I apologize for the double post. I wasn't planning on sharing this with the forum, but hey why not! When I got home from Carlbrook, I didn't have any therapy for awhile. About five months later, I went back to a psychiatrist. This psychiatrist specifically was the man that reccomended Carlbrook and the woods to my guardian after only knowing stuff that my guardian told him. Well, he actually apologized to me. He told me that his advice was wrong and that it was definetly a horrible choice to send me into intense therapy, especially after never having had any therapy what's so ever before hand. At this point, I told him that I've been having nightmares of being at carlbrook every night since I got home. He reccomended me another therapist to see. At that point, I was already over 18 so I am doing this on my own free will. He told me that I have gone through a trauma that needs to be worked out.
"So I have to have therapy because of therapy?"
"Yes."
Apparently, when I was away, a lot of the things that were thrown at me, especially during my animus and even teneo were undeserved. My original thoughts when I was going through treatment at carlbrook was that this cannot be right. But under the circumstances of environmental manipulation, I coerced. I was put into suspension for not agreeing with carlbrook, and low in behold, I was right. When i walked out of my new therapist's office for the first time, we ended on him saying to me,
"You were punished for being depressed. You were treated like a criminal because you faced repetitive traumas in your life. They wouldn't let you grieve properly and because of this, I think you are right when you said you felt like you lost a connection with your dad while you were there. I'm not going to pressure you and I definetley will not punish you. There is no standard treatment for therapy so I will not make any attempt to treat you similarly to any of my other patients. I'm just thankful this experience has not scarred you enough to keep you away from therapy all together."
