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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / why do i feel bad for this???
« on: January 03, 2006, 09:05:00 PM »
I would have flown off the handle if somebody carved into my paint job. Regardless of their age. Their parents should have to pay for a new paint job. I would have done worse than going to the office mgr. I would have called the police and filed a report (especially for insurance purposes).

I say, don't waste your energy feeling guilty over complaining to management. The little girls that did this property damage need to learn consequence before their petty thing turns into a big thing.

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Is it possible?
« on: January 03, 2006, 08:44:00 PM »
I think it depends on the substance and the person. I know that I couldn't handle cocaine or vodka. I would do cocaine for many moons with no sleep. Vodka & tequila made me turn into the devil in disquise. I've never done intraveinous drugs (thank God)...I'd probably be dead from OD as I have been told I have an "addictive personality" (whatever that is). Also, I'm old so a lot of the drugs younger folks are doing today I've never tasted.

Herb depends on your point of view, in my opinion. I personally think it is OK to smoke it as a happy hour alternative to alcohol(at home after all my work is done & I don't have to drive. However, physically & emotionally I feel better the next day when I do not partake in that alternative happy hour (more energy & brain power).

I know what I can & cannot handle. I was at a party last year and someone handed me a mirror with lines of cocaine & I just said no thank you...I hadn't done it in over a decade. Because I was drinking beer I was tempted. I was proud of myself the next day. I knew that if I did one line, I'd be looking for another (vicious cycle).

Recovery is a lifetime thing to me. I recover from all kinds of things other than just weed. I'm constantly struggling to recover MYSELF. So, I wont touch the weed for a little while. I don't drink vodka or tequila ever bcuz I know I turn into a very ugly person. I drink a couple of beers a year: literally!

I have no REAL friends other than my husband and a few fair weather friends. None of these people do any hard drugs. And we all feel the same about herb.

I think one KNOWS when there is a PROBLEM. If the substance has opiates that cause physical withdrawl, I would say there is a need to get a grip or get some help.  

I'd like to add that cigarettes ARE A HUGE PROBLEM for me. I would actually sign myself into a cigarette rehab if there was one available (a legit rehab that is). However, I do not allow myself to smoke inside my house. Even if it's 20 degress outside, I go out there to tend to my disgusting cigarette addiction.
[ This Message was edited by: Scarred on 2006-01-03 18:16 ][ This Message was edited by: Scarred on 2006-01-03 18:18 ]

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Intake Records, etc.
« on: January 03, 2006, 04:47:00 PM »
I would like the whole file on me. Not just intake records, but all of it. I know it's decades gone.

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Intake Records, etc.
« on: January 02, 2006, 09:53:00 PM »
Did any of you ever try to get your records from Straight? Was anyone successful at it?

I called Straight in St Pete (of course I don't remember the year), when they were still in operation to ask for a copy of my records be mailed to me. I was told by the female staffer they do not release records.

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / How long were you in Straight?
« on: January 02, 2006, 09:50:00 PM »
I do not remember how long. Long enough for me to flunk 11th grade. I think 10 months. If I could get my f/ing records, it would clear up a lot of shit for me.  8-10 time served. 4th phase highest achievement. Started over 1 time.[ This Message was edited by: Scarred on 2006-01-03 18:11 ]

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Blown Away
« on: January 01, 2006, 11:04:00 PM »
[ This Message was edited by: Scarred on 2006-01-29 18:32 ]

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Rules Rap
« on: January 01, 2006, 09:53:00 PM »
Tearing our ego's apart worked very well. If it was an ego we had to begin with. I think we had a lack of ego. If you grew up in a dysfunctional household to begin with, which made you dysfuntional in general (my case), it was like being stripped raw of skin really. I never saw any sympathy or empathy from my parents! They stuck me in that hell hole because no mental hospital would keep me...because there was nothing wrong with me! The problem was my dysfunctional parents! I was pretty much already prepared for the mental abuse...it was the emotional abuse I found difficult. Emotional abuse by other kids that did not know my background for the reality it was.

REMEMBER, WE WERE NEVER ALLOWED TO BLAME OUR PARENTS FOR ANYTHING!!!!!!!!!!! Oh, by the way, that rule still applies for my parents to this very day. They were given the free get out of jail card for all their past transgressions; but, we weren't allowed to get up in group to talk about how our parents beat the shit out of us or mentally tortured us with silent treatments & others forms of torture.

Miller must have made this rule up himself.

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / concert in july...hosted by my band.....could be a str8 reun
« on: January 01, 2006, 09:33:00 PM »
Sounds very interesting. It would fun & it would be nice to see and be with fellow straight people as their own relaxed selves. I have not seen one of you (except for Wanda).

Since you put on that concert every year for charity anyway, you should keep this forum & the Straight Alumni.com site posted whenever you have updates. You would have to give us the exact info regarding the camp ground (especially for those that have kids).

I'm interviewing for jobs right now because my husband just got fired. He's looking for a new job too. So, it would ultimately depend on whether or not we could both be off at the same time.

What kind of music do you play? I hope not "Bows and Flows of Angel Hair & Ice Cream Castles in the Air" which is a song the girls regularly had to sing in girls group. Although that song was way better than some of the other ridiculous things we were forced to sing "s-t-r-a-i-g-h-t i-n-c, straight inc, ad nauseum".

Do you know who Edwin McCain is? I think he was good friends w/Hootie & the Blow Fish band members. He was put in a place like Straight. I don't know the details. But, when I heard that about his past it made me really listen to the words of his songs to see if anything was revealing.  

That's awesome you have a band! :nworthy:

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Blown Away
« on: January 01, 2006, 12:50:00 PM »
[ This Message was edited by: Scarred on 2006-01-29 18:30 ]

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / In Rememberance of Wanda.
« on: December 31, 2005, 09:41:00 PM »
i've reread your post about how you did it and all. I've reread it several times knowing I was confused. Now I got it. You didn't come to St Pete from the VA Straight but the other way around. So you did cut yourself when you were brand new.

I'm so sorry I misunderstood. Regardless, I'm sorry. When I went in, I thought I'd get out in 14 days (as they told me during intake). So I tried to conform to their ways day 1 so I could leave in 13 more. You, obviously, did not buy into that line of shit. Nor were you flexible in any way as you spent over 2 years there. I went with the flow from day one...Straight was not the 1st place my parents tried to incarcerate me. Straight was the only place that WOULD TAKE ME on a permanent basis (the mental hospitals can't keep you if there's nothing wrong with you - as my parents hoped).

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Blown Away
« on: December 31, 2005, 09:22:00 PM »
I remember you too![ This Message was edited by: Scarred on 2006-01-29 18:29 ]

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Blown Away
« on: December 30, 2005, 02:40:00 PM »
3001 Gandy is correct. I went to the Straight Inc Alumni website via Yahoo (after several attempts to get registered).

Their website has a photo gallery section. There is a picture of a guy urinating on that bldg. I must have been way off about it being an aluminum bldg...the picture reveals the bldg with stucco siding. There's another picture of the same guy in front of the bldg giving it a beautiful middle finger bird salute!

I remember now 1st driving up to that bldg w/my parents...supposingly to inquire about an old VW 4sale...I heard loud singing coming from inside and asked what was going on...the day of my intake! Great trick mom&dad :evil: [ This Message was edited by: Scarred in St Pete on 2005-12-30 11:41 ]

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / In Rememberance of Wanda.
« on: December 30, 2005, 02:17:00 PM »
Someone emailed me regarding Wanda. It is rumored that she was going into the marines but relapsed; and, is dead.

She must have had a terrible time of it.

Rest in peace Wanda. You were only doing what you were brainwashed to do. I'm sorry I called you the scariest staff of all.  ::boohoo::

 I think I started this topic only to find people that were in the hell hole with me. If I can figure out how to delete all of this tonight I will.[ This Message was edited by: Scarred in St Pete on 2005-12-30 11:23 ]

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / In Rememberance of Wanda.
« on: December 29, 2005, 11:07:00 AM »
[ This Message was edited by: Scarred on 2006-01-01 15:43 ]

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Blown Away
« on: December 29, 2005, 10:54:00 AM »
[ This Message was edited by: Scarred on 2006-01-29 18:26 ]

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