I never stopped fighting. It is how I survive. I wake to a choice of living thru fear or relying on someone else to keep me alive. My #s prove I work better alone. Shit, maybe I was mind fucked to think that a female (exMBer) could keep pace. I'm just bored with having to muscle thru 2.5 languages to find a female that I can trust.
BTW, I made $1500 dragging a child rapist to the "cock locker"(they don't like molesters). The look on that little survivor's face made me wanna snap and just dig a hole for this garbage.
I kept pro and let it go. I'm not LEO; I do this because my friend needed ME. Fuck it; 55 days of marginal sensation until I get my rush back. Jason