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Peninsula Village / Re: PV Counselor does a dance!
« on: November 08, 2012, 07:45:11 PM »
Well, I've been holding my tongue for quite a while on this, but I guess I just really need to say my piece here.
I am "staygoldxx" from all those years ago. Basically, I wanted to let you guys know I've deprogrammed and found out a lot of terrible things about PV that I wish I honestly hadn't sometimes. However, when I posted that, not only was I only 18 years old but had been out of the village less than 2 years. You would think, considering how much you guys seem to know about the mass indoctrination, thought reform, and brainwashing tactics that the village enforced, that there would be a little more thoughtful consideration before you start bullying and harassing others, especially us alumni because we are all victims of terrible institutionalized abuse - some people who suffered for nearly two years on the inside...I am in touch with well over 30+ alumni from all eras of PV, and quite honestly it pains me to see how much some struggle on a day to day basis. And how much it hurts to see them where I was so many years ago, thinking the village had "saved my life". I didn't start deprogramming until the summer of 2009, where for the most part I hadn't even the knowledge anything bad or illegal happened around me constantly. It was nothing short of completely nightmarish - I barely slept for years and constantly used drugs, which was never a problem for me before the village. I was a "behavioral" kid, which honestly I think may have been worse than simply having drug problems, cause they used one size fits all treatment...I am doing great now, even with the PTSD diagnosis and terrible issues deriving from drug use.
Anyway, how dare you guys judge someone's experience at the village, saying "maybe she kissed up to staff"...ever consider that that was the only way to even get at least 10% less punishment? Anything to make it a little easier, I was willing to do...And no matter how much I complied, how much I progressed...I still was horribly abused and punished on a daily basis, mostly through group punishment or being accused of things I never even did. Especially coming from some of you who were never actually patients there, it's nothing short of straight out rude. I've read pretty much every thread on this board, and to me it seems there is no difference between most of you bullies on here and the way I was bullied at PV by staff and patients. You are one in the same. Not only have I seen you guys defame innocent people's names on here, you all seem to have this ridiculous rage where you target the most helpless of the people- those who were victimized.
A few years ago when those "protests" were being posted, I was harassed by people I'd never even met, and didn't even know by name. And the results of your one man protest, Act.Da? It only gave Peglar an oppourtunity to seem even more caring, and he rationalized why you felt the way you did...he even invited you into the group to talk, which I thought you'd take up if you wanted to make a real statement or impression - PERFECT oppourtunity to start refutting Peglar's BS, but no...you'd rather be weird, passive, and hide behind a camera and simply take pics. Then post videos of me and other alumni and staff without our permission; hell most of them didn't even know that video was there! You had a zero % impact...not one family pulled their kid or took you seriously. They thought you were just a sad, mixed up kid. Then I had to deal with guys finding my youtube, and then posting all my videos so you could make fun of them...what, are you guys all 12 years old? It struck me as just sad you felt the need to poke fun at pretty much nothing.
You guys talk a lot, claiming you want to take action and change things....so why aren't you targeting the people MOST responsible - like the fucking clinical directors and corporate people funding and keeping this place alive still? It always seemed nothing short of absurd to me that you guys targeted alumni---so useless, any alumni that hasn't deprogrammed is just gonna laugh and fight you, and will get you no where. Everyone takes time to heal in their own way, and some never deprogram cause they want to believe bad things didn't happen to them. Some it takes a few years at the very least. It's an extremely sensitive area for them for obvious reasons, and no one should ever be pushed into deprogramming, the way I was later that year.
To me, when I needed info like the stuff posted here (cause it helped me discover a lot of disturbing details) I thought maybe I'd find alliances, people who actually feel the same that I do about the village. But I thought wrong, cause there's no help or real care here, just a bunch of angry bullies with no direction...I apologize only to the few posters I've seen that really care and have been nice. So, I am fighting my fight alone, and going through legal things in the future without the support of even my own parents, who STILL think PV was an ok place. Honestly, I don't even know if I'll get a response to this cause this place has all but died..but to tell you the truth, I'm kind of happy this board isn't as active :/ I'm posting this in the attempt to at least expose some of the PV-esque tactics some posters are apparently into...ironic considering you all say you don't approve of those things... Sad, I have a bunch of research, documents, and info I could add about things never mentioned here, but no one here would actually do anything with it.
If you're fueled by so much angry, get out and actually do something about it...like really do something. Leave the victims out of this, not a single alumni or even staff for that matter has even bothered half as much as you guys have to harass, defame, and bother them.
I am "staygoldxx" from all those years ago. Basically, I wanted to let you guys know I've deprogrammed and found out a lot of terrible things about PV that I wish I honestly hadn't sometimes. However, when I posted that, not only was I only 18 years old but had been out of the village less than 2 years. You would think, considering how much you guys seem to know about the mass indoctrination, thought reform, and brainwashing tactics that the village enforced, that there would be a little more thoughtful consideration before you start bullying and harassing others, especially us alumni because we are all victims of terrible institutionalized abuse - some people who suffered for nearly two years on the inside...I am in touch with well over 30+ alumni from all eras of PV, and quite honestly it pains me to see how much some struggle on a day to day basis. And how much it hurts to see them where I was so many years ago, thinking the village had "saved my life". I didn't start deprogramming until the summer of 2009, where for the most part I hadn't even the knowledge anything bad or illegal happened around me constantly. It was nothing short of completely nightmarish - I barely slept for years and constantly used drugs, which was never a problem for me before the village. I was a "behavioral" kid, which honestly I think may have been worse than simply having drug problems, cause they used one size fits all treatment...I am doing great now, even with the PTSD diagnosis and terrible issues deriving from drug use.
Anyway, how dare you guys judge someone's experience at the village, saying "maybe she kissed up to staff"...ever consider that that was the only way to even get at least 10% less punishment? Anything to make it a little easier, I was willing to do...And no matter how much I complied, how much I progressed...I still was horribly abused and punished on a daily basis, mostly through group punishment or being accused of things I never even did. Especially coming from some of you who were never actually patients there, it's nothing short of straight out rude. I've read pretty much every thread on this board, and to me it seems there is no difference between most of you bullies on here and the way I was bullied at PV by staff and patients. You are one in the same. Not only have I seen you guys defame innocent people's names on here, you all seem to have this ridiculous rage where you target the most helpless of the people- those who were victimized.
A few years ago when those "protests" were being posted, I was harassed by people I'd never even met, and didn't even know by name. And the results of your one man protest, Act.Da? It only gave Peglar an oppourtunity to seem even more caring, and he rationalized why you felt the way you did...he even invited you into the group to talk, which I thought you'd take up if you wanted to make a real statement or impression - PERFECT oppourtunity to start refutting Peglar's BS, but no...you'd rather be weird, passive, and hide behind a camera and simply take pics. Then post videos of me and other alumni and staff without our permission; hell most of them didn't even know that video was there! You had a zero % impact...not one family pulled their kid or took you seriously. They thought you were just a sad, mixed up kid. Then I had to deal with guys finding my youtube, and then posting all my videos so you could make fun of them...what, are you guys all 12 years old? It struck me as just sad you felt the need to poke fun at pretty much nothing.
You guys talk a lot, claiming you want to take action and change things....so why aren't you targeting the people MOST responsible - like the fucking clinical directors and corporate people funding and keeping this place alive still? It always seemed nothing short of absurd to me that you guys targeted alumni---so useless, any alumni that hasn't deprogrammed is just gonna laugh and fight you, and will get you no where. Everyone takes time to heal in their own way, and some never deprogram cause they want to believe bad things didn't happen to them. Some it takes a few years at the very least. It's an extremely sensitive area for them for obvious reasons, and no one should ever be pushed into deprogramming, the way I was later that year.
To me, when I needed info like the stuff posted here (cause it helped me discover a lot of disturbing details) I thought maybe I'd find alliances, people who actually feel the same that I do about the village. But I thought wrong, cause there's no help or real care here, just a bunch of angry bullies with no direction...I apologize only to the few posters I've seen that really care and have been nice. So, I am fighting my fight alone, and going through legal things in the future without the support of even my own parents, who STILL think PV was an ok place. Honestly, I don't even know if I'll get a response to this cause this place has all but died..but to tell you the truth, I'm kind of happy this board isn't as active :/ I'm posting this in the attempt to at least expose some of the PV-esque tactics some posters are apparently into...ironic considering you all say you don't approve of those things... Sad, I have a bunch of research, documents, and info I could add about things never mentioned here, but no one here would actually do anything with it.
If you're fueled by so much angry, get out and actually do something about it...like really do something. Leave the victims out of this, not a single alumni or even staff for that matter has even bothered half as much as you guys have to harass, defame, and bother them.