quandary. I have pretty much decided to move due to the antagonist in my life. Also finding "affordable housing" is not easy. It is looking like I have found it. The person that outed me is on a warpath with me and trying to break me down like she did 25 years ago. I am onto her game, and not playing it.

I would not be surprised if she has not already filed to have me committed. I guess you can tell from my writing that I am not "crazy". I am fine, just fine.

I know you don't love China but have found your niche there. I do miss you but also want the best for you. If you are employed then you are way ahead of many of my friends. I know those first few months for you were hard, and winter was VERY hard, but I think the stay is worth it.

As for the GF, if she is serious, she will wait for you to get home. Do you trust her to wait that six months? That is what it boils down to.

What was your advice for me? You know the situation. i was locked away for 9 months due to gender issues. The state I am in is very hard on my health issues. I hate leaving when I have parents that need me, but I also need to take care of myself. It has become necessity. Part of my wants to stay and part of my wants to leave. The sister has been making my life miserable! Everything is a crisis with her. She is an ex-pat, and brought me back here to care for my parents. I have don't it for 15 years. I love them, but they love me enough to see that I need to leave for my health.

I am I am in a dilemma. I am in the state where I hospitalized. I am now looking into moving to a different state. In some ways I hate to move for a variety of reasons. The person who first outed me to my family has bought a home here, and is once again saying I "am crazy" and attempting to control me. I have found a places that I can afford in another state. It is easier on my breathing difficulties there. The hard part is leaving good friends, and my metalsmithing opportunities.

I would love to tell my relative to get lost but she has more money, and is very controlling, right down to my meds. What do I do in this case? I have an adopted family here. Literally, the family that took me in the whole time my mother was physically sick when I was growing up!

I am having extreme uncontrollable anxiety about all of this. Then there is free floating anxiety. Lots of free floating  anxiety. I also need a 2nd driver for my move. I fall asleep at the wheel constantly.  Please talk to me..someone.

Psy,
Are you deleting my posts? I don't understand why. iamartsy

Che,
You hit the nail on the head! I let everyone have it. I was one pissed off woman. I might be a certain size, but I pack a big temper! Mentally ill are two words that set me off into a rage!

So you got it right! I might be estranged from my blood relatives be I am not mentally ill! What crap? They incarcerated me for four years for being a lesbian! Then I they joined "The Forum", and wanted to pay to send me. HA!
IAmArtsy

This is finally just a follow up! I am about to move. They still have not fixed up my apartment complex two years later. I mean, we did get a half-assed roof and my closet had the sheet rock replaced.  After much research, I have decided to move to a cooler climate, if I get financial approval from the landlord. Also I have to get out of my lease here in H-town. The beach in Galveston is still weird to visit, and still a mess. We can finally eat seafood at the restaurants not owned by Fertitta. I will post again after I get moved. If anyone cares to help me drive or get settled in my new Midwest area drop me a PM. IAmArtsy

There is a PDAP alumni group on FB. It sounds like Lifeway had become way more like Straight than PDAP ever was. Then again, Meehan, seems to be losing his mind. The recent tapes of him are nothing like the PDAP I joined in 1982. They did tell me what to do, how to act, and, when to go to college (if I went). They were also homophobic as hell! That left me very screwed up! PDAP, became Freeway in CA, and then Lifeway reoccurred in the 90s in Houston. I toyed with going to a meeting, but after one PDAP meeting in Houston, I wanted nothing else to do with anything related to Meehan. I am sorry you were treated so poorly by Lifeway. PDAP was reigned in after the 60 minutes show about them. It sounds like they went back out of control as without media attention!

I admit that I almost attended a sweat lodge two weeks ago. Then, during lunch the day before, a friend that had attended two years prior told me not to go due to my medical problems. I immediately canceled!

I have adrenal problems, and had asked the "doctor" that ran it if I should do it. He said, "Why yes, I see no reason for you not to".

Two nights ago I investigated this "doctor" further. I read between the lines of his CV, and guess what I found? It appears that he has been kicked out of every residency program he ever attended. I had asked him about his latest move to the NE, and he me brushed me off. I now know. He obviously, was discovered to be a QUACK, and I was damn near a SUCKER! The guy that discouraged me from doing the sweat lodge had gotten ill during the one he attended. August in the Southwest is hotter than Hell! Why make it even hotter. I am embarrassed to admit any of this. I think I would do damn near anything to get off of my numerous meds I take daily, but I don't want to die doing it. I actually like life too much for that! On top of it current state of residence is a constant sweat lodge!

I am sick of hearing about herbs, potions, etc. What do people think meds are derived from? Simply, look at penicillin!