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Anonymous:
Will pick a name minyana.
I spent so many years of my life enamoured with the idea of doing something more higher spirited with my life and being convinced if they didn't accept me I was nothing, and basically I was, or not.  What a walk in the park for them! I grew up in a very abusive home that the seed offered perfect refuge from.  They did nothing to repair our home but only added to my rebelion so deserved. My mom spwnt 4,000.00 to get rid of me happily becasue after years of punching my face in I was about to start punching back and she knew it.  1/2 a joint of pot and asta la vista, but then they convinced her, with my help my brother should come too. He ended up running away.  I stayed and she had less control on me then ever did which pissed her off but she was glad to be rid of the responsibility.  Everything was the Seed's fault.  I did great in school....a genius, weekends with seedlings.....perfect.  They left and I followed.  Scrubbing their bathrooms in Fla was a privelage and an honor and sometimes I got to talk to Hank.  He was so hot..what the hell did I know about knowing?  I never suspected anything till Art asked me to watch his house.  I thought I would die with the honor bestowed upon me....maybe I would even be chosen for staff. In my dream of dreams.  I was so in love with all of them...idolized and respected them.  I couldn't ignore the fact that I was told not to read the books on his shelf.............so of course I studdied them!  They were Hitler related and basically books on cults and so forth, his library.  I couldn't help but question what he was doing.
This huge enigma, godlike, man that passed in and out being an icon was somewhat tangible to me for a night.  I was in their house.  I tried to behave but was driven with curiosity.  Entirely loving at the time trust me, but WHY could I not read the books. The frigin books. Lot's of hitler schyche books and physcology books and then it dawned on me that we always had to have permission to take phsycology classes in school.  Does anyone remeber that?  If you did you had to see the staff for special counseling..........I have been up all night!  Bye

GregFL:

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I couldn't ignore the fact that I was told not to read the books on his shelf.............so of course I studdied them!  They were Hitler related and basically books on cults and so forth, his library.  ....The frigin books. Lot's of hitler schyche books and physcology books and then it dawned on me that we always had to have permission to take phsycology classes in school.

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I have heard this before, that Art had a fascination not specifically with Hitler, but with the "Hitler Youth".  To me this is creepy beyond belief.  Now you say he also had books on cults?

This is more evidence he knew what he was doing. I am disquisted as I read your post.

Antigen:
No shit! Makes things a little simpler for me, though. If he didn't know what he was doing, he could go down in my personal history as a well intended loon who inadvertantly fucked w/ my family on a profound level.

But he knew. That's different. Fuck that old shyster!
Human beings, who are almost unique in having the ability to learn from the experience of others, are also remarkable for their apparent disinclination to do so.
Douglas Adams, _Last Chance to See_

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Anonymous:
Cool your jets folks.  He was not fond of Hitler or Hitler Youths.  I never saw any of those books.

Anonymous:
i was involved and did watch house have no proof of what the books were about but even in 80' were told not to look at his private collection of books. this was true.

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