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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Saying " I love you "
« on: September 03, 2009, 03:23:44 PM »
I just had to see if anyone else out there has a problem verbalizing intimate feelings for others. I sat in Straight for a year and a half telling people all day long that i loved them even when I despised them. I mean, how many times a day did we have to yell in unison " luv ya" so and so. Probably hundreds of times a day. Once I got out I just couldn't hardly say it anymore. Or every time I did I felt inside like I was just lying. It has made me question myself as to whether or not I even know what love is. It seems like I knew it instinctively before I went to Straight but somehow they took that away from me too. I am determined to take it all back. It may not be entirely possible but I want back everything they took. At least I would like to be able to say "I love you" without feeling like a fucking lying scumbag.

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Family Guy episode
« on: August 19, 2009, 01:01:04 PM »
I saw a Family Guy episode yesterday that had a direct reference to Straight inc in it. The episode is called "Family Gay" and came out in 2009. Peter submits to a round of medical experiments for money. He is turned gay by one of the experiments. Brian (the dog) has Peter committed to "Straight Camp" to teach him not to be gay. In the next scene it shows a scene in the group. Lines of kids in chairs, hands on knees, wide eyed and staring straight ahead. It was incredible! Both my wife and I sat there stunned. We both knew that whoever wrote that part of the show was either in Straight or knew someone who was. My wife fortunately was never there but knew a direct reference to Straight when she saw it from hearing my descriptions of what it was like. I was wondering if anybody else has seen this episode and what their reaction was to it.

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Same program, Different experiences
« on: July 08, 2009, 03:13:19 PM »
It is not that surprising that people who went through Straight can have very different experiences. Depending on which host home you were assigned to, tension levels within the group, staff attitudes and whims, one person could have a very different take on things than another. I went through Atlanta Straight in the 80's and I have talked to quite a few people who were there also. I have noticed that most people who were put in real young seem to have been more traumatized than those who were a little older. Maybe the older kids just had a few more natural barriers built up already so as to be able to disassociate themselves from the horror around them in a way that the very young simply can't. I have also noticed different attitudes about Straight depending on whether or not the person is an actual drug addict and or alcoholic currently "clean and sober". I was not and am not now addicted to any drug, yet I spent a year and a half of my life being told what an addict I was. That year and a half in Straight was the worst experience of my life bar none. I was 15 years old and I can truly say that Straight was child abuse on an epic scale. Yet I have spoken to others who would kind of trivialize what they saw there by describing the program as "tough" or "12 steps on steroids". It was brainwashing and extremely damaging cult-like indoctrination. That is the truth and whether or not some AA member can see that is irrelevant because the rest of us know what we saw and what we did.

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Atlanta Straight People
« on: June 04, 2009, 06:32:18 PM »
I was in Atlanta Straight from 83-85. Dennis Buttimer ran the place and was an absolute tyrant. I have seen some postings either defending Buttimer or denying his crimes. These people are obviously lying or still brainwashed cause I was there and I saw his reign of terror first hand. I was on 5th phase when he ordered the infamous "bathroom incident" in which children were physically abused for hours. Luckily I was not ordered to participate in those beatings cause I would have done anything i was told at that point. At least I don't have that guilt to deal with. The people who directly participated in this should just admit it all and be done with it. The main villain in all that happened there is Buttimer and those witches that ran the place with him. The rest of us were just children who were absolutely terrified. I witnessed so much abuse during my time there it would be hard to even begin to fully catalog it all. I am interested to see how some of the folks I was locked up with are doing now. If you were there send me a private message on this site and I will reply. I am Steve B. from Mississippi. I copped out on 5th phase and never looked back.

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