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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / the republicans
« on: September 14, 2005, 11:33:00 PM »
Well I have been doing a lot of thinking lately. I have gone through a lot in the last year and whatever months since I have found this site and it's been very emotional for me. But I feel lately as though the truth is that although straight was hell, it was pure hell on earth, I am beginning to feel as though it wasn't a true hell.

What I mean is that I am still me. I still am essentially the same, at my core, and they didn't change or couldn't change ... my soul. That's how it seems to me now. That is still whole and intact, and so I am still fine in that sense of the word fine. The essence of my being is something that nobody can touch or change or alter, and so I will always be able to come through this or anything else.

But it was hell and things have been more than confusing for me.

Recently I finally brought the whole straigh issue up to my dad. I never did before out of fear. He basically told me that yeah, straight ended up getting into a lot of trouble, but that the parents didn't really know. Of course I think that's BS. Totally not excuseable, considering the inane songs we used to sing alone. The snapping of our fingers while we sang I love the mountains or whatever. How could they not know. But the fact is that my dad doesn't feel bad and truly believed he was doing the right thing.

What I want is for him to apologize and connect with me on an emotional level. But he is incapable of doing that. So what can I do. I can't cry forever and feel...dare I say it...sorry for myself. I mean, just I am realizing that I don't really NEED him to apologize. That doesn't mean we are close though. We're not. I can't talk to him very often and much of the time when I do I end up enraged about something. So I try not to talk to him about emotional things.

But the truth is that the core of my being is still here, completely whole and intact. And in fact, now I know what it is, it's not following what other people think, or doing what I should do. It's doing what I think and what I want. I can see those things as totally distinct. Maybe other people can't see that.

But that gets into the discussion about the Republicans and how they are greedy slave drivers. But that's another topic. Maybe even the Republicans cant' ruin the world as I have thought in the past year. But they can sure fuck it up some.

Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / my weekend
« on: June 28, 2005, 04:39:00 PM »
Fight fight fight
Just push it away
Fight fight fight
Just push until it breaks
Fight fight fight
Don't cry at the pain
Fight fight fight
Or watch yourself burn again
Fight fight fight
Don't howl like a dog
Fight fight
Just fill up the sky
Fight fight fight
Fight til you drop
Fight fight fight
And never never
Never stop

Fight fight fight
Fight fight fight

So when the hurting starts
And when the nightmares begin
Remember you can fill up the sky
You don't have to give in
You don't have to give in

Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / the new faith based initiatives
« on: June 08, 2005, 04:01:00 PM »
I have been reading on licensure of various programs lately, trying to get an idea of how things work and how to possibly change things...and I realized that the faith based initiative by bush has completely done away with all standards of care. What is this man thinking!! Now any place at least in TX that wants can literally do whatever they want to!! What is the world coming to. :flame:  :flame:  :flame:

From ... /index.php

Teen Challenge: Lowering Health, Safety and Quality of Care Standards

Teen Challenge is a national faith-based residential drug treatment program that had nine branches in Texas in 2004. The programs have no medical component and center instead of around prayer, Bible study and religious conversion.

Teen Challenge currently operates five drug treatment centers in Texas ? none of which have a state license, but only two of which have formally registered their status as a faith-based facility exempt from state licensing. As exempt faith-based drug treatment centers, Teen Challenge facilities are not required to have licensed chemical dependency counselors, conduct staff training or criminal background checks, protect client confidentiality rights, adhere to state health and safety standards, or report abuse, neglect, emergencies and medication errors.

Even prior to seeking an exemption from state licensing, a 1995 state inspection revealed that Teen Challenge was not compliant with numerous state health, safety and quality of care standards.

Rather than force Teen Challenge to meet the basic health and safety standards to which their secular counterparts must adhere, then-Governor George Bush pushed through legislation that would exempt Teen Challenge and other faith-based drug treatment centers from state licensing ? and the health, safety and quality of care standards that accompany that licensure. ?Teen Challenge should view itself as a pioneer in how Texas approaches faith-based programs, I?ll call together people, ask them to make recommendations. I?d like to make recommendations to the legislature?But Teen Challenge is going to exist?and licensing standards have to be different from what they are today,? then-Governor Bush said. (World Magazine, 7/29-8/5/1995)

There is no question that eliminating basic health and safety standards made operations easier for a few faith-based programs in Texas, however the lack of minimum standards has threatened the safety of those participating in the program. In 1998, a boy filed suit against Dallas Teen Challenge Boys Ranch and Assemblies of God, alleging that a counselor, who was a convicted drug trafficker, sexually molested him and two other boys. The lawsuit also claimed that the ranch?s Executive Director, the church and the ranch?s board knowingly hired people with criminal histories to serve as counselors. (Austin American-Statesman, 5/13/1998)

Without state inspections or high publicity cases like the Boys Ranch incident to shed light on Teen Challenge practices, it is impossible to know how many other health code infractions and dangerous policies are being implemented at these facilities.

Teen Challenge and over a hundred other exempted faith-based drug treatment programs in Texas are now operating completely free of any state oversight or standards of care.

Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / Movies you liked recently
« on: May 31, 2005, 05:53:00 PM »
I am starting a new topic.  :smile: How about movies that you have seen recently that you really liked or were moved by? How about those that are related to straight-like topics?

I'll start. I watched Donnie Darko this weekend. I've seen it before, but it had been a while and it was so good. Especially since it's set in the 80's in high school. The music and the whole mood seem so familiar to me. And of course its a sci-fi movie and I love sci-fi.

Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / The Irving Tx building
« on: April 29, 2005, 02:08:00 PM »
I went and saw the old Irving building yesterday on my lunchbreak. I wanted to tell how it looks now...

I went over there, I work about 15 minutes away, on my lunchbreak and drove around the building a few times. Then I realized that I really had to go inside so I went in and asked as nicely as I could if I could please use the restroom. I was wearing my work clothes too so I knew I looked sort of business like. It's now some sort of a software/graphics place. So, the lady at the front desk looked like she really didn't want to but she did let me go back, she walked me back to the restroon. Well, the whole place has been remodeled, and it's almost all purple. The only thing, I think, that was the same was the inside of the bathroom, which is where I went. The place was full of people walking around and talking, and everyone seemed very energized. And it was all purple with some yellow I think. I couldn't tell exactly where the group room had gone, it may have been behind the area I was in, I couldn't tell. But all of those hallways were completely gone. It was mostly open space with a bunch of small cubicles in the middle, surrounded by offices along the back walls. Now I have this lively place that's full of COLOR to replace the memory I have of that white, white building. With blue carpet and blue plastic chairs.

Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / this makes me sick
« on: February 24, 2005, 03:36:00 PM »
President Bush today released his '05 National Drug Control Strategy. I was looking at the website for the Office of National Drug Control Policy, and here is what he and the administration have to say about long-term treatment:

Long-Term Residential Treatment provides care 24 hours per day, generally in nonhospital settings. The best-known residential treatment model is the therapeutic community (TC), but residential treatment may also employ other models, such as cognitive-behavioral therapy. TCs are residential programs with planned lengths of stay of 6 to 12 months. TCs focus on the "resocialization" of the individual and use the program's entire "community," including other residents, staff, and the social context, as active components of treatment. Addiction is viewed in the context of an individual's social and psychological deficits, and treatment focuses on developing personal accountability and responsibility and socially productive lives. Treatment is highly structured and can at times be confrontational, with activities designed to help residents examine damaging beliefs, self-concepts, and patterns of behavior and to adopt new, more harmonious and constructive ways to interact with others. Many TCs are quite comprehensive and can include employment training and other support services on site.

Compared with patients in other forms of drug treatment, the typical TC resident has more severe problems, with more co-occurring mental health problems and more criminal involvement. Research shows that TCs can be modified to treat individuals with special needs, including adolescents, women, those with severe mental disorders, and individuals in the criminal justice system. ... tment.html


Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / news story on narcanon
« on: February 24, 2005, 02:06:00 PM »
SACRAMENTO, California (AP) -- The state's top education official urged all schools to drop an anti-drug program after an evaluation released Wednesday found it taught inaccurate and unscientific information.

Jack O'Connell, superintendent of public instruction, launched the evaluation after The San Francisco Chronicle reported on inaccuracies in the program in June.

The panel of five medical doctors and nine school health education specialists said the program "does not reflect accurate, widely accepted medical and scientific evidence."

Narconon Drug Prevention & Education, a free program with ties to the Church of Scientology, made presentations in at least 39 California school districts since 2000, including San Francisco, Los Angeles and Sacramento. San Francisco and Los Angeles banned Narconon after the Chronicle reports.

Some teachers reported that Narconon instructors told students that the body can sweat out drug residues in saunas, and that as drugs exit the body, they produce colored ooze, the Chronicle reported.

Some other inaccuracies cited by the evaluation and the Chronicle -- including that drug residues stay in body fat, causing people to experience repeated flashbacks and cravings -- echo beliefs held by the Church of Scientology.

Narconon's president Clark Carr defended the program after the evaluation.

"Narconon is proud that throughout our nearly 40 years of service we have been able to help millions of youth worldwide to turn away from drug experimentation and a life on drugs," Carr said.

Among other findings, the panel determined that Narconon also incorrectly told students that the amount of a drug taken determines whether it acts as a stimulant or sedative, and that drugs "ruin creativity and dull senses."

The story is at: ... index.html

Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / I was listening to this
« on: February 11, 2005, 01:15:00 PM »
this morning...

Utopia -- Goldfrapp

It?s a strange day
No colours or shapes
No sound in my head
I forget who i am
When i?m with you
There?s no reason
There?s no sense
I?m not supposed to feel
I forget who i am
I forget
Fascist baby
Utopia, utopia
My dog needs new ears
Make his eyes see forever
Make him live like me
Again and again
I?m wired to the world
That?s how i know everything
I?m super brain
That?s how they made me

Feed Your Head / Come Clean
« on: January 10, 2005, 06:23:00 PM »
Come Clean is a really interesting book, it's fiction, based on straight. It was very strange reading it and knowing exactly what it was like...although there are a few differences, some of which I think are on purpose to further the plot. Such as the secret communication that goes on between the boys and girls side (ummm, I really doubt that would ever be possible). I did like the book though. The author is Terri Paddock.[ This Message was edited by: jane on 2005-01-10 15:33 ]

Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / president bush
« on: December 21, 2004, 02:01:00 PM »
Newly Obtained FBI Records Call Defense Department?s Methods "Torture," Express Concerns Over "Cover-Up" That May Leave FBI "Holding the Bag" for Abuses

NEW YORK -- A document released for the first time today by the American Civil Liberties Union suggests that President Bush issued an Executive Order authorizing the use of inhumane interrogation methods against detainees in Iraq. Also released by the ACLU today are a slew of other records including a December 2003 FBI e-mail that characterizes methods used by the Defense Department as "torture" and a June 2004 "Urgent Report" to the Director of the FBI that raises concerns that abuse of detainees is being covered up.
"These documents raise grave questions about where the blame for widespread detainee abuse ultimately rests," said ACLU Executive Director Anthony D. Romero. "Top government officials can no longer hide from public scrutiny by pointing the finger at a few low-ranking soldiers."
The documents were obtained after the ACLU and other public interest organizations filed a lawsuit against the government for failing to respond to a Freedom of Information Act request.
The two-page e-mail that references an Executive Order states that the President directly authorized interrogation techniques including sleep deprivation, stress positions, the use of military dogs, and "sensory deprivation through the use of hoods, etc." The ACLU is urging the White House to confirm or deny the existence of such an order and immediately to release the order if it exists. The FBI e-mail, which was sent in May 2004 from "On Scene Commander--Baghdad" to a handful of senior FBI officials, notes that the FBI has prohibited its agents from employing the techniques that the President is said to have authorized.
Another e-mail, dated December 2003, describes an incident in which Defense Department interrogators at Guantánamo Bay impersonated FBI agents while using "torture techniques" against a detainee. The e-mail concludes "If this detainee is ever released or his story made public in any way, DOD interrogators will not be held accountable because these torture techniques were done [sic] the ?FBI? interrogators. The FBI will [sic] left holding the bag before the public."
The document also says that no "intelligence of a threat neutralization nature" was garnered by the "FBI" interrogation, and that the FBI?s Criminal Investigation Task Force (CITF) believes that the Defense Department?s actions have destroyed any chance of prosecuting the detainee. The e-mail?s author writes that he or she is documenting the incident "in order to protect the FBI."
"The methods that the Defense Department has adopted are illegal, immoral, and counterproductive," said ACLU staff attorney Jameel Jaffer. "It is astounding that these methods appear to have been adopted as a matter of policy by the highest levels of government."
The June 2004 "Urgent Report" addressed to the FBI Director is heavily redacted. The legible portions of the document appear to describe an account given to the FBI?s Sacramento Field Office by an FBI agent who had "observed numerous physical abuse incidents of Iraqi civilian detainees," including "strangulation, beatings, [and] placement of lit cigarettes into the detainees ear openings." The document states that "[redacted] was providing this account to the FBI based on his knowledge that [redacted] were engaged in a cover-up of these abuses."
The release of these documents follows a federal court order that directed government agencies to comply with a year-old request under the Freedom of Information Act filed by the ACLU, the Center for Constitutional Rights, Physicians for Human Rights, Veterans for Common Sense and Veterans for Peace. The New York Civil Liberties Union is co-counsel in the case.
Other documents released by the ACLU today include:
·       An FBI email regarding DOD personnel impersonating FBI officials during interrogations. The e-mail refers to a "ruse" and notes that "all of those [techniques] used in these scenarios" were approved by the Deputy Secretary of Defense. (Jan. 21, 2004)
·       Another FBI agent?s account of interrogations at Guantánamo in which detainees were shackled hand and foot in a fetal position on the floor. The agent states that the detainees were kept in that position for 18 to 24 hours at a time and most had "urinated or defacated [sic]" on themselves. On one occasion, the agent reports having seen a detainee left in an unventilated, non-air conditioned room at a temperature "probably well over a hundred degrees." The agent notes: "The detainee was almost unconscious on the floor, with a pile of hair next to him. He had apparently been literally pulling his own hair out throughout the night." (Aug. 2, 2004)
·       An e-mail stating that an Army lawyer "worked hard to cwrite [sic] a legal justification for the type of interrogations they (the Army) want to conduct" at Guantánamo Bay. (Dec. 9, 2002)
·       An e-mail noting the initiation of an FBI investigation into the alleged rape of a juvenile male detainee at Abu Ghraib prison in Iraq. (July 28, 2004)
·       An FBI agent?s account of an interrogation at Guantánamo - an interrogation apparently conducted by Defense Department personnel - in which a detainee was wrapped in an Israeli flag and bombarded with loud music and strobe lights. (July 30, 2004)
The ACLU and its allies are scheduled to go to court again this afternoon, where they will seek an order compelling the CIA to turn over records related to an internal investigation into detainee abuse. Although the ACLU has received more than 9,000 documents from other agencies, the CIA refuses to confirm or deny even the existence of many of the records that the ACLU and other plaintiffs have requested. The CIA is reported to have been involved in abusing detainees in Iraq and at secret CIA detention facilities around the globe.
The lawsuit is being handled by Lawrence Lustberg and Megan Lewis of the New Jersey-based law firm Gibbons, Del Deo, Dolan, Griffinger & Vecchione, P.C. Other attorneys in the case are Jaffer, Amrit Singh and Judy Rabinovitz of the ACLU; Art Eisenberg and Beth Haroules of the NYCLU; and Barbara Olshansky and Jeff Fogel of CCR.
The documents referenced above can be found at:

Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / anyone remember from dallas
« on: December 10, 2004, 04:48:00 PM »
I was just thinking about all the people I was in Straight with (1989), does anyone else remember:
Christina, or Christie (?) a young blonde girl, the youngest girl there (besides some 10-year-old boy they stuck in there who was obviously a hard core drug user). She may have had a mowhawk, I think she did, but she was really like 13 or something.
Jana T., who was sick a lot
Laura, the girl from australia, actually I think she got pulled while I was there
Sasha, a really REALLY tall girl, like 6 ft, and skinny, with brown hair
Jennifer P.
Stacey, gymnastics girl
Lori B...
Marilee K. who I vividly remember one night when they brought her back after copping out
I think there was a Carmen, who had brown hair and skinny
That's all I remember for now.
Carmel, or anyone who was there after me, did you know any of these people?? What were the goings on there after I left?? I am just curious.
People on staff I remember:
Craig M.
Steve B.
Stephanie P.
Shelly B.
Shelly's boyfriend

Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / TX wilderness camp in news
« on: September 20, 2004, 02:22:00 PM »
I've seen this on the news a few times lately, I thought I would post the story:

Wilderness camp may be closed after assaults alleged
State moves to revoke license; director cites Strayhorn 'vendetta'

09:00 PM CDT on Thursday, August 26, 2004

By ROBERT T. GARRETT / The Dallas Morning News

AUSTIN ? The state has moved to shut down and revoke the license of a Bastrop County wilderness camp where two male employees have been accused of sexually assaulting teenage boys.

"Your operation is an immediate threat to the health and safety of children, therefore, you are not to operate," Charlane Bateman, the state's director of residential child-care licensing, wrote to an officer of the Woodside Trails Therapeutic Camp.

Camp director Bebe Gaines, who has attributed its problems to a "political vendetta" by state Comptroller Carole Keeton Strayhorn, said Thursday that the facility will fight the Department of Family and Protective Services' attempt to strip it of a license.

"We ... will ask for an administrative review," Ms. Gaines said in a statement. "Regardless of the outcome, I am proud of all the good that we have done for the most difficult of Texas's children."

Jackie Dewayne Reynolds Jr. 36, is accused in the indictments of waking a 13-year-old resident one night last spring and forcing the youth to engage in oral sex.

Robert Carl Meuth, 26, of San Marcos is accused of fondling and performing oral sex on a 15-year-old resident in late 2001.

Both men have posted $50,000 bail.

Woodside Trails, a primitive camp where the state has placed foster boys for two decades, has received numerous citations. In April, Ms. Strayhorn criticized it for mixing foster children with juvenile offenders.

Geoff Wool, spokesman for the Department of Family and Protective Services, said the state didn't act sooner to close the camp because it wasn't until the last three months that tipsters informed a state child-abuse hotline of the assault allegations.

"Basically, it was mounting evidence in a situation that needed to be addressed," Mr. Wool said.

"We had those four allegations that were all serious in nature that came up within a 10-week period."

Mr. Wool said he was referring to, in addition to the allegations of sexual abuse by staff members, two other incidents that a state inspector confirmed July 1 ? a beating by two boys of a third boy, causing head injuries; and a boy's obtaining marijuana from a female staff member's daughter.

Mr. Wool said child-care licensing authorities had to investigate and confirm the allegations before they decided Wednesday to move to revoke Woodside Trails' permit and order that all children be removed by this evening.

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Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / straight kids documentary
« on: August 06, 2004, 01:35:00 PM »
I recently got an email from someone working with the straight kids documentary asking for my info again. She said that they were re-entering all their data on people and also asking if people are willing to be interviewed on camera. She also said to pass her email along to anyone else who I know that was in there so if you want me to send it to you send me a PM.

Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / please call on me!
« on: July 27, 2004, 04:46:00 PM »
I am now studying counseling, this probably has something to do with my horrible time at straight, I don't know. Whatever the reason, I am now taking this counseling class, a class on drug and addictions. This is pure torture for me as the teacher, not to offend anyone in AA, but he's been in AA for 25 years, and there are enough similarities between AA and straight to make me cringe pretty much every time he mentions it. Moral defects, higher power etc.... Anyways, then last week we watched this movie on tough love, it was like some after school special about how you need to be tough with your kids to get them off of drugs. It was so pathetic! And the kid was only smoking pot and they were acting like his life was ruined. It was really sad. Anyways, tonight we are supposed to watch another film, called Say it Straight. It's supposed to be about adolescent drug treatment centers, I think a very positive take on the whole thing. I have decided...there's no way in hell I can sit through this! I am skipping school tonight for the second time in 3 weeks. I am exhibiting one of the first signs of adolescent drug addiction: skipping school. They better lock me up too.....

Straight, Inc. and Derivatives / check out this website
« on: May 05, 2004, 01:32:00 PM »
I found this web site last night that's this organization called the center for cognitive liberty and ethics. It looks pretty interesting, the site is:

Also, he's got this other site on there too:

I want to read that. I thought I would post these if anyone might find them interesting--


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